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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-20 20:03:44
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Underweight vs normalweight Existing vs living Ich muss sagen ich bin so froh mich damals zum recovern und später zu MM entschieden zu haben. Ich hab mir selber mein Leben gerettet. Das Mädchen links war nicht mehr sie selbst. Früher von der Schule nach Hause gegangen um Sport zu machen. Sich nicht mit Freunden getroffen. Zu schwach für alles gewesen. Mit wärmflasche in der Schule. Haarausfall. Brüchige Nägel. Abschottung. Kein Leben existieren existieren für die Krankheit. Das Mädchen rechts ist nicht gesund. Aber es lebt. Es lacht. Ich treffe mich regelmäßig mit Freunden mache Sport weil es mir Spaß macht. Esse gesund esse ungesund. Versuche intuitiv zu Essen es klappt jeden Tag besser. Die Anorexie wird von Tag zu Tag weniger und meine Persönlichkeit ich selber von Tag zu Tag endlich wieder mehr. Manchmal muss ich weinen. Es hört sich dämlich an, aber manchmal muss ich weinen, weil ich so froh mich zu diesem Schritt entschieden zu haben. Mich wieder fürs Leben entschieden zu habe. Der Weg war sicherlich nicht einfach. Ich wollte mehrmals aufgeben und hab viel geweint. Ich habe zig Kilos zugenommen. Nein einfach war es nicht aber es hat sich sowas von wirklich sowas von gelohnt. Ich bin zurzeit einfach so so glücklich mit meinem Leben! Das intuitive essen ist nicht einfach aber es war klar das es das nicht wird! Es wird von Tag zu Tag besser! Leute wenn ihr etwas ändern wollt steht auf ! Macht es jetzt! Jede Sekunde die ihr wartet ist eine Sekunde zu viel! Warum solltet ihr Warten?! Ihr könnt doch JETZT anfangen! Euch JETZT euer Leben zurück holen! Aber fangt JETZT an! Glaubt an euch! Kämpft! Ihr könnt das schaffen! Recovery hat Höhen und Tiefen aber wenn ihr irgendwann oben steht und auf eueren weg zurück blickt könnt ihr sagen ,,ich hab es geschafft" ! Ihr werdet stolz sein! Ihr werdet stärker sein! Und ich weiß das ihr ALLE das schaffen könnt! Steht auf und ändert etwas!💗

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 08:25:35
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My focus this week is to s l o w d o w n 🐌 • I feel like my fatigue stresses me out. I only have so many ‘usable’ hours during the day & I panic & try to cram so much into them. I feel like I’m constantly ‘behind’ or having to rush around which is silly as I’m the one dictating my activity/work schedule🙄 • Last Wednesday morning I’d used up every bit of energy, so this week I want to slow down, take some pressure off & try to survive til Thursday at least 🤞🏽 • What’s your goal this week? 💙

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 16:54:45
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This will be my last proper meal for a while as tomorrow I am having surgery.😭 I’ve kept my situation/health quiet so far, but as this means that I will be unable to upload to YouTube I wanted to let you all know what the situation is. . To cut a VERY long story short - I have borderline ovarian cancer and tomorrow I will be having my right ovary along with the fallopian tube removed. The surgeon will biopsy the lining of my stomach, drain fluid from my abdomen (to check for invasive cells) and will also be looking at my left ovary to see if that too needs removing. Apparently I could wake up with a full hysterectomy having been performed!😲 For this type of tumour surgery is usually all the treatment you need however the final “all clear” will be give post surgery after testing etc... The tumour was actually found during a MRI on my hip (for my arthritis)- I sound like such a sick individual😄 but honestly I’m feeling fine. Slightly worried as to leaving Dad in full charge of the clan😬🤔but other than that I’m calm and ready. . If anyone would like further information on my condition I will put a link in my BIO. . Thank you all for understanding - see you on the other side!!!🤞🏼💚 . Dinner: Rice Tofu Broccoli Roasted veg Lentil dhal Avocado Hemp seed

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 07:17:59
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It’s a beautiful day and I can’t stop myself from smiling... 🌞♥️ good morning sunshine, choose joy!——————————————— Currently enjoying my cup of tea in our courtyard, soaking up some sun and just feeling blessed, hihi. On today’s agenda: mails, running, packing my suitcase, planning some pictures and spending some time with my loved ones. What about you?

