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Cats are such beautiful creatures ๐Ÿ˜ป๐Ÿˆ
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#positivity #positivevibes #love #life #motivation #inspiration #quotes #happy #mindset #motivationalquotes #fashion #collab#inspirationalquotes#motivational#loveyourself#positive#bodypositivity#selflove #recovery#mentalheathrecovery #mentalheathawarness #selfcare #slt #overcomingmentalillness#catsofinstagram #cat

Cats are such beautiful creatures ๐Ÿ˜ป๐Ÿˆ . . . . . . . . . . ๐šƒ๐šŠ๐š๐šœ (๐š“๐šž๐šœ๐š ๐š’๐š๐š—๐š˜๐š›๐šŽ) #positivity #positivevibes #love #life #motivation #inspiration #quotes #happy #mindset #motivationalquotes #fashion #collab #inspirationalquotes #motivational #loveyourself #positive #bodypositivity #selflove #recovery #mentalheathrecovery #mentalheathawarness #selfcare #slt #overcomingmentalillness #catsofinstagram #cat

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Day 4 ๐ŸŒŸChallenge for Charity๐ŸŒŸ #thisismybraveyogis #inversions 
Taking risks and chances is a huge huge stepping stone for anyone dealing with mental illness of all kinds. Learning to live without hiding is extremely hard for some. Intentionally exposing oneself to a public venue is a giant risk! Iโ€™ve reached a point of ignoring negativity, either from myself or others, and living only for the personal thrill of victory from within! Dwelling too much on how others perceive us is only using up energy that can be more productive if you turn that focus around. Taking big leaps of faith while being courageous can equal amazing results that were previously never a seed you thought to plant. โค๏ธ #igyogachallenge #igyogacommunity #wheelpose #thefineline #yogiapproved #yogajournal #fitover50 #recoveringaddict @thisismybrave @omstarsofficial @liquidoactive @el.feather.yoga @molly_pooler_yoga @salty_hair_yogi @northernstar_yoga @khat.mandu @onzie @montielactivewear #mentalhealthawareness #mentalheathrecovery #depressionrecovery #fitnessmotivation

Day 4 ๐ŸŒŸChallenge for Charity๐ŸŒŸ #thisismybraveyogis #inversions Taking risks and chances is a huge huge stepping stone for anyone dealing with mental illness of all kinds. Learning to live without hiding is extremely hard for some. Intentionally exposing oneself to a public venue is a giant risk! Iโ€™ve reached a point of ignoring negativity, either from myself or others, and living only for the personal thrill of victory from within! Dwelling too much on how others perceive us is only using up energy that can be more productive if you turn that focus around. Taking big leaps of faith while being courageous can equal amazing results that were previously never a seed you thought to plant. โค๏ธ #igyogachallenge #igyogacommunity #wheelpose #thefineline #yogiapproved #yogajournal #fitover50 #recoveringaddict @thisismybrave @omstarsofficial @liquidoactive @el.feather.yoga @molly_pooler_yoga @salty_hair_yogi @northernstar_yoga @khat.mandu @onzie @montielactivewear #mentalhealthawareness #mentalheathrecovery #depressionrecovery #fitnessmotivation

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Happy #nationalbookloversday 
We love the power of books when it comes to #mentalhealth. Whether itโ€™s a relatable journey, words of wisdom and guidance or kind & affirming words, books can have real power in supporting a mental health journey. We regularly send therapeutic books in our #boxedwellnessbundles according to each individuals needs. Check our story to see a few of our favorites. 
#bookworm #booklover #goodreads #book #bookstagram #mentalheathrecovery #advice #anxietyrecovery #deepbreath #stressrelief #mentalhealthwarrior #subscriptionbox #books #inspiration #motivation #thrivethursday #thrive #iamenough #affirmations #recovery #mentalhealthjourney #therapy #boxedwellnessbundles #thrivewise #wethrivewise #anxitey #ptsd

Happy #nationalbookloversday We love the power of books when it comes to #mentalhealth. Whether itโ€™s a relatable journey, words of wisdom and guidance or kind & affirming words, books can have real power in supporting a mental health journey. We regularly send therapeutic books in our #boxedwellnessbundles according to each individuals needs. Check our story to see a few of our favorites. #bookworm #booklover #goodreads #book #bookstagram #mentalheathrecovery #advice #anxietyrecovery #deepbreath #stressrelief #mentalhealthwarrior #subscriptionbox #books #inspiration #motivation #thrivethursday #thrive #iamenough #affirmations #recovery #mentalhealthjourney #therapy #boxedwellnessbundles #thrivewise #wethrivewise #anxitey #ptsd

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๐Ÿ’› Little update ๐Ÿ’›
Iโ€™m doing really well, Iโ€™ve been eating really good, cooking more, trying to exercise, trying to improve my anxiety & self love. Tomorrow Iโ€™m going to try go for a walk.... outside.... by myself!!!! That may not sound much like an achievement for some people but I havenโ€™t been on a walk or outside by myself in a very long time and tomorrow is the day Iโ€™ll try... even if I only make it up my street Iโ€™ll be so incredibly happy with my achievement so far ๐Ÿ˜‡๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป but Iโ€™ll keep working hard, Iโ€™m so excited to see such change in my life ๐ŸŒฑ๐Ÿคธ๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿฅฆ
- also JAPAN IN 3 WEEKS !!!! ๐Ÿ‡ฏ๐Ÿ‡ต .
. iPhone X case from @getkroma LOVE IT SO MUCH ๐Ÿ“ฑ xox .
๐šƒ๐šŠ๐š๐šœ (๐š“๐šž๐šœ๐š ๐š’๐š๐š—๐š˜๐š›๐šŽ)
#positivity #positivevibes #love #life #motivation #inspiration #quotes #happy #mindset #motivationalquotes #fashion #collab#inspirationalquotes#motivational#loveyourself#positive#bodypositivity#selflove #recovery#mentalheathrecovery #mentalheathawarness #selfcare #slt #overcomingmentalillness#japan

๐Ÿ’› Little update ๐Ÿ’› Iโ€™m doing really well, Iโ€™ve been eating really good, cooking more, trying to exercise, trying to improve my anxiety & self love. Tomorrow Iโ€™m going to try go for a walk.... outside.... by myself!!!! That may not sound much like an achievement for some people but I havenโ€™t been on a walk or outside by myself in a very long time and tomorrow is the day Iโ€™ll try... even if I only make it up my street Iโ€™ll be so incredibly happy with my achievement so far ๐Ÿ˜‡๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป but Iโ€™ll keep working hard, Iโ€™m so excited to see such change in my life ๐ŸŒฑ๐Ÿคธ๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿฅฆ - also JAPAN IN 3 WEEKS !!!! ๐Ÿ‡ฏ๐Ÿ‡ต . . iPhone X case from @getkroma LOVE IT SO MUCH ๐Ÿ“ฑ xox . ๐šƒ๐šŠ๐š๐šœ (๐š“๐šž๐šœ๐š ๐š’๐š๐š—๐š˜๐š›๐šŽ) #positivity #positivevibes #love #life #motivation #inspiration #quotes #happy #mindset #motivationalquotes #fashion #collab #inspirationalquotes #motivational #loveyourself #positive #bodypositivity #selflove #recovery #mentalheathrecovery #mentalheathawarness #selfcare #slt #overcomingmentalillness #japan

