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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-19 23:41:15
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Another day, another snake. #exposuretherapy

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-04-25 18:24:33
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When the outer coping and keeping track layer of my awareness and my inner I-die-now #anxiety give way to a big oh hell yeah, because retaining my composure is big stress on its own and sometimes you just have to let go. No turning back when Iโ€™m already at the middle of the bridge! #anxiety #agoraphobia #ptsd #ptsdrecovery #exposuretherapy #pushingboundaries

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-03-15 00:08:26
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Overcoming fear, one fluffy rodent at a time. ๐Ÿ“ธ @moop.a.loop . #justlikeratatouille #exposuretherapy #notatalllikeWillard #haventdiedfromtheplagueyet

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2017-04-26 16:05:25
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Join us for a special evening of photography & music on 5/27 with @ediesunday's Exposure Therapy, a one-night art show featuring some of the artist's favorite pieces, new and old. Doors at 7pm and your suggested donation is welcome! Stay tuned for updates and RSVP through the link in our profile ๐Ÿ“ธโœจ#filmforever #exposuretherapy #space24twenty #austin

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-03-21 02:54:36
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Rainy night #7 - I understand this is a #marchmiracle in California and all the rain they should have received since January is falling now... Egon is muddy and messy and I'm just getting used to it! Tilda manages to look regal and unfazed. #sabbatical #vanlife #exposuretherapy

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-01-16 13:26:54
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Please enjoy this pre-therapy-dead-inside selfie as I canโ€™t sleep because I keep thinking about the exposure therapy I have to do to train the OCD Bad Dogโ€™s behaviour and itโ€™s giving me ใ€ฐ๏ธanxietyใ€ฐ๏ธ On the other hand if you want to hang esp weekdays somewhere like a cafe/your house that involves me traveling to the place please hmu because I need to try to go away from my โ€œsafeโ€ bubble, like, literally every day. That or watch videos of people vomiting and... I donโ€™t really want to do that either ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธใ€ฐ๏ธ๐Ÿšƒ๐Ÿš–๐Ÿš๐Ÿš‰๐Ÿšœ๐Ÿš‡ #exposuretherapy #ocd #agoraphobia #agoraphobic #emetophobia

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-22 14:06:09
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woke up in beast mode ๐ŸŒŠ๐Ÿ’™

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-23 03:06:50
#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-22 23:47:40
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Just a few months ago, it took me 7 days to drive here. Now I just flew here in 3 odd hours. Who knew that flying is so much faster?! And you donโ€™t have to keep your eye on the road. And you can get up and walk without stopping. Sometimes the view is good too. Dream big. Keep at it. Youโ€™ll get there. #exposuretherapy #agoraphobia #anxiety #exposuretherapyworks #depression

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-22 22:34:02
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So a couple of my teen clients at work are starting to discuss sex stuff- which causes loads of intrusive thoughts and anxiety and disgust for me. Iโ€™ve decided to buckle down on exposures, so I got this book from the library and it is going to be my buddy for the next few days. I feel like it can contaminate the environment, like emotional germs, so before I even start reading it, Iโ€™m going to keep it in my car, sleep with it under my pillow, prop it up in my living room so that there is no way to escape it and avoid habituating. Iโ€™m really really feeling yucky about this plan, but itโ€™s worked in the past, so it is likely to work again. Ritual prevention is not avoiding and not thinking/saying specific statements to reassure myself or distance myself from it. #ocdillustrated #ocd #intrusivethoughts #exposureresponseprevention #exposureandresponseprevention #erp #cbt #exposuretherapy #habituation