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-15 14:01:35
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This tiny flexible robot and was designed to perform surgery. . . . #accessible #innovation #change #mobility #health #lifesaving #treatment #robot #surgery #recovery #healing #innovation #newtech #patients

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 13:19:55
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Сыррр💔

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 05:12:33
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🥜 Pancakes tower 🥜 Bonjour ! Nouvelle recette de pancakes, dites moi si vous voulez que je la postes 🥞 Enfin un jour férié hors vacances 😏 Du coup comme pendant les vacances : salle le matin pour avoir l’aprem de libre 🙄 même si vus l’état post séance du bas la semaine dernière, je vais pas être capable de faire grand chose après 😂 Et vous, programme de ce lundi férié ? ❤️ #breakfast #chocolate #food #instafood #eat #teamshape #teamfitcats #peanutbutter #pancakes #fit #instafit #healthy #recovery #eatclean #oatmeal #banana #teammotiv

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-20 22:56:58
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This is beautiful! What if we showed ourselves the love we’ve longed for and need? It’s a practice, small baby steps but working on our relationship to ourselves is so important! ! . . Repost with @Repostlyapp @alex_elle say this out loud. know it to be true. walk through it, a day at a time. love takes practice. practice creates ritual. . . #1affirmationaday #selfcompassion #selfcare #selflove #bekindtoyourself #yougotthis #youmatter #edrecovery #edwarrior #recoveryispossible #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealthmatters #anxietyrecovery #ptsdrecovery #addictionrecovery #depressionrecovery #recovery #chronicillness #spoonies #chronicpain #endthestigma #therapy #haes #allbodiesaregoodbodies

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 14:16:47
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#PSA #ImmediateShare Repost @adamhsboardcc some of the organizations hiring @ 2018 Behavioral Health and Human Services Career Fair! #ActNow CLE Airport Marriott, W.150th St from Now-2PM #careers #mentalhealth #addiction #recovery #360⚡️

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:58:15
#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:57:39
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No tienes que seguir ninguna dieta, solo comer de la forma correcta, en el momento adecuado y las cantidades necesarias 🍝🐟🥗 . . TriOn3 Sports Nutrition 👉@pauovr 🔵⚫️ . #nutrition #nutricion #sportsnutrition #healthy #healthyfood #eatclean #recovery #fuel #hydration

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:57:06
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Back in January, Redikkulus was found unresponsive and lethargic on #mundesleybeach thanks to the observant eyes of #sealandshorewatch supporter. Happily she is on her way to #recovery thanks to the wonderful #rehabilitation care at @hunstanton_sealife. In spite of her one eye, the #hunstantonsealifesanctuary team hope to #release her soon in #thewash once they are confident she can #feedherself . Do visit the #hunstanton #seal #rescuecentre. You will find Redikkulus in the outer #pool together with other #seals swimming and playing.