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creating connections to benefit your mental health is crucial to your recovery. although all people with mental illness are strong as we battle with things others are oblivious too, we can rarely do it on our own. and this doesnโ€™t make you weak, it shows that you are trying, and thats more than admirable. the most important step in trying to get help is to contact a therapist. therapists help us to understand what weโ€™re feeling, and give us ways to deal with problems. all therapists are confidential and thereโ€™s no way you your information will be leaked to anyone you wouldnโ€™t want to know - parents included, unless the โ€œduty of careโ€ as therapists call it needs to be enforced. duty of care means that action needs to be taken to make sure youโ€™re safe and healthy. so for example if youโ€™re having recurrent suicidal behaviour or self harm tendencies, your caregiver will be contacted. please donโ€™t let this deter you, for the love of everyone who cares about you, repay them by keeping yourself safe. now with school, there are many different types of people who can help you balance your social life, mental health, and school work so you can be successful in all aspects. talk to your counsellor, welfare coordinator or contact helplines such as lifeline and kidshelpine (AUS) if you feel like you need someone non judgemental to talk to. 
I love you all and hope youโ€™re enjoying a safe and happy day. ๐Ÿ’“

#recoverywarrior #recovery #depressed #depression #depressionquotes #ana #mia #bpd #bipolar #suicidal #suicide #mentalhealth #mentalheathrecovery #addiction #sober #anxiety #dbt #recoverywarrior #reachout #selfhelp

creating connections to benefit your mental health is crucial to your recovery. although all people with mental illness are strong as we battle with things others are oblivious too, we can rarely do it on our own. and this doesnโ€™t make you weak, it shows that you are trying, and thats more than admirable. the most important step in trying to get help is to contact a therapist. therapists help us to understand what weโ€™re feeling, and give us ways to deal with problems. all therapists are confidential and thereโ€™s no way you your information will be leaked to anyone you wouldnโ€™t want to know - parents included, unless the โ€œduty of careโ€ as therapists call it needs to be enforced. duty of care means that action needs to be taken to make sure youโ€™re safe and healthy. so for example if youโ€™re having recurrent suicidal behaviour or self harm tendencies, your caregiver will be contacted. please donโ€™t let this deter you, for the love of everyone who cares about you, repay them by keeping yourself safe. now with school, there are many different types of people who can help you balance your social life, mental health, and school work so you can be successful in all aspects. talk to your counsellor, welfare coordinator or contact helplines such as lifeline and kidshelpine (AUS) if you feel like you need someone non judgemental to talk to. I love you all and hope youโ€™re enjoying a safe and happy day. ๐Ÿ’“ #recoverywarrior #recovery #depressed #depression #depressionquotes #ana #mia #bpd #bipolar #suicidal #suicide #mentalhealth #mentalheathrecovery #addiction #sober #anxiety #dbt #recoverywarrior #reachout #selfhelp

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DAILY INSPIRATION FOR THE SOUL

Do you know which chakra activates will power? 
In the center of your body is your solar plexus chakra that is linked to our determination and courage. 
Linked to the vibration of the color yellow, it can make us feel energetic and bold like the sun when it's in balance. 
Simple ways to balance this chakra are situps, plank pose, breath of fire and bringing more yellow clothing or decorations into your life. 
The muscles in your solar plexus are exercised when you laugh so getting a good dose of humor regularly can increase your optimism and brighten your outlook.

DAILY INSPIRATION FOR THE SOUL Do you know which chakra activates will power? In the center of your body is your solar plexus chakra that is linked to our determination and courage. Linked to the vibration of the color yellow, it can make us feel energetic and bold like the sun when it's in balance. Simple ways to balance this chakra are situps, plank pose, breath of fire and bringing more yellow clothing or decorations into your life. The muscles in your solar plexus are exercised when you laugh so getting a good dose of humor regularly can increase your optimism and brighten your outlook.

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Does this sounds familiar? ๐ŸŒฟ "Life just doesnโ€™t feel good right now. I'm stressed, overwhelmed, I canโ€™t relax. I want more from life, but I canโ€™t quite get there. I know what to do." We can help you get back on track. Call us today at 780.423.5316 ยท ยท ยท ยท #yeghealthyliving #sherwoodpark #SHPK #edmonton #mentalheathmatters #mentalheathadvocate #selflove #mentalheath #mentalheathwarrior #mentalheathbreak #soulmotivator #mentalheathsupport #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #mentalheathrecovery #familydevelopment #mentalhealthmatters #loveyourself #mentalheathawareness"

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๐Ÿต โ˜ž Health โ˜œ ๐Ÿต
The last few days Iโ€™ve been really working on my health and well-being ๐Ÿฅฆ all this ties into self love. I am on my journey and for my journey to be successful I need to be happy with the things Iโ€™m doing... this includes eating better, this doesnโ€™t mean I want to โ€˜loose weightโ€™ I simply want to feel better, happier, healthier ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป for me to achieve my goal I do need to put more effort in. Self love doesnโ€™t just happen over night unfortunately we need to keep working on it everyday, we grow stronger, happier and spread more love ๐Ÿ’– Iโ€™m not saying you need to eat healthy to have self love please donโ€™t think that!! Iโ€™m saying this is something that I need on my journey ๐ŸŒ we all have different ways of reaching our goal but we are all after the same destination = Happiness ๐Ÿ˜‡ Selflove ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป Content with ourselves ๐ŸŒผ 
You will get there, we will get there ๐Ÿ’›๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป but remember you need to work on it to achieve your goal โญ๏ธโญ๏ธโญ๏ธ
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One a second note Matcha Tea is so incredibly good for you!!! You can drink as a tea or even sprinkle on food, the origin is Japan ๐Ÿต๐Ÿ‡ฏ๐Ÿ‡ต give it a try !! I finally found it at my local woolies ๐Ÿ˜Š
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๐šƒ๐šŠ๐š๐šœ (๐š“๐šž๐šœ๐š ๐š’๐š๐š—๐š˜๐š›๐šŽ)
#positivity #positivevibes #love #life #motivation #inspiration #quotes #happy #mindset #motivationalquotes #fashion #collab#inspirationalquotes#motivational#loveyourself#positive#bodypositivity#selflove #recovery#mentalheathrecovery #mentalheathawarness #selfcare #slt #overcomingmentalillness #healthyfood #matcha #matchatea #cleaneating #vegetarian #wellbeing

๐Ÿต โ˜ž Health โ˜œ ๐Ÿต The last few days Iโ€™ve been really working on my health and well-being ๐Ÿฅฆ all this ties into self love. I am on my journey and for my journey to be successful I need to be happy with the things Iโ€™m doing... this includes eating better, this doesnโ€™t mean I want to โ€˜loose weightโ€™ I simply want to feel better, happier, healthier ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป for me to achieve my goal I do need to put more effort in. Self love doesnโ€™t just happen over night unfortunately we need to keep working on it everyday, we grow stronger, happier and spread more love ๐Ÿ’– Iโ€™m not saying you need to eat healthy to have self love please donโ€™t think that!! Iโ€™m saying this is something that I need on my journey ๐ŸŒ we all have different ways of reaching our goal but we are all after the same destination = Happiness ๐Ÿ˜‡ Selflove ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป Content with ourselves ๐ŸŒผ You will get there, we will get there ๐Ÿ’›๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป but remember you need to work on it to achieve your goal โญ๏ธโญ๏ธโญ๏ธ - One a second note Matcha Tea is so incredibly good for you!!! You can drink as a tea or even sprinkle on food, the origin is Japan ๐Ÿต๐Ÿ‡ฏ๐Ÿ‡ต give it a try !! I finally found it at my local woolies ๐Ÿ˜Š . . Feel free to comment your fave health foods !!!!! Or shakes, juice ANYTHING ๐Ÿฅฆ๐Ÿฅ‘๐Ÿฅ•๐ŸŒฝ๐Ÿ“๐Ÿ . . . . ๐šƒ๐šŠ๐š๐šœ (๐š“๐šž๐šœ๐š ๐š’๐š๐š—๐š˜๐š›๐šŽ) #positivity #positivevibes #love #life #motivation #inspiration #quotes #happy #mindset #motivationalquotes #fashion #collab #inspirationalquotes #motivational #loveyourself #positive #bodypositivity #selflove #recovery #mentalheathrecovery #mentalheathawarness #selfcare #slt #overcomingmentalillness #healthyfood #matcha #matchatea #cleaneating #vegetarian #wellbeing