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-22 18:15:43
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I did SO good yesterday!! Iโ€™ve been putting off a referral for a pelvic ultrasound for over a year now. Iโ€™ve scheduled it twice and cancelled it. I finally had an appt for that and a back X-ray yesterday and I knew I was going to go through with it. I had my husband go with me for some extra support, he waited in the waiting room. It was at 415pm and when I got there, they sent me to the ER to register. I was not happy about having to wait inside the ER and I did not want to see anything crazy. I was a little anxious but nothing too bad. I was there for about 15 min and then went back to radiology. Anxiety increased a few times as I had to stand really still and hold my breath during the back X-rays. It increased again as there was some pain with the pelvic ultrasound. But it all went great and I was SO happy with myself afterwards. Later that evening we went to dinner & a movie! Iโ€™ve been crushing the medical appts lately!! #anxiety #anxious #anxietyattack #anxietydisorder #agoraphobia #agoraphobic #healthanxiety #panic #panicattack #panicdisorder #depressed #depression #ptsd #gad #exposuretherapy #healthanxiety #mentalillness #mentalillnesstreatment #mentalillnessrecovery #mentalillnessawareness #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthtreatment

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-22 16:43:54
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#ichoosebeauty day 20. I went back to church today after taking a few weeks off everything but dog walking and Iโ€™m glad I did because it was lovely. I just needed a break. Iโ€™m still not 100% but taking the best care of myself that I can. Gonna aim for the gym tomorrow as well ๐Ÿ˜Š #positive #myhappylife #happy #findinghappiness #depression #anxiety #mentalhealth #lookingafterme #gettingwell #recovery #anxietyrecovery #agoraphobia #timetotalk #agoraphobiarecovery #strength #positivity #kindness #ichoosehappiness #exposuretherapy #anxietyexposure

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-22 14:06:09
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woke up in beast mode ๐ŸŒŠ๐Ÿ’™

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-22 12:59:46
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Autumn season is soo pretty ๐Ÿ‚๐Ÿ˜ I just want to be a kid again, and roll and jump in the leaves, with no cares in the world. I guess I still could, but I reckon I would get a few funny looks ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜œ Life is from our own perspective, and I'm going to try and not think so serious all the time, and then maybe I will relax more, and go jump in the leaves ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿป๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿป . . . . . #mentalawarenesstrain #agoraphobia #panicdisorder #mentalhealthawareness #anxietyawareness #recoveryjourney #recoveryispossible #anxiety ##anxietyisreal #mentalhealth #positivethoughts ##mentalillnessawareness #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalillness #inspire #raiseawareness #nature #exposuretherapy #instadaily #happiness #donttakelifesoseriously #autumn #autumncolours #autumnleaves #justrelax #beinthemoment #instamum #motherhood #staypositive

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-22 12:28:49
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It's so crazy how time flies. This is why it's so important to live and not just exist. Goodbye 30's. You were so good to me honestly! . Daily Life Vlog - 05/21/18 | Last Day of My 30s! (Link in bio - youtube.com/kandikalistar) . #vlog #vlogger #youtube #watchmylife #exposuretherapy #mentalhealth #anxiety #southflorida

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-22 03:43:10
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Hello I'm thรฉrรจse and I'm taking huge positive steps. OCD doesn't have to control me, negative people don't have to have control over me. I'm cute and powerful. Grateful for the support of friends, space, distance, and the chance to get to know myself. #progress #healing #ocd #exposuretherapy #cutie #confidence #friendshipismagic #balance

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-22 01:27:32
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The headlines that Britain is putting out is some next level fuckery! Wow! . Daily Life Vlog - 05/19/18 | Royal Wedding (Link in bio - youtube.com/kandikalistar) . #vlog #vlogger #youtube #watchmylife #exposuretherapy #mentalhealth #anxiety #southflorida

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 19:11:50
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Sooo much in this vlog. Skin care routine/talk about Elle's. Trisha/Jason and emotional warfare. We go pick up uncle Barry and he explains yanny/laurel. There's more but I can't even remember. Enjoy! . Daily Life Vlog - 05/18/18 | Pure Bliss (Link in bio - youtube.com/kandikalistar) . #vlog #vlogger #youtube #watchmylife #exposuretherapy #mentalhealth #anxiety #southflorida

