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There are parts of all of us we’d like to stay hidden. Parts of our past we’d rather not discuss, think about or even acknowledge are there. We think it’s too painful, too shameful, too isolating, or something that will make us look weak. What we fail to realize while working so hard to keep those parts hidden, are all the ways we are being held back, paralyzed and consistently making ourselves feel unworthy and like we will never measure up. .
Your story is unique, imperfect, and yes... it may be painful. But standing inside your story and owning it... that brings hope and healing at a level you never even knew was possible. Owning your story and sharing your story... it may finally be the key you’ve been looking for all along to unlock the door that worthiness flows from.

#GiveLove #Happiness
#ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery  #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #findyourself

There are parts of all of us we’d like to stay hidden. Parts of our past we’d rather not discuss, think about or even acknowledge are there. We think it’s too painful, too shameful, too isolating, or something that will make us look weak. What we fail to realize while working so hard to keep those parts hidden, are all the ways we are being held back, paralyzed and consistently making ourselves feel unworthy and like we will never measure up. . Your story is unique, imperfect, and yes... it may be painful. But standing inside your story and owning it... that brings hope and healing at a level you never even knew was possible. Owning your story and sharing your story... it may finally be the key you’ve been looking for all along to unlock the door that worthiness flows from. #GiveLove #Happiness #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #findyourself

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There are parts of all of us we’d like to stay hidden. Parts of our past we’d rather not discuss, think about or even acknowledge are there. We think it’s too painful, too shameful, too isolating, or something that will make us look weak. What we fail to realize while working so hard to keep those parts hidden, are all the ways we are being held back, paralyzed and consistently making ourselves feel unworthy and like we will never measure up. .
Your story is unique, imperfect, and yes... it may be painful. But standing inside your story and owning it... that brings hope and healing at a level you never even knew was possible. Owning your story and sharing your story... it may finally be the key you’ve been looking for all along to unlock the door that worthiness flows from.

#GiveLove #Happiness
#ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery  #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #findyourself

There are parts of all of us we’d like to stay hidden. Parts of our past we’d rather not discuss, think about or even acknowledge are there. We think it’s too painful, too shameful, too isolating, or something that will make us look weak. What we fail to realize while working so hard to keep those parts hidden, are all the ways we are being held back, paralyzed and consistently making ourselves feel unworthy and like we will never measure up. . Your story is unique, imperfect, and yes... it may be painful. But standing inside your story and owning it... that brings hope and healing at a level you never even knew was possible. Owning your story and sharing your story... it may finally be the key you’ve been looking for all along to unlock the door that worthiness flows from. #GiveLove #Happiness #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #findyourself

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From the moment I decided to share my story, the one thing I remember thinking was that if I was going to open  up, I needed to be 100% honest about everything. 
I remember first thinking I could just say I struggled with an eating disorder and body image issues, and not have to specify that I struggled with bulimia, which I saw as the most shameful eating disorder. Once I decided I needed to admit to having bulimia... I then tried to think of all the ways I could sugar coat my struggle.

From the moment I decided to share my story, the one thing I remember thinking was that if I was going to open up, I needed to be 100% honest about everything. I remember first thinking I could just say I struggled with an eating disorder and body image issues, and not have to specify that I struggled with bulimia, which I saw as the most shameful eating disorder. Once I decided I needed to admit to having bulimia... I then tried to think of all the ways I could sugar coat my struggle. "Just say you only struggled for a little while. Don't tell people it was almost 10 years!" "Don't let anyone know the lengths you went to to hide what you were doing... just make it sound as mild as you can." I was terrified to actually paint the real picture for people on what my battle truly was. The devil that my eating disorder was, was truly in the details. So... ultimately I made a promise to myself that if I was going to tell everyone that I struggled with an eating disorder, I was going to come clean about EVERYTHING. All the ways I hid what I was doing, all the habits I developed (no matter how shameful), the stealing of food from my roommates in college... EVERYTHING! Well, what I didn't realize is that in the world of eating disorder experts and therapists, there is a "right way" and a "wrong way" to "share your story responsibly." Over the last few months I have been challenged by a couple of these experts, who have had a lot more education with eating disorders and the mental health challenges that surround them, to share my story more responsibly by not talking about all the details. What I had failed to realize is there are mental health struggles far deeper than what I had experienced when it comes to those struggling with eating disorders. It was explained to me that there are many people who actually seek out how to get better at their eating disorder. There are also things that can "trigger" a person to dive deeper or fall back into their eating disorder. There is also eating disorder envy where a person literally wishes they could be as good at their eating disorder as someone else AND... (cont. in comments)