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Flowers are the perfect example of self care. The more you water them, the more they grow ๐ŸŒฑ the more you care, the more they will blossom ๐ŸŒป if you leave them with no love, no care, no time... they will begin to perish ๐Ÿฅ€ flowers are life. I think of myself as a flower. The more I take care of myself, the more Iโ€™ll blossom into something even greater then before ๐ŸŒผ -
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#positivity #positivevibes #love #life #motivation #inspiration #quotes #happy #mindset #motivationalquotes #fashion #collab#inspirationalquotes#motivational#loveyourself#positive#bodypositivity#selflove #recovery#mentalheathrecovery #mentalheathawarness #selfcare #slt #overcomingmentalillness#flowes#flowerstagram#nuture#health

๐ŸŒท๐ŸŒท๐ŸŒท - Flowers are the perfect example of self care. The more you water them, the more they grow ๐ŸŒฑ the more you care, the more they will blossom ๐ŸŒป if you leave them with no love, no care, no time... they will begin to perish ๐Ÿฅ€ flowers are life. I think of myself as a flower. The more I take care of myself, the more Iโ€™ll blossom into something even greater then before ๐ŸŒผ - - photo taken on IPhone X #iphonex ๐Ÿ“ธ - flowers given to me by my beautiful mother @amy_personal_trainer - - - ๐šƒ๐šŠ๐š๐šœ (๐š“๐šž๐šœ๐š ๐š’๐š๐š—๐š˜๐š›๐šŽ) #positivity #positivevibes #love #life #motivation #inspiration #quotes #happy #mindset #motivationalquotes #fashion #collab #inspirationalquotes #motivational #loveyourself #positive #bodypositivity #selflove #recovery #mentalheathrecovery #mentalheathawarness #selfcare #slt #overcomingmentalillness #flowes #flowerstagram #nuture #health

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This was once the happiest place for me. I spent the majority of my teens here performing and just being a functioning person. I loved it here and if it was still open Iโ€™d be damn sure to go there still. I miss it so damn much. #darlingtonartscenter #reflecting #mentalheathrecovery #performer #actor

This was once the happiest place for me. I spent the majority of my teens here performing and just being a functioning person. I loved it here and if it was still open Iโ€™d be damn sure to go there still. I miss it so damn much. #darlingtonartscenter #reflecting #mentalheathrecovery #performer #actor

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This filter makes my hair look brown which is super duper weird but okie dokie letโ€™s roll with it ๐Ÿคฃโฃ๏ธ - Iโ€™ve been incredibly ill the past few days ๐Ÿค’ but Iโ€™m trying to do better for my body ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป๐Ÿฅฆ usually my boyfriend and I get take out every night because itโ€™s just so much easier !! But self love doesnโ€™t come naturally, I need to put my effort in aswell. My body is a temple; itโ€™s time to treat it right ๐Ÿฅฆ๐Ÿ’๐ŸŒฝ๐Ÿฅ— ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป JAPAN IN 4 WEEKS ๐Ÿ’›๐Ÿ‡ฏ๐Ÿ‡ต
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#positivity #positivevibes #love #life #motivation #inspiration #quotes #happy #mindset #motivationalquotes #fashion #collab#inspirationalquotes#motivational#loveyourself#positive#bodypositivity#selflove #recovery#mentalheathrecovery #mentalheathawarness #selfcare #slt #overcomingmentalillness#japan#explorepage

This filter makes my hair look brown which is super duper weird but okie dokie letโ€™s roll with it ๐Ÿคฃโฃ๏ธ - Iโ€™ve been incredibly ill the past few days ๐Ÿค’ but Iโ€™m trying to do better for my body ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป๐Ÿฅฆ usually my boyfriend and I get take out every night because itโ€™s just so much easier !! But self love doesnโ€™t come naturally, I need to put my effort in aswell. My body is a temple; itโ€™s time to treat it right ๐Ÿฅฆ๐Ÿ’๐ŸŒฝ๐Ÿฅ— ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป JAPAN IN 4 WEEKS ๐Ÿ’›๐Ÿ‡ฏ๐Ÿ‡ต - - photo taken on IPhone X by @guyer_thompson ๐Ÿ“ท - - - ๐šƒ๐šŠ๐š๐šœ (๐š“๐šž๐šœ๐š ๐š’๐š๐š—๐š˜๐š›๐šŽ) #positivity #positivevibes #love #life #motivation #inspiration #quotes #happy #mindset #motivationalquotes #fashion #collab #inspirationalquotes #motivational #loveyourself #positive #bodypositivity #selflove #recovery #mentalheathrecovery #mentalheathawarness #selfcare #slt #overcomingmentalillness #japan #explorepage

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So as I'm laying here about to go off to sleep, I got thinking.
I thought I had bounced back pretty well from my recent episode but I'm not so sure. Outwardly I'm doing good, I feel ok generally. But I haven't really been taking care of myself.

Regularly I put on the illusion of togetherness, makeup on but teeth unbrushed, nice outfit but not showered. Keeping up the pretence has become an art form. I've been doing it for so long. 
I have always felt like I need to be strong look strong act strong no matter what. 
I hide my vulnerability, pain and sadness have always been something private for me (until I started sharing my every thought online). I talk the talk but often don't walk the walk. In the words of Alice,

So as I'm laying here about to go off to sleep, I got thinking. I thought I had bounced back pretty well from my recent episode but I'm not so sure. Outwardly I'm doing good, I feel ok generally. But I haven't really been taking care of myself. Regularly I put on the illusion of togetherness, makeup on but teeth unbrushed, nice outfit but not showered. Keeping up the pretence has become an art form. I've been doing it for so long. I have always felt like I need to be strong look strong act strong no matter what. I hide my vulnerability, pain and sadness have always been something private for me (until I started sharing my every thought online). I talk the talk but often don't walk the walk. In the words of Alice, "I give myself very good advice, but very seldom follow it". So tomorrow going to try to look after myself in any little ways I can. I'm going to start with a social media/people break tomorrow and stay away from my phone for a day. Hopefully I'll get some other small self-care tasks done too and not just the face mask sort but the unglamorous boring stuff too. #latenighttgoughts #mentalheathrecovery #mentalillness #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillnessawareness #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder

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๐Ÿฅฆ ๐•ƒ๐•š๐•ฅ๐•ฅ๐•๐•– ๐”น๐•ฃ๐• ๐•”๐•”๐• ๐•๐•š โ„™๐•๐•’๐•Ÿ๐•ฅ ๐Ÿฅฆ
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Today I want to talk about how my anxiety started. My honest answer is I really donโ€™t remember... I remember always being shy. Perhaps I was born with it, either way I do remember how it felt. It felt like I was suffocating every second of the day, my body would clench up, I could feel myself shaking, I felt sick. I made every excuse I could just so I didnโ€™t have to go in public. Still to this day my symptoms have not changed, In fact over the years they have grown stronger. A few months ago I decided I would sleep all day, this was to escape the world. I was afraid of everything ... people, life, myself. I still am!! But Iโ€™m trying to face that. I get ready for the day now. ... I know that may sound silly but there was a time in my life where I didnโ€™t bother getting out of my sleep wear as I knew for a fact I wasnโ€™t going outside. So yes things were horrible and still are but Iโ€™m changing that. Soon Iโ€™ll control my anxiety & the anxiety wonโ€™t have control over me ๐Ÿ’›
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๐šƒ๐šŠ๐š๐šœ (๐š“๐šž๐šœ๐š ๐š’๐š๐š—๐š˜๐š›๐šŽ)
#positivity #positivevibes #love #life #motivation #inspiration #quotes #happy #mindset #motivationalquotes #fashion #collab#inspirationalquotes#motivational#loveyourself#positive#bodypositivity#selflove #recovery#mentalheathrecovery #mentalheathawarness #selfcare #slt #overcomingmentalillness