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 16:57:53
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I shared my story about struggling and living with OCD, with the @iocdf I feel full of gratitude that Iโ€™m able to share my story and be honest about my difficulties. *Link In Bio* โœจ - My passions are reading and writing. Whenever I feel helpless, these are the things I turn towards. However, OCD has threatened to take them away from me. I go through stages of either reading compulsively where I cannot stop because I fear something bad will happen, or I get stuck re-reading the same sentences to ensure I have read them correctly. In terms of writing the same problems arise... . . . . #ocdawareness #ocd #obsessivecompulsivedisorder #ocdrecovery #intrusivethoughts #compulsions #therapy #blogpost #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #mentalhealthblogger #browngirlbloggers #breakthestigma #anxietysupport #anxietyquotes #lbloggersuk #depression #exposuretherapy #selfcare #selfhelp #meditation #journal #recoveryquotes #mindbodyspirit #bpd #depression #britishasian #cptsd #acoa

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 16:07:37
#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 13:32:49
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Today's program: Infrared studio cycling spin with nasal breath hold progressions then ice dunk! #exposuretherapy #icebath #infrared #warriorgames #breathwork #adaptivesports

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 06:20:33
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This weekend was pretty good!! Friday evening my husband, myself, and his sister went to our county fair. Last year we skipped it and the year before I was an anxious mess. This year, no anxiety. It helped that it wasnโ€™t hot either! Saturday, we took our dog to a pet clinic 40 min away to get vaccinated and microchipped. I was pretty anxious when I saw the needle. Iโ€™ve never had an issue with needles but Iโ€™m scared of them bc they make ppl pass out and Iโ€™m scared of passing out! I started to panic when he got the microchip bc the needle was HUGE, but he didnโ€™t cry or bleed so it was all just fine!! We went home and I even administered a vaccine to him myself! Funny, I didnโ€™t even think of the needle being an issue, I was too focused on doing it right! This morning, we had breakfast and then left the house at 945am. We drove 1hr to another clinic (I forgot some vaccines), where we stood in line for 30+ minutes. I did SOOO good! I was a little anxious bc we were surrounded by big dogs, but it passed once I saw the dogs were all nice. I didnโ€™t eat or drink Gatorade until we got back home for lunch...Which is HUGE for me!! Anxiety didnโ€™t get above a 3 today! Then, we lounged around watching 13 Reasons Why and then went to my father-in-lawโ€™s for dinner. I was very happy with all I did this week and weekend! Tomorrow I have a pelvic ultrasound and Iโ€™m most nervous for having to hold a full bladder for the test! Iโ€™ve been putting the test off for a year now, so Iโ€™m eager to get it done! I hope everyone has a good night! โค๏ธ #anxiety #anxious #anxietyattack #anxietydisorder #agoraphobia #agoraphobic #healthanxiety #panic #panicattack #panicdisorder #depressed #depression #ptsd #gad #exposuretherapy #healthanxiety #mentalillness #mentalillnesstreatment #mentalillnessrecovery #mentalillnessawareness #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthtreatment

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 04:07:14
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No biggie, just Miranda and I killing it again @sharpglitters @synthfae #exposuretherapy @exposuretherapy.dll @pyramidschemegr

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 04:02:57
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@justasktomassilly we r angels @pyramidschemegr #exposuretherapy @exposuretherapy.dll Clearly these are taken by @lauren.milligan 's fancy #iphonex

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 03:59:23
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@lauren.milligan I love hanging out with you @pyramidschemegr @exposuretherapy.dll #exposuretherapy

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 03:45:48
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๐Ÿ‘€๐Ÿ‘€๐Ÿ‘€ @exposuretherapy.dll #exposuretherapy @pyramidschemegr

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 03:44:25
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With the band @exposuretherapy.dll #exposuretherapy @pyramidschemegr

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 02:40:12
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@tonytape and I being Spooky, as Usual @exposuretherapy.dll #exposuretherapy

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 02:33:21
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WOW we did that, @kellanwhitman . I'm obsessed. @exposuretherapy.dll #exposuretherapy @pyramidschemegr

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 02:16:05
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#Krillin @krillinband opening at the Exposure Therapy album release party at @pyramidschemegr the other day. I'm about to upload some beautiful photos... BEHOLD #exposuretherapy @exposuretherapy.dll

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-20 16:15:31
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Dress like a kid, Act like a kid.. or, run for ๐Ÿฆ @elisita_za