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We were made to create. It’s actually one of the most basic human needs we have.
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The need to create is the reason we dream, the reason we have passions and the reason we feel more fulfilled when we are creating and sometimes sad and disconnected when we aren’t.
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Ask yourself if you are paying attention to your need to create or if you are simply going through the motions.
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Creating looks so different for all of us and that’s what is so incredible about the uniqueness in all of us.
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I love photography and telling stories through video. Some people love to write, others create music. Some people paint and others are incredible wood makers. Some people like to fix stuff (cars, plumbing, disorganization) and others love scrapbooking or decorating a space. Some people are party planners and others love to craft. Some people like to create through hard labor like landscaping and construction, others love preparing a delicious meal.
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What is it for you that you love creating? If you don’t know the answer to that question, I’d love to encourage to start discovering what your “thing” is.
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There are many reasons and factors that allowed me to finally overcome my eating disorder... but one of those reasons is that I started listening again to what my heart wanted to create. .
Many of us use food or control how we consume food because it feels like a quick fix to whatever we are feeling and struggling through.
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I know that my answers are not everyone’s answers but I do know that we all need to let ourselves struggle through our emotions sometimes and know that there isn’t always a quick fix. The struggle is part of the process. .
So if you’re struggling, try and open your eyes to the opportunities you have in your life to create and make a contribution. It just might lead to something greater than you could have ever imagined, and you will probably find healing along the way❤️

We were made to create. It’s actually one of the most basic human needs we have. . The need to create is the reason we dream, the reason we have passions and the reason we feel more fulfilled when we are creating and sometimes sad and disconnected when we aren’t. . Ask yourself if you are paying attention to your need to create or if you are simply going through the motions. . Creating looks so different for all of us and that’s what is so incredible about the uniqueness in all of us. . I love photography and telling stories through video. Some people love to write, others create music. Some people paint and others are incredible wood makers. Some people like to fix stuff (cars, plumbing, disorganization) and others love scrapbooking or decorating a space. Some people are party planners and others love to craft. Some people like to create through hard labor like landscaping and construction, others love preparing a delicious meal. . What is it for you that you love creating? If you don’t know the answer to that question, I’d love to encourage to start discovering what your “thing” is. . There are many reasons and factors that allowed me to finally overcome my eating disorder... but one of those reasons is that I started listening again to what my heart wanted to create. . Many of us use food or control how we consume food because it feels like a quick fix to whatever we are feeling and struggling through. . I know that my answers are not everyone’s answers but I do know that we all need to let ourselves struggle through our emotions sometimes and know that there isn’t always a quick fix. The struggle is part of the process. . So if you’re struggling, try and open your eyes to the opportunities you have in your life to create and make a contribution. It just might lead to something greater than you could have ever imagined, and you will probably find healing along the way❤️

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It's so easy in our society to forget how blessed we are. I can get caught up all too easily looking at people who have more, make more money, live in a nicer house, or own nicer things and then find myself wishing I had the same, completely forgetting how much I already have to be thankful for. 
On this #GivingTuesday I am preparing to leave the United States for my first time to travel to Vicente Guerrero, B.C. Mexico at the end of January to deliver shoes to children who don’t own a single pair.
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As I thought about all those without shoes, I decided to count all the shoes in my home... we own 82 pairs! 82 pairs is what I counted and there are only 4 people in our family! It sounds ridiculous to say doesn't it? .
Especially when I consider this fact that I recently learned from the @my360project, the organization I will be traveling with: There are 300 million children in our world today who have nothing to protect their feet. Not a single pair of shoes.