๐Ÿฅฆ ๐•ƒ๐•š๐•ฅ๐•ฅ๐•๐•– ๐”น๐•ฃ๐• ๐•”๐•”๐• ๐•๐•š โ„™๐•๐•’๐•Ÿ๐•ฅ ๐Ÿฅฆ - Today I want to talk about how my anxiety started. My honest answer is I really donโ€™t remember... I remember always being shy. Perhaps I was born with it, either way I do remember how it felt. It felt like I was suffocating every second of the day, my body would clench up, I could feel myself shaking, I felt sick. I made every excuse I could just so I didnโ€™t have to go in public. Still to this day my symptoms have not changed, In fact over the years they have grown stronger. A few months ago I decided I would sleep all day, this was to escape the world. I was afraid of everything ... people, life, myself. I still am!! But Iโ€™m trying to face that. I get ready for the day now. ... I know that may sound silly but there was a time in my life where I didnโ€™t bother getting out of my sleep wear as I knew for a fact I wasnโ€™t going outside. So yes things were horrible and still are but Iโ€™m changing that. Soon Iโ€™ll control my anxiety & the anxiety wonโ€™t have control over me ๐Ÿ’› . . Photos taken on IPhone X #iphonex ๐Ÿ“ธ . ๐šƒ๐šŠ๐š๐šœ (๐š“๐šž๐šœ๐š ๐š’๐š๐š—๐š˜๐š›๐šŽ) #positivity #positivevibes #love #life #motivation #inspiration #quotes #happy #mindset #motivationalquotes #fashion #collab #inspirationalquotes #motivational #loveyourself #positive #bodypositivity #selflove #recovery #mentalheathrecovery #mentalheathawarness #selfcare #slt #overcomingmentalillness

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โ™ก Update โ™ก
- Because of my mental health I am who I am... yes it โ€˜sucksโ€™ but thatโ€™s the way it is. I am growing stronger everyday! ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป I am so internally great full for everyone who has been with me on my journey, I am no where near the finish line but believe me when I say Iโ€™ll get there โœจ๐Ÿ’› in the meantime Iโ€™ll keep blogging my journey, my story, my life. Maybe it can help others, maybe it can help people who donโ€™t understand this illness or maybe it even might help me. No matter who is helps Iโ€™ll keep writing ๐Ÿ“ stay strong, stay humble, be you ๐Ÿ˜‡
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. Thanks boo for taking me out today dinner was amazing & the movies was great ๐Ÿ” ๐Ÿฟ @guyer_thompson .
๐šƒ๐šŠ๐š๐šœ (๐š“๐šž๐šœ๐š ๐š’๐š๐š—๐š˜๐š›๐šŽ)
#positivity #positivevibes #love #life #motivation #inspiration #quotes #happy #mindset #motivationalquotes #fashion #collab#inspirationalquotes#motivational#loveyourself#positive#bodypositivity#selflove #recovery#mentalheathrecovery #mentalheathawarness #selfcare #slt #overcomingmentalillness#explorepage

โ™ก Update โ™ก - Because of my mental health I am who I am... yes it โ€˜sucksโ€™ but thatโ€™s the way it is. I am growing stronger everyday! ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป I am so internally great full for everyone who has been with me on my journey, I am no where near the finish line but believe me when I say Iโ€™ll get there โœจ๐Ÿ’› in the meantime Iโ€™ll keep blogging my journey, my story, my life. Maybe it can help others, maybe it can help people who donโ€™t understand this illness or maybe it even might help me. No matter who is helps Iโ€™ll keep writing ๐Ÿ“ stay strong, stay humble, be you ๐Ÿ˜‡ . . Thanks boo for taking me out today dinner was amazing & the movies was great ๐Ÿ” ๐Ÿฟ @guyer_thompson . ๐šƒ๐šŠ๐š๐šœ (๐š“๐šž๐šœ๐š ๐š’๐š๐š—๐š˜๐š›๐šŽ) #positivity #positivevibes #love #life #motivation #inspiration #quotes #happy #mindset #motivationalquotes #fashion #collab #inspirationalquotes #motivational #loveyourself #positive #bodypositivity #selflove #recovery #mentalheathrecovery #mentalheathawarness #selfcare #slt #overcomingmentalillness #explorepage

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How my head feels most days.

How my head feels most days.

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What an amazing weekend ๐ŸŽŸ๐ŸŽฌ๐Ÿฟ๐Ÿฅค
Today was great! That much is true! However Iโ€™m still battling my mental health, you donโ€™t see whatโ€™s behind the scenes however all I want to tell you today is Iโ€™m happy ๐Ÿงก Iโ€™ve been working really hard these past few weeks. I had a little bit of a breakdown today because I apparently look โ€˜uglyโ€™ in all my clothes according to my brain ๐Ÿง  but I pushed that aside !!!! I went out! I had fun and now Iโ€™m home ๐Ÿ  more updates throughout the week ๐Ÿ˜‡๐Ÿ’› I will be telling more of my story very soon as I want people to know they arenโ€™t alone. And remember SELF LOVE ๐Ÿ’• ~ This is an incredibly bad photo !! But I wanted to share my day with you all xoxo .
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๐šƒ๐šŠ๐š๐šœ (๐š“๐šž๐šœ๐š ๐š’๐š๐š—๐š˜๐š›๐šŽ)
#positivity #positivevibes #love #life #motivation #inspiration #quotes #happy #mindset #motivationalquotes #fashion #collab#inspirationalquotes#motivational#loveyourself#positive#bodypositivity#selflove #recovery#mentalheathrecovery #mentalheathawarness #selfcare #slt #overcomingmentalillness

What an amazing weekend ๐ŸŽŸ๐ŸŽฌ๐Ÿฟ๐Ÿฅค Today was great! That much is true! However Iโ€™m still battling my mental health, you donโ€™t see whatโ€™s behind the scenes however all I want to tell you today is Iโ€™m happy ๐Ÿงก Iโ€™ve been working really hard these past few weeks. I had a little bit of a breakdown today because I apparently look โ€˜uglyโ€™ in all my clothes according to my brain ๐Ÿง  but I pushed that aside !!!! I went out! I had fun and now Iโ€™m home ๐Ÿ  more updates throughout the week ๐Ÿ˜‡๐Ÿ’› I will be telling more of my story very soon as I want people to know they arenโ€™t alone. And remember SELF LOVE ๐Ÿ’• ~ This is an incredibly bad photo !! But I wanted to share my day with you all xoxo . . . . . . . ๐šƒ๐šŠ๐š๐šœ (๐š“๐šž๐šœ๐š ๐š’๐š๐š—๐š˜๐š›๐šŽ) #positivity #positivevibes #love #life #motivation #inspiration #quotes #happy #mindset #motivationalquotes #fashion #collab #inspirationalquotes #motivational #loveyourself #positive #bodypositivity #selflove #recovery #mentalheathrecovery #mentalheathawarness #selfcare #slt #overcomingmentalillness

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โ™ก Update โ™ก ~ today I had a recovery day and Iโ€™m doing okay ๐Ÿ’– โžต Iโ€™ve had a lot of questions about my phone case ๐Ÿ“ฑ โžต I got it from @getkroma ! Make sure to check them out. They have so many cases available and they are all sooo cute โ™ฅ or there are some less cute ones for the boys ๐ŸŒ™ .
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๐šƒ๐šŠ๐š๐šœ (๐š“๐šž๐šœ๐š ๐š’๐š๐š—๐š˜๐š›๐šŽ)
#positivity #positivevibes #love #life #motivation #inspiration #quotes #happy #mindset #motivationalquotes #fashion #collab #inspirationalquotes#motivational#loveyourself#positive#bodypositivity#selflove #recovery#mentalheathrecovery #mentalheathawarness #selfcare #slt #overcomingmentalillness