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-20 11:58:40
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Flashback to @mackidnpascack @wholefoodsbergennj ! Teach kids how to make all foods fit and fun! If you have a child with selective eating, eats only ten foods or has been diagnosed with ARFID, itโ€™s okay! Work with @elizabethadler.rd and or me in NYC or @lifestyleloungenj. Through mindfulness, fun and good exposures, we can help your child grow and grow their love of eating! ๐Ÿ™

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-20 02:26:51
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exposure therapy (ERP) is HARD and anyone thatโ€™s been through ERP knows how hard it is. itโ€™s easy to put off those really hard exposures and tell yourself that youโ€™ll do them later. i do this a lot and have always been a procrastinator - doing exposures is no different and the urge to put off exposures, especially those really hard ones, is strong. however, i have to keep in mind that the reward on the other side is huge. doing exposures frees you from the grips of OCD and even though they are so difficult and even panic-inducing in the moment, itโ€™s better to experience those feelings NOW rather than later. hindsight will show you later how worth it it was to feel terrible in that moment ๐ŸŒฑโœจ #ocdvocate #ocdrecovery #ERP #exposuretherapy #mindfulness

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-20 01:58:53
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Never thought I'd buy one of these. And just think, it could've been metallic blue lol. (All thanks to @gomezandco ) #swimwear #butalsounderwear #gay #costumedecisions #jellyfishqueer #thicktrunk #gulp #exposuretherapy

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-19 23:41:15
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Another day, another snake. #exposuretherapy

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-19 23:32:51
#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-19 22:57:56
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Pete and I grab some lunch at Sonic after an afternoon of shopping! Enjoy! . SONIC MUKBANG - Eating Show | Eat With Me! (Link in bio - youtube.com/kandikalistar) . #mukbang #eatingshow #eatingvlog #eatwithme #watchmeeat #yum #foodie #food #vlog #vlogger #youtube #watchmylife #exposuretherapy #mentalhealth #anxiety #southflorida

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-19 22:24:39
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Feeling excited! I just agreed to go camping OMG.. Have an awesome and amazing Saturday. Sometimes we have to bend and remember that bending does not mean breaking. Sending love vibes all day! #positivity #nobugsallowed #familytimeโค๏ธ #camping #icandothis #trynewthings #exposuretherapy

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-19 14:02:03
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And this folks, is why Iโ€™m scared of cows. #devoncountyshow #lookatthesizeofthatthing #exposuretherapy #havingaburgerforlunch

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-19 02:25:23
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365 days ago I made the decision that it was time to take my life back from my disorders. Although I am still a work in progress, I know now that I am truly never alone. I am incredibly thankful to have made it thus far and could not be more elated to see what God has planned for me. #recovery #mentalhealthawareness #progressnotperfection #exposuretherapy #inspire #hope #faith

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-19 00:32:13
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Had a fun time at the neighborhood pool. Kota got in & did pretty well! Slowly overcoming that water phobia of his #exposuretherapy #lol #badmom #poollife #89degrees #eveningswim #momlife #toddlersofinstagram #dakotathe2yearold

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-18 23:20:12
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I'm so tired of the RAIN! Ugh! . Daily Life Vlog - 05/17/18 | I Tried (Link in bio - youtube.com/kandikalistar) . #vlog #vlogger #youtube #watchmylife #exposuretherapy #mentalhealth #anxiety #southflorida #dogmom

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-18 15:08:07
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One of the most effective ways to overcome fear and anxiety is to utilize exposure therapy in conjunction with CBD oil from cannabis. Exposure therapy consists of exposing yourself to whatever it is that you fear. Eventually once you expose yourself enough โ€“ you fear will dissipate. Recently, the mother of one of my patients came in with her daughter who was struggling with anxiety. The mother explained how she would drop off her daughter at places like Starbucks or Chapters and would return 30-45 minutes later. This is because she knew that her daughter needed to expose herself to these places if she wanted to lead a normal life. Remember what Dr. Jordan Peterson said: โ€œThe world is not going to get safer, so you need to make yourself braver.โ€ Many people have found that CBD oil from cannabis can assist with exposure therapy. This is due to the fact that CBD oil can reduce anxiety by decreasing learned fear. To watch the full video, please visit my #facebookpage. #overcomefear #fear #fearless #exposure #exposuretherapy #exposeyourself #jordanpeterson #mentalhealth #cbd #cannabidiol #cbdoil #cbdvape #cannabisismedicine #cannabis #cannabiscommunity #marijuana #medicalmarijuana #weed #medicine #education