The #My360Project is looking to change that, but we need your help. I would like to humbly ask you to consider sponsoring a pair of shoes as I head to Mexico. The shoes that I get sponsored will be the shoes I deliver to kids in need. I have a lofty goal of getting 300 pairs of shoes sponsored, but I think with your generosity & helping to spread the word, it's a very doable goal. 
Just $35 sponsors 1 pair of shoes but it doesn't just give shoes to a child in need, it's also providing sustainable jobs to people who otherwise wouldn't be able to provide for their families. This is bc the My360Project is dedicated to creating sustainability in the communities they serve. They train local people how to actually make the shoes so they can have a reliable income for their families. Many of the people being employed have been victims of human trafficking or have been considered unemployable either because of disability or lack of education.
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Watch my story highlight to learn why not having shoes is hurting these children on so much more than a surface level & see how these shoes grow 3 sizes to fit the child longer!
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BECOME A SHOE SPONSOR: https://give.classy.org/NicholeMischkeShoeSponsor (link in bio)

It's so easy in our society to forget how blessed we are. I can get caught up all too easily looking at people who have more, make more money, live in a nicer house, or own nicer things and then find myself wishing I had the same, completely forgetting how much I already have to be thankful for. On this #GivingTuesday I am preparing to leave the United States for my first time to travel to Vicente Guerrero, B.C. Mexico at the end of January to deliver shoes to children who don’t own a single pair. . As I thought about all those without shoes, I decided to count all the shoes in my home... we own 82 pairs! 82 pairs is what I counted and there are only 4 people in our family! It sounds ridiculous to say doesn't it? . Especially when I consider this fact that I recently learned from the @my360project, the organization I will be traveling with: There are 300 million children in our world today who have nothing to protect their feet. Not a single pair of shoes. The #My360Project is looking to change that, but we need your help. I would like to humbly ask you to consider sponsoring a pair of shoes as I head to Mexico. The shoes that I get sponsored will be the shoes I deliver to kids in need. I have a lofty goal of getting 300 pairs of shoes sponsored, but I think with your generosity & helping to spread the word, it's a very doable goal. Just $35 sponsors 1 pair of shoes but it doesn't just give shoes to a child in need, it's also providing sustainable jobs to people who otherwise wouldn't be able to provide for their families. This is bc the My360Project is dedicated to creating sustainability in the communities they serve. They train local people how to actually make the shoes so they can have a reliable income for their families. Many of the people being employed have been victims of human trafficking or have been considered unemployable either because of disability or lack of education. . Watch my story highlight to learn why not having shoes is hurting these children on so much more than a surface level & see how these shoes grow 3 sizes to fit the child longer! . BECOME A SHOE SPONSOR: https://give.classy.org/NicholeMischkeShoeSponsor (link in bio)

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What are you thankful for this year? 
I am most thankful to have my little kiddos and incredible husband in my life and even more grateful that we are all in good health <3

Cheers to you and yours and may we all cherish the ones we're with this Thanksgiving!
#GiveLove #Happiness
#ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery  #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #findyourself

What are you thankful for this year? I am most thankful to have my little kiddos and incredible husband in my life and even more grateful that we are all in good health <3 Cheers to you and yours and may we all cherish the ones we're with this Thanksgiving! #GiveLove #Happiness #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #findyourself

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“If you can see your path laid out in front of you step by step, you know it's not your path. Your own path you make with every step you take. That's why it's your path.”
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Joseph Campbell
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If you are afraid because you don’t have all the answers... that’s okay!
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I think that perhaps a lot of the problems and messes we get ourselves into, those things happen because we are ignoring what our soul longs for the most and that is to be fully and completely known as we are. .
It’s not to be known as the world tells us we should be. It’s not to be known as the person we pretend to be. It’s to be fully known exactly as WE are... which is unlike any other person on this earth.
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The only direction you should be looking to find your way, your path, is in your heart. That’s exactly where God placed all the desires, dreams and vision for your life. Connecting with your heart and listening, that is the first step to walking the path that was meant for you.
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You won’t know all the answers right away and you certainly won’t know the direction you’re headed, but it won’t even matter because you will finally be on YOUR path and no one else’s.
#GiveLove #Happiness
#ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery  #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #findyourself

“If you can see your path laid out in front of you step by step, you know it's not your path. Your own path you make with every step you take. That's why it's your path.” . Joseph Campbell ___________________ If you are afraid because you don’t have all the answers... that’s okay! . I think that perhaps a lot of the problems and messes we get ourselves into, those things happen because we are ignoring what our soul longs for the most and that is to be fully and completely known as we are. . It’s not to be known as the world tells us we should be. It’s not to be known as the person we pretend to be. It’s to be fully known exactly as WE are... which is unlike any other person on this earth. . The only direction you should be looking to find your way, your path, is in your heart. That’s exactly where God placed all the desires, dreams and vision for your life. Connecting with your heart and listening, that is the first step to walking the path that was meant for you. . You won’t know all the answers right away and you certainly won’t know the direction you’re headed, but it won’t even matter because you will finally be on YOUR path and no one else’s. #GiveLove #Happiness #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #findyourself