โ™ก Update โ™ก ~ today I had a recovery day and Iโ€™m doing okay ๐Ÿ’– โžต Iโ€™ve had a lot of questions about my phone case ๐Ÿ“ฑ โžต I got it from @getkroma ! Make sure to check them out. They have so many cases available and they are all sooo cute โ™ฅ or there are some less cute ones for the boys ๐ŸŒ™ . . (This isnโ€™t a photo from today) xx #kromacases #getkroma @getkroma . . . ๐šƒ๐šŠ๐š๐šœ (๐š“๐šž๐šœ๐š ๐š’๐š๐š—๐š˜๐š›๐šŽ) #positivity #positivevibes #love #life #motivation #inspiration #quotes #happy #mindset #motivationalquotes #fashion #collab #inspirationalquotes #motivational #loveyourself #positive #bodypositivity #selflove #recovery #mentalheathrecovery #mentalheathawarness #selfcare #slt #overcomingmentalillness

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Found an old diary I hadn't written in for 2 years! ๐Ÿ˜ฒ It was full of traumatic stuff which clearly I had to let out at the time. ๐Ÿ˜” All this effort to stop letting painful experiences define me, then stumbling upon this threw me off! ๐Ÿ˜ฅ So I ripped out EVERYTHING. ๐Ÿ˜… And stuck it in my cross cut shredder. Gone for good ๐Ÿ‘Œ#diary #dialecticalbehaviortherapy #mentalheathrecovery #bipolardepression #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #anxiety #rebirth #mindfulness #meditation #selfhealing #selflove

Found an old diary I hadn't written in for 2 years! ๐Ÿ˜ฒ It was full of traumatic stuff which clearly I had to let out at the time. ๐Ÿ˜” All this effort to stop letting painful experiences define me, then stumbling upon this threw me off! ๐Ÿ˜ฅ So I ripped out EVERYTHING. ๐Ÿ˜… And stuck it in my cross cut shredder. Gone for good ๐Ÿ‘Œ#diary #dialecticalbehaviortherapy #mentalheathrecovery #bipolardepression #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #anxiety #rebirth #mindfulness #meditation #selfhealing #selflove

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Listened to a great PODcast this morning and there were so many AHA moments in it for me!

I have been feeling a little defeated lately, and really I shouldnโ€™t be.....itโ€™s my mind taking over me again ๐Ÿ˜Š

Itโ€™s a slow learning process but let me tell you I am way further ahead than I was a year ago thanks to my #fitfam for believing in me and and making me ๐Ÿ‘€that I believe in myself too! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿป #theybelieveinme #ibelieveinme #mindovermatter #lovethyself #happiness #whatyouthink #hockeymom #hockeylife #hockeygirl #mykidslovehockey #hockeymomlife #countrygirl #countrylife #countryliving #countrylifestyle #mentalhealthwarrior #cancersurvivor #mentalhealth #mentalhealthjourney #mentalheathrecovery #organization #organizationgeek #organizationismything #ilovetogarden

Listened to a great PODcast this morning and there were so many AHA moments in it for me! I have been feeling a little defeated lately, and really I shouldnโ€™t be.....itโ€™s my mind taking over me again ๐Ÿ˜Š Itโ€™s a slow learning process but let me tell you I am way further ahead than I was a year ago thanks to my #fitfam for believing in me and and making me ๐Ÿ‘€that I believe in myself too! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿป #theybelieveinme #ibelieveinme #mindovermatter #lovethyself #happiness #whatyouthink #hockeymom #hockeylife #hockeygirl #mykidslovehockey #hockeymomlife #countrygirl #countrylife #countryliving #countrylifestyle #mentalhealthwarrior #cancersurvivor #mentalhealth #mentalhealthjourney #mentalheathrecovery #organization #organizationgeek #organizationismything #ilovetogarden

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Truth ๐Ÿ’ฅ 
I havenโ€™t worked out in two days.....sure I skated with the kids and swam lots today but not my usual workouts and I am feeling it.......mentally

Today I struggled with โ€œ I am not good enoughโ€, I didnโ€™t like the way I looked or felt but couldnโ€™t do anything about it today.......my head really got the better of me ๐Ÿ™

I reached out and was given great advice and listened to a little meditation and started to get my head back on straight.

Having my shake as I didnโ€™t feel like making anything and hopping it picks me up a little.......chocolate usually does.

Going to call it a day and start bright and early tomorrow and totally back onto the early workout schedule.....that way my mind and body are set for the day! ๐Ÿ˜Š

#mindset #mentalhealth #workoutformentalhealth #downinthedumps #roughday #noworkouttoday #imissedmonday #mentalhealthjourney #mentalheathrecovery #cancersurvivor #40andfabulous #hockeymom #hockeymomlife #mykidslovehockey #organization #organizationgeek #breadwinner #workingmom #tomorrowisanewday

Truth ๐Ÿ’ฅ I havenโ€™t worked out in two days.....sure I skated with the kids and swam lots today but not my usual workouts and I am feeling it.......mentally Today I struggled with โ€œ I am not good enoughโ€, I didnโ€™t like the way I looked or felt but couldnโ€™t do anything about it today.......my head really got the better of me ๐Ÿ™ I reached out and was given great advice and listened to a little meditation and started to get my head back on straight. Having my shake as I didnโ€™t feel like making anything and hopping it picks me up a little.......chocolate usually does. Going to call it a day and start bright and early tomorrow and totally back onto the early workout schedule.....that way my mind and body are set for the day! ๐Ÿ˜Š #mindset #mentalhealth #workoutformentalhealth #downinthedumps #roughday #noworkouttoday #imissedmonday #mentalhealthjourney #mentalheathrecovery #cancersurvivor #40andfabulous #hockeymom #hockeymomlife #mykidslovehockey #organization #organizationgeek #breadwinner #workingmom #tomorrowisanewday

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I'm trying to heal by painting big and abstract when I'm feeling like shit #myart #kaedenp #mentalheathrecovery

I'm trying to heal by painting big and abstract when I'm feeling like shit #myart #kaedenp #mentalheathrecovery

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โ€œShe leaves a little sparkle wherever she goes.โ€ - Kate Spade โœจ
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Since weโ€™ve lost so many good people like @katespadeny recently due to suicide and lack of mental health, Iโ€™ve started a fundraiser to earn money for @mentalhealthamerica. You can find the link in my bio if you wish to donate.
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Mental health awareness is so important. Itโ€™s okay to admit that youโ€™re not okay. You can always heal. You just have to find your center and be patient. Keep your thoughts, words, behavior, habits, values, and your destiny positive. Overall, just be kind to yourself and donโ€™t ever apologize for being yourself. When you love yourself, you can find a way to love the life you live and the important people around you.
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Just know, I am here for anyone who feels like they cannot shake their anxiety or depression. Together WE can turn โ€œiโ€llness into โ€œweโ€llness! ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–
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#B4Stage4 #fightintheopen #mentalhealthamerica #gofundme #fundraiser #mentalhealthawareness #katespade #anxietyrelief #depressionquotes #mentalhealthsupport #mentalheathrecovery #motivationalquotes #inspiration #positivevibes #dailyparenting #parenthood_unveiled #fashion #lifedailymoms #thebump #postpartumdepression #postpartumhealth #honestmommin #mom_hub #ig_motherhood #shoppinkblush #ootd #ootdgals #motherhoodismystical

โ€œShe leaves a little sparkle wherever she goes.โ€ - Kate Spade โœจ . . Since weโ€™ve lost so many good people like @katespadeny recently due to suicide and lack of mental health, Iโ€™ve started a fundraiser to earn money for @mentalhealthamerica. You can find the link in my bio if you wish to donate. . . Mental health awareness is so important. Itโ€™s okay to admit that youโ€™re not okay. You can always heal. You just have to find your center and be patient. Keep your thoughts, words, behavior, habits, values, and your destiny positive. Overall, just be kind to yourself and donโ€™t ever apologize for being yourself. When you love yourself, you can find a way to love the life you live and the important people around you. . . Just know, I am here for anyone who feels like they cannot shake their anxiety or depression. Together WE can turn โ€œiโ€llness into โ€œweโ€llness! ๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’–๐Ÿ’– . . . . #B4Stage4 #fightintheopen #mentalhealthamerica #gofundme #fundraiser #mentalhealthawareness #katespade #anxietyrelief #depressionquotes #mentalhealthsupport #mentalheathrecovery #motivationalquotes #inspiration #positivevibes #dailyparenting #parenthood_unveiled #fashion #lifedailymoms #thebump #postpartumdepression #postpartumhealth #honestmommin #mom_hub #ig_motherhood #shoppinkblush #ootd #ootdgals #motherhoodismystical

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Whoโ€™s home for the night? Me! Whoโ€™s scared shitless about it? Me! Whoโ€™s pretty stoked about it at the same time? Me! Who has started to get headaches if they donโ€™t drink coffee? Me! Who has a stomach which doesnโ€™t agree with the amount of coffee they drink to stop the headaches? Me!