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:57:03
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#recovery #addiction #sobriety

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:56:56
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Hey guy's today I was at the hospital with my dad because he felt down and have so much pain in his back😐 - #breakfast was one bun with honey and plum jam 🍯 #morningsnack was one apple at the hospital 🍎 #lunch was a Indian chicken curry with courgette, Mango, pineapple 🍍, peas, bell pepper and rice 🍚 Dessert was one of my favorite chocolate bars😍 the snickers white🍫 #afternoonsnack was a huge challenge 😌 a plum cake 🍰 #dinner was mushrooms in CREAMY SAUCE🍄 and rye bread 🍞 - Love you all guys 💕 #recovery #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #recoverywarrior #edrecovery #recoverytime #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #health #happiness #strongnotskinny #fuckana #ana

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:56:55
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¿Te gustaría probar aminoácidos esenciales con excelente sabor y excelente relación? #limitxnutrition trae para ti COMPLEX #bcaa por solo $352.00 . . . . . . #strong #bcaas #aminoacid #limitx #fitness #bodybuilding #bodybuilder #recovery #fit

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:56:53
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Wirus żołądkowy dzisiaj na korcie, wrócę niedługo 💪 Stomach virus got me today on court, will come back soon💪 #recovery

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:56:46
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I have read and reread my book close to 100 times now. I can still feel the raw emotions of the pain I lived through and the gratitude I survived. Get your copy on Amazon today #Anxiety #SOBER #AA #recovery #12steps #EndTheStigma #AnxietyCanBeABitch #authors #mentalHealth #truth #bookstagram #amazon #buddha #namaste #breathe

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:56:36
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Using up what’s left in the fridge and somehow made tacos outta it✊🏼 @sietefoods cassava coconut tortillas filled with salmon, sautéed peppers, guac, & nutritional yeast (for some cheeeeze) + @wildbrine sauerkraut and roasted zucchini🌮 I have to wake up at 3:30 tomorrow morning for my flight to LA so there’s a good chance I won’t be getting much sleep tonight😅

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:56:31
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Pintparty 😍 finally with the white one by @magnum 🙏🏾 i couldn’t find it anywhere but some days ago my mom bought me two - the last two she could get 🙋🏽‍♀️ i crave white chocolate so much atm and so I only can say good things about this icecream 😋 i love the concept with the chocolate around the icecream and the major pieces in it so much! Well, I don’t like plain vanilla icecream that much but this one is quite good. That’s why I give it 8/10 😇 (swipe for a video of the ‚crack‘ 😝) #recovery #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #pintparty #nightsnack #icecream #icecreamlover #magnum #magnumwhite #whitechocolate #chocolate #vanilla #vanillaicecream #langnese #balanced #balancednotclean

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:56:13
#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:56:05
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Hallo Leute, tut mir Leid das ich so eine schlechte Stimmung verbreite aber ich kriege grade echt komplett die Kriese. Dieses Bild Ist heute entstanden und ich bin einfach komplett eskaliert. Ich bin mindestens moppelig wenn nicht dick. Ich werde immer fetter. Wie kann das sein, vor drei Monaten war ich noch stark Untergewichtig. Ich ertrage diesen Körper nicht, ich ertrage mich nicht. Es macht alles keinen Sinn, Wenn man sich selber nicht wohl fühlt. #fett #anorexie #Magersucht #Recovery #zunehmem

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:55:15
#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:54:53
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Had a great recovery day yesterday 😊✨💕 . Since I’m on antibiotics, I was very protective of my skin being exposed to the sun so I wore a cap 🧢, which I don’t do often, & just wore long sleeve everything to provide maximum protection from the ☀️ . On Saturday, JooJoo helped me get my groceries from Costco so I could meal prep for the week & I made some tilapia 🐟 and veggie 🥔🌽🌶🥦 tikka masala & my brown rice + quinoa turkey veggie bowls 🥙🍚😋 . Before all of this meal prepping and what not, I took my mom out to a much needed @ultabeauty shopping spree 💄💋👜 she had never been there before & she’s very into beauty so you know I had to spoil her & bring her out there 😂 she LOVED it but having so many girlie decisions on what to buy & what not to buy gave her a headache 🤣 but nonetheless, she got some very nice new goodies that she can’t wait to play w. everyday before work haha 😆 As for myself, I had to restock on some beauty & skincare supplies so I had a lot of fun shopping too 😊💕✨ I just finished grooming my brows & can’t wait to play w. some of my new makeup supplies hehe had to throw out some old mascara & brow stuff because hygienes & all you know 💦 I make it a regular habit to clean out everything as much as possible because I just love feeling fresh & new again after a major cleaning session ☺️✨ also, the major shopping spree got me to Platinum status at my favorite beauty place hehe 💕🙏🏻✨ #DreamsComeTrue . Afterwards, I took my mama out on a daughter + mother date at a nearby @applebees & ate some really good, actual quality food that I’m personally surprised to have experienced since I always had a below average experience there but #StepUpGameStrong 🍎🐝 . I had a really nice day after these long sick days of work, homework, + lots of meds 💊 I finished all my work early this week & relaxed for most of the weekend 💕 it made me very happy & content again #MuchNeeded AND I have over 103% in my current graduate class 🤗 . #HappyGirl #Treats #shoppingspree #makeup #ulta #mealprep #family #date #motheranddaughterdate #happymama #sick #recovery #healing #food #health #healthandwealth #lifestyle #fitspiration