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I feel like I’m finally stepping into recovery from being a “yes” person. Anybody else?
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I still struggle at times with feeling obligated to say “yes” to the things other people would love me to do.
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So I love this rule: If what you’re being asked to do doesn’t bring you energy, if it doesn’t make you SO EXCITED to participate... you have your answer and the answer is “no.”
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Sometimes though, you may be asked to do something that you literally can’t give a definitive “yes” or “no” to. In those times, turn to God, pray for clarity. If it’s meant to be, clarity will absolutely come... and if it doesn’t come, your answer should probably be “no.”
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I have to give a shoutout to @jennakutcher and the @goaldiggerpodcast for this piece of advice that I will forever embrace! She shared this on one of her podcasts, episode #20 I think. She originally heard it from good ol’ @robdyrdek!
#GiveLove #Happiness
#ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery  #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #findyourself

I feel like I’m finally stepping into recovery from being a “yes” person. Anybody else? . I still struggle at times with feeling obligated to say “yes” to the things other people would love me to do. . So I love this rule: If what you’re being asked to do doesn’t bring you energy, if it doesn’t make you SO EXCITED to participate... you have your answer and the answer is “no.” . Sometimes though, you may be asked to do something that you literally can’t give a definitive “yes” or “no” to. In those times, turn to God, pray for clarity. If it’s meant to be, clarity will absolutely come... and if it doesn’t come, your answer should probably be “no.” _______ I have to give a shoutout to @jennakutcher and the @goaldiggerpodcast for this piece of advice that I will forever embrace! She shared this on one of her podcasts, episode #20 I think. She originally heard it from good ol’ @robdyrdek! #GiveLove #Happiness #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #findyourself

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Alcohol can seem like a nice friend at first, but before you know it, that friend can get a little too controlling and be another area where shame can enter our lives. 
Tonight, I'm sharing the last 2 posts from an incredibly brave woman, @thisisvirginiakerr. (This is Post 2 of 2. Click back to see the one posted before this)

I'm sure there are many out there who can relate. Go ahead and send her some words of encouragement if you’d like.
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REPOST #2 from Virginia Kerr:
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Alcohol can seem like a nice friend at first, but before you know it, that friend can get a little too controlling and be another area where shame can enter our lives. Tonight, I'm sharing the last 2 posts from an incredibly brave woman, @thisisvirginiakerr. (This is Post 2 of 2. Click back to see the one posted before this) I'm sure there are many out there who can relate. Go ahead and send her some words of encouragement if you’d like. __________________________________ REPOST #2 from Virginia Kerr: . "Here she goes. My last bottle (who is really two bottles in one.)😬 Handed her off to my personal trainer today. She’s keeping it. Not that I want her back but it was symbolic of me saying “see ya and I ain’t coming back.” Ive broken off a lot of toxic relationships but this is the hardest one yet. . This is the first day it really sucks. Day 6. A Friday. Home alone. Decorating for Christmas. (Don’t judge- it’s what I do on hunting weekend) But it’s always a red wine kinda night. With Christmas music and popcorn. . . Funny how we can turn every occasion into one worth drinking to. I mean I can- Not speaking for you. . . But seriously. It’s the weekend- let’s drink. It’s your birthday- let’s drink. I haven’t seen you in a while- let’s drink. The games on- let’s drink. My favorite movie is on- let’s drink. The hubby is out of town- let’s drink. I had a hard day- let’s drink. It’s 8pm- let’s drink. I could go on and on. . . When your go-to downtime habit becomes a straight up dependency you can seriously turn every night into a Friday night. . Am I regretting that I outed myself on here yesterday? Kind of. But I’m also appreciating the kind words, support and the accountability. Here’s to the first tough night and some mega Christmas decor going up!!!!!! . Oh and my “Between Breaths Memoir by Elizabeth Vargas” just arrived...I will have it finished by tomorrow! This is book 5!"