Whoโ€™s home for the night? Me! Whoโ€™s scared shitless about it? Me! Whoโ€™s pretty stoked about it at the same time? Me! Who has started to get headaches if they donโ€™t drink coffee? Me! Who has a stomach which doesnโ€™t agree with the amount of coffee they drink to stop the headaches? Me!

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โš ๏ธfair warning I am going to go on a very long, super gross, and possibly triggering rantโš ๏ธ
It might be a little difficult for anyone else to see - especially in a photo, but to me it stands out like a nun at a nudist beach. Broken blood vessels all over my face. Swollen cheeks and glands. Puffy eyes. And this is one of my mild post-purge looks. Iโ€™ve had burst capillaries so bad it looks like Iโ€™ve caught some sort of plague. Iโ€™ve given myself a black eye. Iโ€™ve had bloodshot eyes. Iโ€™ve had dried vomit in my hair and on the sides of my mouth and in my nose. Iโ€™ve had infected Russellโ€™s Signs and gums. Iโ€™ve had to taste more pure bile than I would wish on my worst enemy. Iโ€™ve had fucking acid burns around my fingernails. Iโ€™ve had blood in my vomit (it was bright red and from my throat, so, whilst not at all good, not as bad as it could have been). Iโ€™ve nearly choked to death. Iโ€™ve trained my poor body to throw up so well that I can do it in minutes, simply by leaning over and tensing my stomach. Iโ€™ve put my poor body through so much, and yet itโ€™s still fighting for me. Itโ€™s still going. It hasnโ€™t given up on me yet. So, body, this is for you: I canโ€™t promise that this will be the last time. I canโ€™t promise that Iโ€™ll never do wrong by you again. Instead I can promise you that I wonโ€™t give up if you donโ€™t. I can promise that I will learn to love you the same way you love me. I can promise that one day you and I will live in harmony with each other. And I can promise that, in the meantime, whilst bulimia continues to try and protect me (in the roundabout way that EDs do) beyond itโ€™s line of duty, I will do my very best to protect you from bulimia.

โš ๏ธfair warning I am going to go on a very long, super gross, and possibly triggering rantโš ๏ธ It might be a little difficult for anyone else to see - especially in a photo, but to me it stands out like a nun at a nudist beach. Broken blood vessels all over my face. Swollen cheeks and glands. Puffy eyes. And this is one of my mild post-purge looks. Iโ€™ve had burst capillaries so bad it looks like Iโ€™ve caught some sort of plague. Iโ€™ve given myself a black eye. Iโ€™ve had bloodshot eyes. Iโ€™ve had dried vomit in my hair and on the sides of my mouth and in my nose. Iโ€™ve had infected Russellโ€™s Signs and gums. Iโ€™ve had to taste more pure bile than I would wish on my worst enemy. Iโ€™ve had fucking acid burns around my fingernails. Iโ€™ve had blood in my vomit (it was bright red and from my throat, so, whilst not at all good, not as bad as it could have been). Iโ€™ve nearly choked to death. Iโ€™ve trained my poor body to throw up so well that I can do it in minutes, simply by leaning over and tensing my stomach. Iโ€™ve put my poor body through so much, and yet itโ€™s still fighting for me. Itโ€™s still going. It hasnโ€™t given up on me yet. So, body, this is for you: I canโ€™t promise that this will be the last time. I canโ€™t promise that Iโ€™ll never do wrong by you again. Instead I can promise you that I wonโ€™t give up if you donโ€™t. I can promise that I will learn to love you the same way you love me. I can promise that one day you and I will live in harmony with each other. And I can promise that, in the meantime, whilst bulimia continues to try and protect me (in the roundabout way that EDs do) beyond itโ€™s line of duty, I will do my very best to protect you from bulimia.

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A simple morning wish in haiku form. Iโ€™m a little stressed and Iโ€™m no good with words but it will have to do today. -
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#haiku #poem #poetry #stressrelief #coping #copingskills #mentalheathrecovery #behappy #forme #recovery #doingmybest

A simple morning wish in haiku form. Iโ€™m a little stressed and Iโ€™m no good with words but it will have to do today. - - #haiku #poem #poetry #stressrelief #coping #copingskills #mentalheathrecovery #behappy #forme #recovery #doingmybest

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Depression is a bitch. First time in quite a while I have genuinely felt suicidal, which is annoying because I actually had a pretty awesome day today. Saw Deadpool 2 (12/10 would see again) with a friend, had sushi for lunch (so much better than the food here), and had a pretty great talk with Natasha. But I guess being with people all day caught up to me because by the time I got back I was exhausted and entirely done with everything, took a nap, and then woke up feeling even worse and wanting to just give up, so I wrote a list. A list of stupid little reasons why I canโ€™t give up; like finding out what happens in the next Avengers movie, and the new season of One Day at a Time, and the new season of Brooklyn Nine-Nine, and catching up with ZR and seeing where that goes, and wondering if Cornelia Cavendish is just an immortal old lady because honestly how is she not dead at this point ๐Ÿ˜‚, and a bunch of other little reasons because, as they say, itโ€™s the small things in life that keep you going. 
Also I went on a run because I needed to clear my head ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป

Depression is a bitch. First time in quite a while I have genuinely felt suicidal, which is annoying because I actually had a pretty awesome day today. Saw Deadpool 2 (12/10 would see again) with a friend, had sushi for lunch (so much better than the food here), and had a pretty great talk with Natasha. But I guess being with people all day caught up to me because by the time I got back I was exhausted and entirely done with everything, took a nap, and then woke up feeling even worse and wanting to just give up, so I wrote a list. A list of stupid little reasons why I canโ€™t give up; like finding out what happens in the next Avengers movie, and the new season of One Day at a Time, and the new season of Brooklyn Nine-Nine, and catching up with ZR and seeing where that goes, and wondering if Cornelia Cavendish is just an immortal old lady because honestly how is she not dead at this point ๐Ÿ˜‚, and a bunch of other little reasons because, as they say, itโ€™s the small things in life that keep you going. Also I went on a run because I needed to clear my head ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป

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Apologies for not updating the last couple of days. My anxiety has once again been getting to me with the โ€˜youโ€™re annoying and everyone hates you so shut upโ€™ which has been paired with my depression which has been getting me with the โ€˜fuck it who even cares anymore you suck and youโ€™re lazy so just forget it.โ€™ both of which I know logically are lies, but itโ€™s difficult to ignore your own brain. 
Iโ€™ve already forgotten what I had to eat since I last updated but Iโ€™ll probably continue on with that today. Probably. Maybe.

Apologies for not updating the last couple of days. My anxiety has once again been getting to me with the โ€˜youโ€™re annoying and everyone hates you so shut upโ€™ which has been paired with my depression which has been getting me with the โ€˜fuck it who even cares anymore you suck and youโ€™re lazy so just forget it.โ€™ both of which I know logically are lies, but itโ€™s difficult to ignore your own brain. Iโ€™ve already forgotten what I had to eat since I last updated but Iโ€™ll probably continue on with that today. Probably. Maybe.