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:54:19
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Tonight’s dinner is a vegan cheese spread salad wrap with ringos crisps and salad 🥗 sorry I never got round to posting today, like I said I would, I literally haven’t stopped all shift and I worked 2.5 hours over 😅 we don’t really get breaks on the ward sometimes and so when I got out I was starving and munched my lunch in about 20 minutes flat (really short time for me as I’m a super slow eater!) 😂

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:53:44
#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:53:30
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Sometimes it’s hard and you want to chase something, but if you know your value and are comfortable with yourself the good things will come. #knowyourworth #beyourself #lifeyourlife #recovery

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:53:26
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You are reading that right, Dr. Jordan is taking patients on Saturdays!! Book your appointment with Dr. Jordan by contacting Beyond Wellness at 703-723-9335! #wellness #recovery

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:53:16
#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:53:10
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don't trust the people who dye their hair without gloves they truly have nothing to lose and care about no one 🕸 my hair is purple again, deal with it

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:53:09
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Hey #LEON, ready to pedal? Join us this Sunday 27th, at the Virginia Key Mountain Bike Park, to experience the mountain bike series you've being asking for!! We'll be there waiting for you at the finish line to celebrate your arrival with a delicious serving of our #RECOVERY, rewarding your body for such an incredible effort!! Come on, prepare your pedals and hold on tight to your handle! 🚴⚡⚡⚡ . @velosportevents @biketech . #LEON #traininig #workout #muscles #body #miami #sports #race #athletes #winner #athlete #extreme #effort #power #instagood #instasport #instafitness #instacool #extreme #fitnessmotivation #endurance #monday #extremebiking #cycling

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:53:06
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I understand that 13 reasons why is triggering and in some points glamorizing stuff but I just have to watch it over and over again . I wish I could walk in public without panicing just ONCE... I would really like to know how it is not to have anxiety about your ugly reflection in the windows or a whole in the street or just strangers... I dont want to live anymore... . . . . . #sad #depression #anxiety #lostgirl #strong #recovery #selfhate #suicidal #useless #lonely #mentalillness #mentalhealth #worthless #socialanxety #hope #staystrong #selfharmproblems #nosense #confused #cutting #burning #suicide #help #iwanttodie #eatingdisorder #ana #awareness #mentalhealth #relaps #clean #healthyeating

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Portugal, it seems, is winning the war on drugs. And it is doing so by not fighting it. In 2001, a progressive government moved to shift the focus of its drug policy to prioritise treatment over penalisation. • Change is needed- it's #TimeToTest • • • • • #drugs #drug #drugpolicy #change #portugal #uk #law #legalise #legalisation #legalization #addiction #recovery #reform #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #warondrugs #treatment #compassion #welfare #wellbeing #theloop #wearetheloop #policy