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Alcohol can seem like a nice friend at first, but before you know it, that friend can get a little too controlling and be another area where shame can enter our lives. 
Tonight, I'm sharing the last 2 posts from an incredibly brave woman @thisisvirginiakerr (check out the post I made after this to see post #2)

I'm sure there are many out there who can relate. 
Go ahead and send her a few words of encouragement if you'd like.
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REPOST from Virginia Kerr: “Me & this guy in my hand go way back. 8 years to this weekend to be exact.

That was the first time I drank by myself. It was only a glass or two- but I liked it. I liked it a little too much.

I had a one month old, my husband was gone hunting for the weekend and I just said “why not?” Well, over the last 8 years my little habit turned into a dependency. And my one glass turned into - on some nights nearly two bottles. Yes. Two bottles of wine. 
For the last year I have researched, taken quizzes, gone to AA meetings, confided in friends, tried to quit, tried to cut back, tried to only drink on the weekends, tried to drink water in between drinks... But no matter what, it goes back to more nights than not. 
I honestly cannot believe I’m outing myself- but I know others are silently saying “me too.” I know that I cannot be the person I want to be, the person I claim to be, the person God intends for me to be, with this toxic relationship in my life. 
Now, me & my glass here don’t allow alcohol. Instead I drink water, club soda, tea... & unlike all the other times... I am prepared. I have a tool box of tools to help me stay on track.

Books, groups, podcasts, devotionals, an inner circle of friends including those who are also in recovery... accountability partners, gratitude lists, exercise, plans to do things that I cannot do with alcohol controlling me.

Another tool is this painfully frightening confession: Because one thing I’ve always been is truthful & I will tell you if I break my 90 day promise to be alcohol free. Hold me to it. 
It’s only been 5 days. Yep just 5 & I’ve already seen a change in my face, my body, my sleep, my family dynamic, all for the better (Cont in comments)

Alcohol can seem like a nice friend at first, but before you know it, that friend can get a little too controlling and be another area where shame can enter our lives. Tonight, I'm sharing the last 2 posts from an incredibly brave woman @thisisvirginiakerr (check out the post I made after this to see post #2) I'm sure there are many out there who can relate. Go ahead and send her a few words of encouragement if you'd like. ______________________ REPOST from Virginia Kerr: “Me & this guy in my hand go way back. 8 years to this weekend to be exact. That was the first time I drank by myself. It was only a glass or two- but I liked it. I liked it a little too much. I had a one month old, my husband was gone hunting for the weekend and I just said “why not?” Well, over the last 8 years my little habit turned into a dependency. And my one glass turned into - on some nights nearly two bottles. Yes. Two bottles of wine. For the last year I have researched, taken quizzes, gone to AA meetings, confided in friends, tried to quit, tried to cut back, tried to only drink on the weekends, tried to drink water in between drinks... But no matter what, it goes back to more nights than not. I honestly cannot believe I’m outing myself- but I know others are silently saying “me too.” I know that I cannot be the person I want to be, the person I claim to be, the person God intends for me to be, with this toxic relationship in my life. Now, me & my glass here don’t allow alcohol. Instead I drink water, club soda, tea... & unlike all the other times... I am prepared. I have a tool box of tools to help me stay on track. Books, groups, podcasts, devotionals, an inner circle of friends including those who are also in recovery... accountability partners, gratitude lists, exercise, plans to do things that I cannot do with alcohol controlling me. Another tool is this painfully frightening confession: Because one thing I’ve always been is truthful & I will tell you if I break my 90 day promise to be alcohol free. Hold me to it. It’s only been 5 days. Yep just 5 & I’ve already seen a change in my face, my body, my sleep, my family dynamic, all for the better (Cont in comments)

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I remember when I used to believe that struggling with an eating disorder made me an extremely broken person, like there was something permanently wrong with me that couldn’t be fixed. I also believed that if anyone ever found out about my battle, that would be the end of all things good in my life. I thought it would disqualify me from everything. I thought no one would trust me, like me, respect me, understand me so I did everything I could to hide what was actually happening in my life for 10 years!
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Some people are able to ask for help as they battle an eating disorder because they recognize there is no shame in needing a little support sometimes. That was not me. So... I pretended like I had it all together, unable to see that true strength, healing, understanding, and joy would only come once I uncovered my battle, admitted I wasn’t perfect, and openly talked about it.
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Never believe the lie that i believes for way too long... that imperfections will disqualify you! The truth is that by admitting your struggles and shortcomings, people will actually see you as MORE qualified and they will have MORE respect for you because by admitting you’re not so perfect you are giving everyone else permission to not have to be so perfect either. .
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Not one of us is perfect or “has it all together,” but many of will pretend like we do until someone else’s brokenness gives us permission to admit our own.
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#GiveLove #Happiness
#ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery  #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #findyourself