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Had a pretty major slip-up last night, but letโ€™s look into the reason behind this. I was stressed over uni, I was upset at having to stay longer, I was scared that I would need to give them a reason to keep me, I was upset in general, and every single one of those emotions was amplified thanks to the shedding of my uterus, so naturally my brain defaulted to what it has learned makes it feel better. And thatโ€™s okay because Iโ€™m working on it. Better to have a slip up in here where I can show myself that I can get back up afterwards and it doesnโ€™t always have to lead to a downwards spiral. 
Right, onwards and upwards:
Breakfast: gf cereal (was feeling super sick and anxious)
Morning tea: apple (still feeling sick and anxious)
Lunch: ham + salad sandwich & a bowl of rice (I was suddenly craving all the carbs)

Had a pretty major slip-up last night, but letโ€™s look into the reason behind this. I was stressed over uni, I was upset at having to stay longer, I was scared that I would need to give them a reason to keep me, I was upset in general, and every single one of those emotions was amplified thanks to the shedding of my uterus, so naturally my brain defaulted to what it has learned makes it feel better. And thatโ€™s okay because Iโ€™m working on it. Better to have a slip up in here where I can show myself that I can get back up afterwards and it doesnโ€™t always have to lead to a downwards spiral. Right, onwards and upwards: Breakfast: gf cereal (was feeling super sick and anxious) Morning tea: apple (still feeling sick and anxious) Lunch: ham + salad sandwich & a bowl of rice (I was suddenly craving all the carbs)

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Itโ€™s #transformationtuesday ๐Ÿ’ซmy transformations arenโ€™t so visible to others as mine are on the inside ๐Ÿ’• ๐Ÿ’ซI have learned to live with my imperfections, those are mine and I own them! ๐Ÿ’ซI have learned that others might not like me and that is ok........cause I finally like myself! ๐Ÿ’• ๐Ÿ’ซI know I might struggle but within the struggle is a lesson I am to learn, work through it and be better on the other side! ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿป ๐Ÿ’ซI continue to transform everyday, I am loving whom I am becoming and loving my journey doing so!  Even through the pain and the weaknesses because that is what makes me ME! ๐Ÿ˜˜ ๐Ÿ’ซshow or tell me about your transformations below ๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’• #lessonslearned #selflove #becomingabetterme #becomingme #cancersurvivor #fitmom #fitness #fitnesslover #lifegoals #fitmomof2 #fitnesslifestyle #fitat40 #hockeymom #countrygirl #mentalhealth #runner #girlwholift #workoutathome #mentalheathrecovery #athomeworkout #coach #mentalheathjourney #girlwholiftsheavy #runnergirl #countryliving

Itโ€™s #transformationtuesday ๐Ÿ’ซmy transformations arenโ€™t so visible to others as mine are on the inside ๐Ÿ’• ๐Ÿ’ซI have learned to live with my imperfections, those are mine and I own them! ๐Ÿ’ซI have learned that others might not like me and that is ok........cause I finally like myself! ๐Ÿ’• ๐Ÿ’ซI know I might struggle but within the struggle is a lesson I am to learn, work through it and be better on the other side! ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿป ๐Ÿ’ซI continue to transform everyday, I am loving whom I am becoming and loving my journey doing so! Even through the pain and the weaknesses because that is what makes me ME! ๐Ÿ˜˜ ๐Ÿ’ซshow or tell me about your transformations below ๐Ÿ‘‡๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’• #lessonslearned #selflove #becomingabetterme #becomingme #cancersurvivor #fitmom #fitness #fitnesslover #lifegoals #fitmomof2 #fitnesslifestyle #fitat40 #hockeymom #countrygirl #mentalhealth #runner #girlwholift #workoutathome #mentalheathrecovery #athomeworkout #coach #mentalheathjourney #girlwholiftsheavy #runnergirl #countryliving

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Holy. Fucking. Hell. This is ridiculous. Mood swings. Crazy fatigue. Still hungry as fuck. Bloating that is super fucking painful. A headache thatโ€™s making my eyes hurt. Cramps. Sore as fuck boobs. Brain fog. Honestly at this point I just want the bleeding bit to start so I can be fucking done with PMS. 
I would do the accountability thing but I legit cannot remember what Iโ€™ve eaten today. I just want to sleep.

Holy. Fucking. Hell. This is ridiculous. Mood swings. Crazy fatigue. Still hungry as fuck. Bloating that is super fucking painful. A headache thatโ€™s making my eyes hurt. Cramps. Sore as fuck boobs. Brain fog. Honestly at this point I just want the bleeding bit to start so I can be fucking done with PMS. I would do the accountability thing but I legit cannot remember what Iโ€™ve eaten today. I just want to sleep.

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My hair is kinda driving me nuts today but thatโ€™s okay ๐Ÿ˜ฌ 
Been a very up and down day but I got through it. Helped...quite a lot of people actually...through a workout (that I designed myself thank you very much) and I feel pretty freaking fantastic after that. Iโ€™m going to give it at least until the end of the year to decide whether Iโ€™ll actually give PT a go. By then I should know if this was just a phase or if Iโ€™m genuinely interested. 
Afternoon tea - latte and chips
Dinner - tuna salad & jelly
Supper - ensure...with gf cornflakes....donโ€™t judge me ๐Ÿ˜‚

My hair is kinda driving me nuts today but thatโ€™s okay ๐Ÿ˜ฌ Been a very up and down day but I got through it. Helped...quite a lot of people actually...through a workout (that I designed myself thank you very much) and I feel pretty freaking fantastic after that. Iโ€™m going to give it at least until the end of the year to decide whether Iโ€™ll actually give PT a go. By then I should know if this was just a phase or if Iโ€™m genuinely interested. Afternoon tea - latte and chips Dinner - tuna salad & jelly Supper - ensure...with gf cornflakes....donโ€™t judge me ๐Ÿ˜‚

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Iโ€™m ready for home now. Iโ€™m over it. 
Breakfast - gf cornflakes + 2x gf toast w/ butter + fruit salad
Morning tea - 2x gf toast w/ butter + nuts
Lunch - ham salad sandwich. 
For reals body weโ€™re not getting pregnant can you stop trying to get me to stuff my face with everything in order to nourish the (non-existent) coming foetus?

Iโ€™m ready for home now. Iโ€™m over it. Breakfast - gf cornflakes + 2x gf toast w/ butter + fruit salad Morning tea - 2x gf toast w/ butter + nuts Lunch - ham salad sandwich. For reals body weโ€™re not getting pregnant can you stop trying to get me to stuff my face with everything in order to nourish the (non-existent) coming foetus?

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I havenโ€™t updated today because Iโ€™ve been struggling more than I let on to anybody. Iโ€™m struggling with how damn hungry I am (fucking PMS), Iโ€™m struggling with how much I ate because Iโ€™m so god damn hungry. Iโ€™m struggling with the fact that Iโ€™m struggling with how much I ate. Iโ€™m struggling with not full on binging right now just because I ate some chocolate rice cakes because I was ravenous. Iโ€™m struggling with the fact that I didnโ€™t really do any exercise today aside from a session I did with Michelle which was designed for her and so it was pretty easy for me (difficult for her but that was the point. Difficult for me would have been nigh impossible for her, which is okay. I really enjoyed designing it and working it through with her). Iโ€™m struggling with the fact that Iโ€™m struggling with not doing exercise. Iโ€™m just struggling.

I havenโ€™t updated today because Iโ€™ve been struggling more than I let on to anybody. Iโ€™m struggling with how damn hungry I am (fucking PMS), Iโ€™m struggling with how much I ate because Iโ€™m so god damn hungry. Iโ€™m struggling with the fact that Iโ€™m struggling with how much I ate. Iโ€™m struggling with not full on binging right now just because I ate some chocolate rice cakes because I was ravenous. Iโ€™m struggling with the fact that I didnโ€™t really do any exercise today aside from a session I did with Michelle which was designed for her and so it was pretty easy for me (difficult for her but that was the point. Difficult for me would have been nigh impossible for her, which is okay. I really enjoyed designing it and working it through with her). Iโ€™m struggling with the fact that Iโ€™m struggling with not doing exercise. Iโ€™m just struggling.