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:51:38
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Bonsoir bonsoir, Comment allez vous ? Vous avez passé une bonne journée ? De mon côté rien de particulier comme d'habitude lol. Un petit coup au moral en milieu d'après midi sans aucune raison particulière mais hop hop on se remotive et on positive !!! Pas beaucoup de variété dans mes repas car faut terminer ce qui est entamé. Mais faut que j'essaie de tester de nouvelles choses. Et surtout ne pas se fier à la première impression car je ne sais pas si ça vous fait cela à vous aussi mais souvent quand je goûte pour la première fois un nouveau truc je me dis "mouais ça casse pas trois pattes à un canard lol" puis à force de goûter je me dis "ah finalement c'est pas si mal que cela". Bref cetait 3615 my life lol. Ce soir c'est le meilleur pâtissier alors hop hop une belle soirée gourmand en perspective. Et vous votre programme ? #anorexie #anorexia #combat #fight #dur #difficile #defis #manger #eat #vivre #vie #life #recovery #edrecovery #tca #trouble #alimentaire #troublealimentaire #edfighter #repas #meal #diner #miam #sefaireplaisir #anafight #noana

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:51:32
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Beccatevi questa faccina sorridente 😜, nonché la mia cena 🍴: 2 burger vegetali di piselli e taccole 🌱, peperoni 🌶, 60 gr. di pane 🍞 di segale, fragole 🍓 e una prugna (perché ho saltato la merenda..) Non ho messo l’olio perché i burger mi sembravano già abbastanza “oleosi“ ma forse è solo una mia impressione poiché non erano fritti.. 🤷🏽‍♀️ - Sarà un post un po’ breve perché al momento mi vedo enorme ed ingombrante ma cerco di non pensarci e di godermi la serata. Sono stanchissima e forse questo influisce. Sono stata dalla psicologa 👩🏾‍💼, con cui ho parlato tantissimo. Della mia vecchia migliore amica, di Domenica, della bacchettata di oggi, dei miei futuri impegni. Abbiamo anche parlato della palestra 🏋🏽‍♀️ e lei mi sostiene. Non posso esserne più felice! Ha detto che parlerà con la nutri. così magari per la fine della scuola ..🤞🏻. Dopo sono andata a fare una piccola spesa con mamma 🛒, principalmente mi servivano prodotti per l’igiene. Tornata a casa mi sono riposata e poi ho fatto la lista delle mie prossime verifiche ed interrogazioni fino alla fine della scuola. Ragazze, avrò una prova OGNI GIORNO praticamente. Per due settimane. Al solo pensiero mi viene molta ansia. La sento proprio salire. Forse questo influenza la mia visione? Così domani porterò il foglio alla prof. di latino e vedrà lei dove vuole incastrarmi le sue prove. In un certo senso sono un po’ urtata perché oramai sono due mesi che sono a scuola. Io ho fatto e sto facendo del mio meglio. Lei si poteva svegliare prima 😒. Scusate ma a me la disorganizzazione proprio non va giù... 🙅🏽‍♀️ Infine ho studiato greco 🇬🇷 e ricopiato degli appunti. Ora cerco di riposarmi e soprattutto di svuotare la mente che rischia di esplodere o magari di implodere, che a parer mio è ancora peggio. Buona serata, scusate la negatività... ♥️

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:51:29
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Day 5. I’m free!!! Thanks to Georgie for coming to rescue me !!! Was an emotional day. First they said I couldn’t go home but the surgeon came and had a look and said as long as I had a splint on my leg to stop me falling over my own foot I could go. Mixed responses on how long the recovery will be but they all seem to agree Full use of my foot is just a maybe!! Well, I’m gonna smash the shit out of these exercises. No maybes here. #spinalfusion #recovery #imfree

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:51:17
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Getting ready for Open House! #getcentered #mindfulness #recovery