I remember when I used to believe that struggling with an eating disorder made me an extremely broken person, like there was something permanently wrong with me that couldn’t be fixed. I also believed that if anyone ever found out about my battle, that would be the end of all things good in my life. I thought it would disqualify me from everything. I thought no one would trust me, like me, respect me, understand me so I did everything I could to hide what was actually happening in my life for 10 years! . Some people are able to ask for help as they battle an eating disorder because they recognize there is no shame in needing a little support sometimes. That was not me. So... I pretended like I had it all together, unable to see that true strength, healing, understanding, and joy would only come once I uncovered my battle, admitted I wasn’t perfect, and openly talked about it. . Never believe the lie that i believes for way too long... that imperfections will disqualify you! The truth is that by admitting your struggles and shortcomings, people will actually see you as MORE qualified and they will have MORE respect for you because by admitting you’re not so perfect you are giving everyone else permission to not have to be so perfect either. . . Not one of us is perfect or “has it all together,” but many of will pretend like we do until someone else’s brokenness gives us permission to admit our own. _______ #GiveLove #Happiness #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #findyourself

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"Peace is seeing a sunset and knowing who to thank" Did anyone else capture the incredible sunset last night? These are some of the shots I captured near Green Bluff yesterday. What is more beautiful than a sunset? I honestly don't know if I can think of anything. _______ #GiveLove #Happiness #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #findyourself . 📸: @nicholemischkephotography (follow this page to see more of my photography)

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Just had to get on here to encourage you all that sometimes faking it till you make it is the best way to go!
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I am finally starting to feel like I’m in my element as a photographer!
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But I have to be honest and say that this is not how I felt just over a year ago when I first started taking photos... I had no idea how to operate expensive cameras! I knew how to edit photos, I knew that I LOVED taking photos and I knew how to frame a photo. So basically, I knew what looked nice... but this was all based on images I captured on a smart phone where everything was automatic! The idea of getting a nice camera with a million settings and different lenses to use... that was scary! .
But... I knew I wanted to develop a skill that I would both love and be able to earn an income with so, what did I do? I faked it till I maked it 😜(sorry for the bad grammar, but it needed to rhyme). .
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Now, I can think of some examples where this isn’t always a good strategy, but as long as you are willing to educate yourself, fail fast and then learn from your mistakes, I think it can be a great strategy!
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We all have to start somewhere! It’s only natural to feel a little alien in a job you’ve never done before... because you’ve never done it before! Just don’t let your lack of experience or lack of knowledge keep you from trying!
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We are all capable of learning something new at ANY age! And here’s another secret... there are YouTube videos to teach you everything! I now have two cameras and with each of them, I’m not going to lie, I threw the manual away and watched YouTube videos from smart people who teach people like me that hate manuals how to do stuff! I actually learn faster this way so it was so helpful!
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So the take away from this should  just be TRY! Try that crazy idea you’ve always had! Try to learn to play that instrument, to write that book, to speak that language, to start that business, to be that artist or photographer or dancer... whatever it is for you! You are capable of more than you know!