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-18 05:30:35
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It was another great day of successfully pushing myself in exposures! I got out of bed super late (11am) but left the house by 1pm. I drove 40 minutes to the humane society where Iโ€™ve been wanting to go for months. I havenโ€™t gone bc they close at 2pm and itโ€™s hard for me to get there by then. I want to foster a dog but have been too nervous to pull the trigger. So today, I made it there by 145pm, stayed for 30 minutes, played with pups, filled out paperwork, it was great! I was definitely nervous as I pulled up but I took a deep breath and went for it! Then I came home, made some calls and had dinner. I headed back up the hill like I did yesterday (no cell reception & high elevation) and stopped at the medical dispensary to pick up some new CBD stuff. My hubby has always came with me and waited in the car bc I get extra nervous at the dispensary. But nope, went myself! Then I headed farther up the hill and stopped at a burger place to get a shake. I went to the lake I went to yesterday and got out of the car this time. I sat on a bench and though about my recent successes. I went back down the hill, got some groceries and went home. This is the first time Iโ€™ve gone up the hill alone and gotten out of the car. A few months ago I said it would be a miracle when I drove up the hill alone. I did not expect to be doing it so quick! I just want to keep pushing!! #anxiety #anxious #anxietyattack #anxietydisorder #agoraphobia #agoraphobic #healthanxiety #panic #panicattack #panicdisorder #depressed #depression #ptsd #gad #exposuretherapy #healthanxiety #mentalillness #mentalillnesstreatment #mentalillnessrecovery #mentalillnessawareness #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealthtreatment

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-18 05:26:40
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If you're into beautiful, bougie boutique shit go grab a glass of wine and your favorite snack because you're in for a TREAT! Thank you Elles Essentials for the extra products I received to review ... find out which is my NEW HOLY GRAIL! You're not gonna expect this one guys! . @ellesessentialcreations | Unboxing, HAUL, First Impressions & Review (Link in bio - youtube.com/kandikalistar) . #ellesessentials #bathandbody #wax #waxhaul #indiehaul #haul #review #indiereview #skincare #boutique #indieboutique #bougie #artesian #artesianbathandbody #artesianwax #vlog #vlogger #youtube #watchmylife #exposuretherapy #mentalhealth #anxiety #southflorida

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-17 22:24:23
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Look what came in just in time for Phoenix Comic Fest! I can't tell you guys how excited I am for this. ๐Ÿ˜ Who all is going? ๐ŸŒ™ #tooshy #tooshycards #shycards #cantsayitwriteit #socialanxiety #socialanxietydisorder #socialphobia #mentalhealth #exposuretherapy #greetingcards #phoenixcomicon #phoenixcomiccon #phoenixcomicfest #phoenixcomicfest2018 #freesamples

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-17 22:23:29
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Laurel or Yanny!? . Daily Life Vlog - 05/16/18 | Itโ€™s All Relative (Link in bio - youtube.com/kandikalistar) . #vlog #vlogger #youtube #watchmylife #exposuretherapy #mentalhealth #anxiety #southflorida #dogmom #mentalhealthawareness #birthdaymonth

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-17 19:15:13
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At Clementine, we believe that quality eating disorder treatment for adolescents, which maximizes the opportunity to be fully recovered, must consist of thoughtful exposure therapy. We create special exposure and challenge experiences for our adolescents to help prepare them for challenges they will face once they leave treatment. For adolescents, these exposures are often completed with their family members so that the entire family is prepared to navigate the challenges encountered as the adolescent returns home. #ClemPrograms #exposuretherapy #edtreatment