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:51:12
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When #worlds2018 is approaching, you train with the best, and you recover with the best. These guys did just that over the weekend, no doubt they and the rest of the #ronin squad will come home with some serious hardware! #ibjjf #jiujitsulifestyle #worlds2018 #bjj #gfteam #gfteamnaopara #bjjlifestyle #jiujitsu #uscryotherapy #recovery #team #champs #cryolife

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:51:05
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Lost so much weight, still recovering from the food poisoning I’ve had yesterday. . . . . #fitfam #recovery #rehab #mma #motivation #alphamale #bjj #fitnessmotivation

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:51:01
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| GREEN ESCAPE | . Profiter des beaux jours pour s'aérer👌😁 . Sortie vélo pour récupérer mes jambes qui étaient en 🔥 après ma sortie d'hier...18km dans la belle campagne genevoise!😍😍 . J'en ai pris plein les yeux!👀😎💚💛💙💜❤🌿🌾🌼🌹🦋🐞 . #cycing #recovery #resttime #chilling #weekendsport #training #geneva #myswitzerland #moveyour🍑 #getoutthere #bluesky #pornsky #green #clouds #cyclingshots #instanature #instanice #sunnyday #sprintime #spring #panorama #whataview

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:50:56
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#medicinemondays Black Paintings EP LINK IN BIO This is an unreleased record I had from 2012. It chronicles my move from Chicago to Atlanta. Also my fight with a deep drug addiction. The title comes from one of my favorite Mark Rothko paintings, the last paintings he finished before committing suicide. This is def a rainy day record. Put it in headphones and zone out. Thank you for listening. Available on Spotify, Tidal, Apple Music and all other streaming sites!!!! LINK IN BIO . . . . . . #newmusic #newmusicalert #newmusicmonday #chicagohiphop #atlantahiphop #heroinaddiction #drugraps #sobriety #recovery #rehab #forever21 #movingcrosscountry #growth #emcee #newhiphopmusic #masterofceremony #depressingmusic #lightenup #growth

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:50:53
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Well it finally happened — my back is healed up. But not without its share of revenge...😈🙄 . I am a text book 📖 emotional eater😭🍔🍕🍺🍫🍷. The moment finals got hard and my back was hurt again I was like WELP THIS IS ME NOW, and basically ate whatever I wanted. . Did I feel good? Not really. Did it help? At the time, a little. . But now is the time to dig on back in and get to the grind. My body is craving exercise, despite my mind’s complaining 🍼😂😇. And EVEN BETTER — I am about to embark on a brand new nutritional journey to help heal my emotional eating once and for all. . So look at this DAY 1 photo now - bc I imagine you’ll see it again when I show you HOW AMAZING these programs really are and how much they WORK. I know I will not only be buttoning these shorts, but ROCKING them 🎸🍑 in no time 😉. . (Secret not secret — I have already lost 3.5 pounds since this photo...taken yesterday...on the new mindset. I’m accepting 10 new people to try this new nutrition program with me; NO EXERCISE REQUIRED unless you wanna. There are only *4 spots* left. If you’re on the fence I would snag it now because they are going as fast as ever and I want to be sure you see this for yourself 😘 so why aren’t we messaging yet?? Registration closes May 30!)

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:50:44
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I'm really proud to see all of our athletes that raced at the opening round of the Motocross season start off strong 💪🏼 . Looking forward to a strong season boys! . 🏋🏼‍♂️ @swanie387 #teamswanie . @aaronplessinger_23 @justincooper62_ @hartranft_114 @taft53 @bcfitmeals . . .

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:50:42
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21.05.18 Evening recovery walk after Liverpool half marathon with the pooch #recovery #walk #borderterrier #dogsofinstagram #derbyshire #nofilter

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:50:37
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Recovery mode on ☑️⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ‎ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ‎ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ‎ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ #model #actor #hapa #eurasian #malemodel #yvrmodel #vancitymodel #selfie #recovery #tired

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:50:34
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There’s always something else going on.. something else we must forgive.