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Helpful tips from the mental health fairy, curtesy of @justpeachycomic ๐Ÿ˜‚ 
Iโ€™ve actually made a friend in here. Iโ€™ve sort of become her personal trainer and Iโ€™m actually loving it? Like really loving it. And now Iโ€™m debating minoring in sports and fitness next year because, well, why not right? Itโ€™s one year, and I wouldnโ€™t actually mind being a PT. Ah whatever Iโ€™ll work it out (pun unintended). Maybe Iโ€™ll talk to Jesse on Monday or something. 
Alright here we go:
Afternoon tea - raw berry cake (went out with the fam) + flat white 
Dinner - fish, mash & veggies + fruit salad 
Supper - ensure

Helpful tips from the mental health fairy, curtesy of @justpeachycomic ๐Ÿ˜‚ Iโ€™ve actually made a friend in here. Iโ€™ve sort of become her personal trainer and Iโ€™m actually loving it? Like really loving it. And now Iโ€™m debating minoring in sports and fitness next year because, well, why not right? Itโ€™s one year, and I wouldnโ€™t actually mind being a PT. Ah whatever Iโ€™ll work it out (pun unintended). Maybe Iโ€™ll talk to Jesse on Monday or something. Alright here we go: Afternoon tea - raw berry cake (went out with the fam) + flat white Dinner - fish, mash & veggies + fruit salad Supper - ensure

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Feelinโ€™ pretty chill right now tbh. Building a new Zombie Apocalypse Prep playlist (aka workout tunes).
Thereโ€™s a new ED patient on the ward and it freaked me the hell out at first because it was triggering the hell out of me (and it still kinda is?), but I give a shit to a fault, and so I mostly just want to make it better cos I know how fucking hard it is even as a voluntary patient. So yeah Iโ€™m less freaked out about that now. I think it was more the surprise of it that was my main issue this morning. 
Breakfast- gf cornflakes + fruit salad 
Morning tea - 2x gf toast w/ butter + nuts
Lunch - ham & salad sandwich

Feelinโ€™ pretty chill right now tbh. Building a new Zombie Apocalypse Prep playlist (aka workout tunes). Thereโ€™s a new ED patient on the ward and it freaked me the hell out at first because it was triggering the hell out of me (and it still kinda is?), but I give a shit to a fault, and so I mostly just want to make it better cos I know how fucking hard it is even as a voluntary patient. So yeah Iโ€™m less freaked out about that now. I think it was more the surprise of it that was my main issue this morning. Breakfast- gf cornflakes + fruit salad Morning tea - 2x gf toast w/ butter + nuts Lunch - ham & salad sandwich

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#tbt that time I saw a super vivid double rainbow on my walk home from physio 
Okay so nothing has really happened since my last update, but the rain is really flaring up my depression for some reason. Like really bad. Is weather depression a thing like seasonal depression? idk. Usually rain calms me down but right now Iโ€™m having to really focus on not purging the apple I just ate for no reason other than I havenโ€™t had an apple in ages and I wanted one (which is a perfectly legit reason to eat something but still wrapping my ED brain around that concept). Afternoon tea - gf toast w/ butter + nuts
Dinner - corned beef, potatoes & veggies + jelly & prunes (yeah Iโ€™m on old lady I like prunes sue me)
Supper - ensure + that apple that I wanted

#tbt that time I saw a super vivid double rainbow on my walk home from physio Okay so nothing has really happened since my last update, but the rain is really flaring up my depression for some reason. Like really bad. Is weather depression a thing like seasonal depression? idk. Usually rain calms me down but right now Iโ€™m having to really focus on not purging the apple I just ate for no reason other than I havenโ€™t had an apple in ages and I wanted one (which is a perfectly legit reason to eat something but still wrapping my ED brain around that concept). Afternoon tea - gf toast w/ butter + nuts Dinner - corned beef, potatoes & veggies + jelly & prunes (yeah Iโ€™m on old lady I like prunes sue me) Supper - ensure + that apple that I wanted

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Okay first things first thereโ€™s a guy in here whoโ€™s developed a soft spot for me and he sneaks me snakes when my nurses arenโ€™t looking. I take it as a win that I can now eat a couple without freaking out and put the rest away without binging on them. 
Second thing: my review??? Fucking awesome!!! I have been taken off post-meal supervision, and Iโ€™ll only be getting snack/post-snack supervision once a day on my โ€˜trigger mealsโ€™. But on that note I have got supervised snack leave, and meal leave on Wednesday so that I can help out with Aikido! And theyโ€™re looking at discharge within a week or so ๐Ÿ˜ 
Breakfast - 2x gf toast w/ butter & scrambled eggs (*gasp* something different I know!!) + fruit salad
Morning tea - 2x gf toast w/ butter + nuts (can you tell Iโ€™ve been hungry today?)
Lunch - egg, ham & salad sandwich + fruit salad

Okay first things first thereโ€™s a guy in here whoโ€™s developed a soft spot for me and he sneaks me snakes when my nurses arenโ€™t looking. I take it as a win that I can now eat a couple without freaking out and put the rest away without binging on them. Second thing: my review??? Fucking awesome!!! I have been taken off post-meal supervision, and Iโ€™ll only be getting snack/post-snack supervision once a day on my โ€˜trigger mealsโ€™. But on that note I have got supervised snack leave, and meal leave on Wednesday so that I can help out with Aikido! And theyโ€™re looking at discharge within a week or so ๐Ÿ˜ Breakfast - 2x gf toast w/ butter & scrambled eggs (*gasp* something different I know!!) + fruit salad Morning tea - 2x gf toast w/ butter + nuts (can you tell Iโ€™ve been hungry today?) Lunch - egg, ham & salad sandwich + fruit salad

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Despite today being a pretty good day, and despite finally managing to choose dinner, and despite finally being allowed to do a 10 minute jog in gym, and despite having no pain associated with that jog, I am having a hard as fuck evening. Iโ€™m missing my family, and my cats, and Aikido, and stable internet connection, and Netflix, and being able to just do me. The ED dietitian came and spoke to me and said sheโ€™s going to start adding fear/trigger foods to my list of snack options and Iโ€™m trying so hard not to let that get to me but I am so scared. I am so scared thatโ€™s going to send me backwards. I know why she wants me to start introducing them, but fear foods are called that for a reason. Iโ€™m fucking terrified. But you know what? Iโ€™m a stubborn bitch when I want to be and I will tackle this like a rugby player on speed and I refuse to have to be put back on snack supervision (I mean I will if I have to be but dammit Iโ€™ll be going down swinging).
Accountability crap because apparently I do this now:
Afternoon tea - ensure
Dinner - fish & potato wedges & veggies + fruit salad
Supper - gf toast w/ butter + nuts

Despite today being a pretty good day, and despite finally managing to choose dinner, and despite finally being allowed to do a 10 minute jog in gym, and despite having no pain associated with that jog, I am having a hard as fuck evening. Iโ€™m missing my family, and my cats, and Aikido, and stable internet connection, and Netflix, and being able to just do me. The ED dietitian came and spoke to me and said sheโ€™s going to start adding fear/trigger foods to my list of snack options and Iโ€™m trying so hard not to let that get to me but I am so scared. I am so scared thatโ€™s going to send me backwards. I know why she wants me to start introducing them, but fear foods are called that for a reason. Iโ€™m fucking terrified. But you know what? Iโ€™m a stubborn bitch when I want to be and I will tackle this like a rugby player on speed and I refuse to have to be put back on snack supervision (I mean I will if I have to be but dammit Iโ€™ll be going down swinging). Accountability crap because apparently I do this now: Afternoon tea - ensure Dinner - fish & potato wedges & veggies + fruit salad Supper - gf toast w/ butter + nuts

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