Just had to get on here to encourage you all that sometimes faking it till you make it is the best way to go! . I am finally starting to feel like I’m in my element as a photographer! . But I have to be honest and say that this is not how I felt just over a year ago when I first started taking photos... I had no idea how to operate expensive cameras! I knew how to edit photos, I knew that I LOVED taking photos and I knew how to frame a photo. So basically, I knew what looked nice... but this was all based on images I captured on a smart phone where everything was automatic! The idea of getting a nice camera with a million settings and different lenses to use... that was scary! . But... I knew I wanted to develop a skill that I would both love and be able to earn an income with so, what did I do? I faked it till I maked it 😜(sorry for the bad grammar, but it needed to rhyme). . . Now, I can think of some examples where this isn’t always a good strategy, but as long as you are willing to educate yourself, fail fast and then learn from your mistakes, I think it can be a great strategy! . We all have to start somewhere! It’s only natural to feel a little alien in a job you’ve never done before... because you’ve never done it before! Just don’t let your lack of experience or lack of knowledge keep you from trying! . We are all capable of learning something new at ANY age! And here’s another secret... there are YouTube videos to teach you everything! I now have two cameras and with each of them, I’m not going to lie, I threw the manual away and watched YouTube videos from smart people who teach people like me that hate manuals how to do stuff! I actually learn faster this way so it was so helpful! . So the take away from this should just be TRY! Try that crazy idea you’ve always had! Try to learn to play that instrument, to write that book, to speak that language, to start that business, to be that artist or photographer or dancer... whatever it is for you! You are capable of more than you know!

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I heard a voice that told me I'm essential
How all my fears are limiting my potential
Said it's time to step into the light and
Use every bit of the power I have inside and

So what'chu waiting on
Who you waiting for
If you don't take a chance you'll never know whats in store

Just do you - somebody's got to be your star
Just do you - somebody's got to raise the bar
Just do you - somebody's got to change the game
Just do you - today

Every mountain needs someone to climb it
Every ocean needs someone to dive in
Every dream needs someone to wish it
Every adventure needs someone to live it

So what'chu waiting on
Who you waiting for
If you don't take a chance you'll never know whats in store

Just do you - somebody's got to be your star
Just do you - somebody's got to raise the bar
Just do you - somebody's got to change the game
Just do you - today

If you create the game then you create the rules
And if you just be you
There's no way you can lose

There's a story waiting for you to write it
There's a treasure waiting for you to find it
There's a picture waiting for you to paint it
There's a dollar waiting for you to make it

So what'chu waiting on
Who you waiting for
If you don't take a chance you'll never know whats in store

Just do you - somebody's got to be your star
Just do you - somebody's got to raise the bar
Just do you - somebody's got to change the game
Just do you - today

If you create the game then you create the rules
And if you just be you
There's no way you can lose -India Arie
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#GiveLove #Happiness
#ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery  #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #findyourself

I heard a voice that told me I'm essential How all my fears are limiting my potential Said it's time to step into the light and Use every bit of the power I have inside and So what'chu waiting on Who you waiting for If you don't take a chance you'll never know whats in store Just do you - somebody's got to be your star Just do you - somebody's got to raise the bar Just do you - somebody's got to change the game Just do you - today Every mountain needs someone to climb it Every ocean needs someone to dive in Every dream needs someone to wish it Every adventure needs someone to live it So what'chu waiting on Who you waiting for If you don't take a chance you'll never know whats in store Just do you - somebody's got to be your star Just do you - somebody's got to raise the bar Just do you - somebody's got to change the game Just do you - today If you create the game then you create the rules And if you just be you There's no way you can lose There's a story waiting for you to write it There's a treasure waiting for you to find it There's a picture waiting for you to paint it There's a dollar waiting for you to make it So what'chu waiting on Who you waiting for If you don't take a chance you'll never know whats in store Just do you - somebody's got to be your star Just do you - somebody's got to raise the bar Just do you - somebody's got to change the game Just do you - today If you create the game then you create the rules And if you just be you There's no way you can lose -India Arie ________ 📸: @photographyfiftythree _______ #GiveLove #Happiness #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #findyourself

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One of my favorite quotes lately has been this one from Neil Gaiman:

One of my favorite quotes lately has been this one from Neil Gaiman: "The one thing that you have that nobody else has is you. Your voice, your mind, your story, your vision. So write and draw and build and play and dance and live as only you can." . . To me, this quote is about listening to that voice in your heart that's trying to connect you with your calling. . . What does it mean to live out your calling? . We hear that sometimes don't we? "...(so and so) is so inspiring! They are truly living out their calling!" . . Well I believe we all have a calling we're supposed to live out. The problem is that most of us are terrified to chase after that dream, or listen to the voice in our hearts that's telling us to do something greater. Sometimes... we're terrified to even just speak out what it is we feel called to do. . . Our calling can change over time depending on the season of life we’re in so we always have to be listening and willing to make a change when it’s time to move on. . I just had the best conversation this morning with @tiffanysmiley9, a woman who has looked fear in the face, pushed through it and is now living out her calling. . . Tiffany has walked through some of the darkest places life can take you and has come out on the other side with a contagious joy and a passion to ignite a fire in women across the country! She is starting a movement to inspire women everywhere to bravely and fearlessly listen to that voice in our hearts and live out our unique purpose. She dreams of a world where we each embrace who we are, loving even the broken parts of ourselves, and ignore the self-doubt that tells us we're not good enough. . If you would like to attend one of her upcoming conferences, follow her and stay tuned for her tour dates! She will be bringing together women from all walks of life to share their stories and I feel so humbled to be one of the women she's asked to be a part of what she's doing. . (Side Note: Who else has accidentally showed up to meet a friend and realized you’re both wearing the same thing?! 😂 #twinning)