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:50:27
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Breakdowns lead to breakthroughs. When my little baby nugget got a bad 3rd degree curling iron burn last week, I had to practice what I preach. I had to feel all the uncomfortable feels, trust me, I did NOT want to. . I had a huge amount of self-hate for not preventing him from pulling on the cord. It happened in the blink of an eye. It was overwhelming to think this was all my fault and totally preventable. I felt sadness, fear, stress, anger, you name it. I felt depression, anxiety, shame, and hopelessness. I had been fighting a cold for about a week, then the stress of that incident knocked my immunity out and I got full blown sick the night it happened. So, this is what I call a breakdown. I just felt it. I cried. Hard. I said things to myself that the mental health professional in me wouldn’t approve of. I allowed the scary and extreme thoughts and feelings have their place. I knew by allowing them, they would get the space they needed and could move along. Let therapist me chime in and say all of these reactions are valid. I know it was an accident and could have happened to anyone, but any mom would have these emotions AND the key for me was allowing them to be felt. By allowing them to be felt doesn’t mean they’re TRUE. It does mean they’re VALID. Big difference. I knew I didn’t really hate myself, but I let myself feel that… so i wouldn’t have to feel it forever. That’s where breakthroughs happen. . We’re not out of the woods over here, but I’m happy to report I no longer hate myself more than anyone or anything I’ve ever known. My body is still sick, and I’m not surprised if it’s gonna require me to slow down for a while. The breakthrough is I don’t feel the extreme feelings today. My baby is a gracious teacher and showing me resilience like I’ve never known. Another breakthrough for me is postponing my perfectionism class. How cool of me to be imperfect while teaching imperfection, right? I dunno when my voice, energy, and brain will be able to get that together. I need to prioritize my family, health, and clients so I’ll keep you posted when I can launch the next course. 🤟

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:50:23
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My dessert tonight👌🏻🔥🍫 @plamilfoods dark chocolate spread + apricot jam on crumpets and a pack of american belvitas - these are SO good! I bought them in New York and they’re cinnamon brown sugar flavoured and literally they are the best belvitas ever, and they are also vegan😻 I also ate @lindamccartneyfoods sausage rolls for the first time today as you saw on my story and god damn i’ve been missing out👅❤️ #like4like #likeforlike #follow4follow #followforfollow #gainpost #gaintrain #food #foodporn #foodreview #foodblogger #blogger #iphonexphotography #iphonex #jerseychannelislands #belvitas #belvita #chocolatespread #veganchocolate #plamilfoods #warburtoncrumpets

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:50:21
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#update in 🇩🇪 TW - zahlen etc. es ist seit ein paar monaten ein auf und ab mit dem gewicht. ich nehme ab und paar tage später ist das ganze gewicht wieder drauf. ich binge und hasse mich danach mehr und mehr. ich reduziere wieder, nehme ab und habe kaum noch kraft. mir ist wieder ständig schwindlig und so wirkliche lust zum leben habe ich auch nicht. ich habe in den letzten 2 wochen etwa 2-3 kilo abgenommen wobei ich fast immer unter 1500 kalorien esse, an manchen tagen nichtmal 1000. der schneidedruck kommt schubweise und meistens kann ich ganz gut damit umgehen. am mittwoch bin ich 3 wochen clean &' ich hoffe, dass es diesmal mehr als 21 tage hält.. klar ich werde oft getriggert. wenn ich wunden sehe, frage ich mich, wieso ich mich nicht verletzen darf. und die suizidgedanken kommen auch schubweise. ich versuche gerade sie mir, "abzutrainieren", aber es ist hart. ende juni habe ich meinen abschluss in der tasche und irgendwie will ich echt noch 3 kilo abnehmen (wäre dann bei 60kg) und das war ja von anfang an mein GW. ich habe einfach angst, dass ich nicht in mein kleid passe und dann fett bin und hässlich noch dazu. ich gehe auch selten mit freunden raus und wenn ich raus gehe dann MUSS ich 10000 schritte gehen. es ist alles nicht so leicht. mit meiner therapeutin bearbeite ich jetzt schon die themen, die ich stationär behandeln will, weil es bis zu aufnahme noch fast ein jahr ist..🙄🙄das war mein ehrliches update, friends. ich weiß es ist hart,aber ich versuche weiterzukämpfen! stay strong!💕#weightrestoreddoesnotmeanfat #warrior #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recovery #triggerwarning #anorexia #struggling #depression #depressed #deutschland #selfharmrecovery #selfacceptance #selfharm #selfharmmm #germany #prorecovery #healing #loveyourself #loveyourselffirst #leipzig #neverstopfighting #iwasnotbuilttobreak #mentalillnesses

