mary burgers @maryburgers

Pop musician + language clinician Filthadelphian living in the big smoke 🇬🇧
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Went to the theatre with my sweetie to see a musical adaptation of Angela Carter’s Wise Children at the Old Vic. Such a treat to see a show about my neighbourhood in my neighbourhood!

Dress is vintage from @phillyaidsthrift !
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#plussize #psootd #fatshion

Went to the theatre with my sweetie to see a musical adaptation of Angela Carter’s Wise Children at the Old Vic. Such a treat to see a show about my neighbourhood in my neighbourhood! Dress is vintage from @phillyaidsthrift ! . . . #plussize #psootd #fatshion

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“I can’t, you stupid” was my motto from 10 months old. It took me 30 years to learn how to move my body in ways that made me feel happy and joyful because PE was a fucking nightmare and any amount of effort i put into movement was mocked. I can want to move my body independent of any pressure to be healthy or strong or fit or attractive- I will probably never be any of those things, and the injunction to be them has been a barrier to movement all my life. I had to get physical therapy until I was 11 because I was born with a congenital disorder that prevented fibre from being turned into muscle. My mom described me as basically an immobile but chatty lump, able to tell the physical therapist “I can’t, you stupid” at 10 months but unable to pick my head up or reach physical milestones. I also have an antagonistic relationship with my body because it doesn’t do the basic work of turning food into energy and instead turns it into discomfort and pain. I share this not to say “you must be healthy, you must move your body, exercise is important” but instead to say you don’t owe anyone any of that, and that gives you freedom to move when and how you want, which you may enjoy. Also I am a tasty tasty pretzel and the crease between my hip and butt is a delight .
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#fat #tastytastypretzel #plussize

“I can’t, you stupid” was my motto from 10 months old. It took me 30 years to learn how to move my body in ways that made me feel happy and joyful because PE was a fucking nightmare and any amount of effort i put into movement was mocked. I can want to move my body independent of any pressure to be healthy or strong or fit or attractive- I will probably never be any of those things, and the injunction to be them has been a barrier to movement all my life. I had to get physical therapy until I was 11 because I was born with a congenital disorder that prevented fibre from being turned into muscle. My mom described me as basically an immobile but chatty lump, able to tell the physical therapist “I can’t, you stupid” at 10 months but unable to pick my head up or reach physical milestones. I also have an antagonistic relationship with my body because it doesn’t do the basic work of turning food into energy and instead turns it into discomfort and pain. I share this not to say “you must be healthy, you must move your body, exercise is important” but instead to say you don’t owe anyone any of that, and that gives you freedom to move when and how you want, which you may enjoy. Also I am a tasty tasty pretzel and the crease between my hip and butt is a delight . . #fat #tastytastypretzel #plussize

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A bit ago someone asked me when I shaved my head and how long it took to grow out! I shaved my head almost exactly two years ago. The second picture is a year’s growth (RIP best hair colour) and the third picture is a few days ago. I really liked my shaved head and recommend it to anyone who wants to try it! #tbt .
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#shavedhead #baldgirl #bluehair

A bit ago someone asked me when I shaved my head and how long it took to grow out! I shaved my head almost exactly two years ago. The second picture is a year’s growth (RIP best hair colour) and the third picture is a few days ago. I really liked my shaved head and recommend it to anyone who wants to try it! #tbt . . #shavedhead #baldgirl #bluehair

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Bee collar pins + it’s a plaaaaaaysuittttt .
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#fatshion #plussizefashion #psootd

Bee collar pins + it’s a plaaaaaaysuittttt . . . #fatshion #plussizefashion #psootd

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Fact: I need to stick my hands in my pockets when I yell at the moon to tell her she’s soft. 
I have once again benefited from Gabby’s SheIn rejections. She also got that top from me from the fat swap. Not sure where the tights are from but they’re 75% of the way effed up. .
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#fatshion #plussize #plussizefashion

Fact: I need to stick my hands in my pockets when I yell at the moon to tell her she’s soft. I have once again benefited from Gabby’s SheIn rejections. She also got that top from me from the fat swap. Not sure where the tights are from but they’re 75% of the way effed up. . . . #fatshion #plussize #plussizefashion