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-17 15:27:49
#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-17 14:48:25
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And because I have too much to say for Instagram, here's a picture of some pretty flowers for you ๐Ÿ˜™ So, with this hair appointment, I made the choice to stay present to myself. I did pop a couple of Imodiums to give myself a fighting chance - I really did need to get that hair off my face - but this time my goal wasn't to hide my shame. If a hundred trips to the toilet were needed, or if I got stuck in there for an hour, so be it. I would also utilise every 'humiliating' thing that could help me in case of an accident, and if they failed me, I'd deal with that, too. When I arrived at the salon, my stomach was on fire and I was sure the meds weren't going to help me at all, but then I met the hairdresser and immediately thought she seemed really cool and friendly which helped me relax. I made it my business to head to the toilet first thing in the name of facing my fears ๐Ÿ˜ Then can you imagine, the hairdresser told me she struggles with similar digestive problems and had even tried the low FODMAP diet! We ended up having a complete compassion fest. When I left, I knew one thing - I was DONE being ashamed of myself. I'm sure IBS has got a million embarrassing moments in store for me, but that's FINE. Embarrassment is a whole different animal than shame. Embarrassment I can (learn to) live with. Shame - never again. All of this once again confirmed for me that the cliches are true - the only way out is through, and by feeling the pain I free myself of it. ๐Ÿ™

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-17 14:36:44
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So long! ๐Ÿ‘‹ Never thought anything close to this length would come off my fringe - as well as IBS, I have a rare illness called #scleroderma en coup de sabre which meant that I always sported a fringe to cover up these lesions on my forehead - until a few years ago. There had been a string of appointments and things I'd had to cancel due to #IBS and the final straw was when I was already driving to my hairdresser's, there was a rumbling in my stomach, and I had to turn back because I knew I'd spend the next hour at least in the toilet. Sick of feeling like a nuisance, and spending most of my time home alone anyway as I'd had to give up my job and was just doing online courses for uni, I reckoned I might as well let the hair grow since I didn't really need to try and look decent for anyone. Since the beginning of 2018, I've been doing gradual exposure therapy and started to feel ready to brave the hair salon again, so we made it my next assignment. I tried to eat and treat myself as well as possible the week prior, a plan that went awry from the get-go as I got ill with a nasty cold and was too weak to cook. What grub I did eventually manage to put together should have been OK but this time disagreed with me. To top it all off, the day before my appointment I got my period which always messes up my stomach and is so painful I can't sleep without painkillers which kill my gut, too while they're at it. This nosedive got me thinking if maybe the Universe was trying to tell me something ๐Ÿ˜ I had discovered in therapy that beyond IBS, I had this deep shame I'd carried with me even before any digestive symptoms. They say the same difficulties will keep cropping up in your life until you deal with them. For the longest time, I was ashamed of my scleroderma. Then it was chronic blushing. It was *always* being shy and quiet. And then came IBS. As it proved impossible to ignore or control, I started to wonder if it was in fact trying to do me a favour - in a bit of a sadistic way, granted - by forcing me to finally face my shame. And I did take on those demons, but there was also a lot of resistance - because who wants to go where they believe they're unacceptable.(cont.)

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-17 13:35:33
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#ichoosebeauty day 15. The flower garland we just got for the fireplace ๐Ÿ˜Š As well as looking pretty itโ€™s to stop the cat from jumping up, trying to pull the mirror down and using the top of the tv as a tightrope ๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿ™„ #positive #myhappylife #happy #findinghappiness #depression #anxiety #mentalhealth #lookingafterme #gettingwell #recovery #anxietyrecovery #agoraphobia #timetotalk #agoraphobiarecovery #strength #positivity #kindness #ichoosehappiness #exposuretherapy #anxietyexposure

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#exposuretherapy Shared publicly - 2018-05-17 11:50:27
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Nothing makes a good morning like a warm, delicious coffee and some PD. Mood-wise, things are turning around and I'm excited to get out and absorb some sun. If you haven't read it, I suggest you pick up the audible or paperback version of "girl, wash your face (@msrachelhollis). This book is amazing, and is clearly a go-to when I'm struggling. #morning #goodmorning #happy #sun #sunshine #goodday #cat #photobomb #coffee #reading #read #PD #personaldevelopment #personalgrowth #selfcare #selflove #selfhelp #coffee #coffeeaddict #smiling #mooddisorder #anxiety #depression #bipolar #thebipolarbadass #copingskills #cbt #dbt #exposuretherapy

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