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:50:17
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It probably isn't as bad as it looks, but when the doc tells you you need to take rest cause there's something with your leg, and you're a daughter of my parents, this probably was the only way to get some proper rest this weekend. 😂😂 But today I was walking again, so I'm fairly positive the rest has done me well 😊😀. #familytime #recovery #onwardsandupwards

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:50:15
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Karnipidasana (Ear Pressure Pose). Whenever I see someone in this pose, it always reminds me of some sci-fi creature with a bunch of limbs and no head. (For Ashtangis - full expression is with hands clasped together)

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:49:38
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The lighting at dinner (second picture) was horrific so the watermelon picture is an old picture 😂 This looks huge I swear there is less rice and peas than it looks 😭 such a scary dinner and guilt is 100% gonna lead to over exercising tonight but lol there’s 2 dinners on my feed and both feature Linda McCartney sausages 💁🏼‍♀️ hope ya’ll have had a great day 💕 . Feel really crappy after dance - body image has PLUMETED. legit NONE of my friends at dance have mentioned me losing weight apart from the 1 boy lol and it makes me feel shit like nobody’s noticed yet (TW) I’ve lost nearly 30lbs now?! Just makes me feel so gross and like I’m still viewed as one of the biggest there and none of them (apart from maybe my 2 closest friends there as they saw me eat little the other day) have any idea of how shit things are or how much I’m struggling and how horrible it’s making everything. Just makes me feel so crap and I have to be so fake and I just wish somebody would ask me about it or whatever idk why I just feel like a massive fake!! Like I’ve been asked if I’m okay in message but how do u come out with ‘nah I’m starving myself and just HATE myself like what?!Hahaha sorry rant over!

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 18:49:20
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Thinking Rock/tile thingy 😂😂😂 okay that was a failed attempt to create some poetic type of thing. But anyway my point was going to be that sometimes I just think to myself that I should be enjoying life and at the stage I’m in I’m not. I’ve been doing a lot of thinking recently and realised Many things. One of them is that I feel unhappy most of the time and things shouldn’t be this way. I’m legit turning 20 this year but yet I feel so old. Having no motivation to do anything is an understatement. I’m trying so hard to turn things around. I do know where I want to be but getting there and enjoying the journey is the difficult part. So over the next few weeks I have to try and make a change, for myself. I need to grow as a person and be the person I want to be. I’ve just gotta push through. I hope you are doing well and that you are having a wonderful start to the week 💜 much love 😘 #noOne

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-21 17:09:34
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Try to go to rehab in the midst of an opioid overdose crisis. ScizzorFairy Productions ,@scizzorfairy along with Judi Sketch Lewinson of Black Voices Vancouver @bvvone and @grahamspencephoto are proud to be launching an awareness video about the crisis in Vancouver. More details to follow. Follow me for upcoming posts. 📷📷📷📷📷📷 . . . . #Vancouver #opioids #opioidcrisis #videoshoot #addiction #recovery #artattack #awareness #creativesolutions

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#recovery Shared publicly - 2018-05-20 12:12:08
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“No subestimes el poder del descanso” 🚵🏽‍♂️ #powertap #cycling #recovery

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