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I went and had my first professional  massage today c/o the very kind and lovely @fatfemmefabulous who couldn’t make it there today. I’ve never been able to really afford something like that so I had a lot of trepidation about it. A blind spot of mine became apparent when I realised I still didn’t think my body deserves kindness, healing touch, and time. I wanted to apologise for everything about my body, how “gross” I am, etc etc. I suspect I cling to trauma held in my body and I wonder what it will take to be ready to let go of it. It was a nice thing to have, an amazing act of kindness, and productive in revealing how far I really have to go in really feeling love and compassion for myself and not just confusing *defiance* for those things

I went and had my first professional massage today c/o the very kind and lovely @fatfemmefabulous who couldn’t make it there today. I’ve never been able to really afford something like that so I had a lot of trepidation about it. A blind spot of mine became apparent when I realised I still didn’t think my body deserves kindness, healing touch, and time. I wanted to apologise for everything about my body, how “gross” I am, etc etc. I suspect I cling to trauma held in my body and I wonder what it will take to be ready to let go of it. It was a nice thing to have, an amazing act of kindness, and productive in revealing how far I really have to go in really feeling love and compassion for myself and not just confusing *defiance* for those things

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I’m afraid to talk to men!! Except Chris Fleming who is fine. 
#youknowyougotintoradioheadtooyoungwhenevenyourpocketrejectsyou

I’m afraid to talk to men!! Except Chris Fleming who is fine. #youknowyougotintoradioheadtooyoungwhenevenyourpocketrejectsyou

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My hair has never looked good from the back- I consider it a mark of real adulthood if your hair looks nice from every angle. 
My dress is from @lazyoafs which is a brand that frustrates me because the designer seems to be around my size but instead of having that either be a mid or starting point for her sizes, she’s chosen to exclude anyone slightly larger than her and never use plus size models. When I have an actual income I’d like to start being mindful about only spending money on places that are really dedicated to inclusive sizing—which are really hard to come by. The landscape of fashion would completely change if thin people decided to do that too! 
My tights are @snagtights which fit up to a size 28+!
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#fatshion #plussize #lazyoaf

My hair has never looked good from the back- I consider it a mark of real adulthood if your hair looks nice from every angle. My dress is from @lazyoafs which is a brand that frustrates me because the designer seems to be around my size but instead of having that either be a mid or starting point for her sizes, she’s chosen to exclude anyone slightly larger than her and never use plus size models. When I have an actual income I’d like to start being mindful about only spending money on places that are really dedicated to inclusive sizing—which are really hard to come by. The landscape of fashion would completely change if thin people decided to do that too! My tights are @snagtights which fit up to a size 28+! . . . #fatshion #plussize #lazyoaf

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Pony, my life is dimmer, less joyful, more solid colour and fewer stripes since you left this world. As I get older a voice a lot like yours gives me comfort and insight and rationality when I need it but I can’t make myself laugh the way you did. Thank you for sending me an actual zebra when I visited your resting place. I knew it was you because you sent something striped and it was absurd and hilarious and unbelievable. You are missed and loved and I can confirm year after year there’s never been anyone like you. Have some Diet Coke while you listen to Pig Destroyer, friends.

Pony, my life is dimmer, less joyful, more solid colour and fewer stripes since you left this world. As I get older a voice a lot like yours gives me comfort and insight and rationality when I need it but I can’t make myself laugh the way you did. Thank you for sending me an actual zebra when I visited your resting place. I knew it was you because you sent something striped and it was absurd and hilarious and unbelievable. You are missed and loved and I can confirm year after year there’s never been anyone like you. Have some Diet Coke while you listen to Pig Destroyer, friends.

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I like that I get spoiled on Halloween as if it’s my birthday! And I also like having the sweetest girlfriend!!

I like that I get spoiled on Halloween as if it’s my birthday! And I also like having the sweetest girlfriend!!

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When you’re me “let me get into something more comfortable” means a threadbare primark skeleton onesie

When you’re me “let me get into something more comfortable” means a threadbare primark skeleton onesie

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My mom sent me a Halloween and pumpkin care package as a finishing my master’s care package! Just doing a lazy closet costume Wednesday Addams this year as I’m not going anywhere and we don’t get trick or treaters .
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#fatshion #plussize #psootd

My mom sent me a Halloween and pumpkin care package as a finishing my master’s care package! Just doing a lazy closet costume Wednesday Addams this year as I’m not going anywhere and we don’t get trick or treaters . . . #fatshion #plussize #psootd

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