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I love this sign from @smallwoodhome .
As much as I would have loved to stay in the career I went to school for, I had to take a really hard look at my life and what it was becoming.
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Working on a morning TV show while also managing the website and social media pages for the TV station meant three things: .
1. I was extremely sleep deprived from having to get to work at 3:30am with my hair and makeup ready. 
2. My work never ended. There was always another article I could write for the website, something else to post on social media and breaking news never sleeps. 
3. I was becoming an extremely exhausted, stressed out mom and wife with zero patience or energy for my kids and husband. .
My energy level was so depleted, there wasn’t time to do anything well. The first thing I wanted to do when I got home from work was sleep...& if that didn’t happen, I was in a bad mood.
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While there were definitely some things I didn’t love about my job, there were so many things I did love! I got to work with some of the best people, some I know I will be lifelong friends with. .
Honestly, when I actually started to think about leaving my job, one of the biggest reasons it was so hard to walk away was because my job LOOKED successful.
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I know it was just a local tv station but in my little community, to the people who knew me, my job looked successful. It’s very tempting to stay in a job, even if it doesn’t feel right if that job can fool everyone you know into thinking you’ve reached “success”
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But here’s what I know: Worldly success means nothing if you can’t look yourself in the mirror at the end of the day & be proud of the life you are living.
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I think today sometimes there is so much pressure to climb the corporate ladder or get the prestigious title. We can get so caught up in investing in our career, we forget to invest in what’s most important... our kids. We allow our title and our job to define who we are instead of remembering how important it is to teach our kids who they are & how valuable they are to us.
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Deciding to stay home with my kids while starting a photography business & a passion project to tell stories of shame... (cont. in comments)

I love this sign from @smallwoodhome . As much as I would have loved to stay in the career I went to school for, I had to take a really hard look at my life and what it was becoming. . Working on a morning TV show while also managing the website and social media pages for the TV station meant three things: . 1. I was extremely sleep deprived from having to get to work at 3:30am with my hair and makeup ready. 2. My work never ended. There was always another article I could write for the website, something else to post on social media and breaking news never sleeps. 3. I was becoming an extremely exhausted, stressed out mom and wife with zero patience or energy for my kids and husband. . My energy level was so depleted, there wasn’t time to do anything well. The first thing I wanted to do when I got home from work was sleep...& if that didn’t happen, I was in a bad mood. . While there were definitely some things I didn’t love about my job, there were so many things I did love! I got to work with some of the best people, some I know I will be lifelong friends with. . Honestly, when I actually started to think about leaving my job, one of the biggest reasons it was so hard to walk away was because my job LOOKED successful. . I know it was just a local tv station but in my little community, to the people who knew me, my job looked successful. It’s very tempting to stay in a job, even if it doesn’t feel right if that job can fool everyone you know into thinking you’ve reached “success” . But here’s what I know: Worldly success means nothing if you can’t look yourself in the mirror at the end of the day & be proud of the life you are living. . I think today sometimes there is so much pressure to climb the corporate ladder or get the prestigious title. We can get so caught up in investing in our career, we forget to invest in what’s most important... our kids. We allow our title and our job to define who we are instead of remembering how important it is to teach our kids who they are & how valuable they are to us. . Deciding to stay home with my kids while starting a photography business & a passion project to tell stories of shame... (cont. in comments)

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I got to spend my day in this beautiful “peace” of paradise that is Green Bluff! .
I intentionally say “peace” of paradise because I can’t help but feel like all my worries go away when I get to just be in one of the most breathtaking areas of our little #SpokaneCommunity. .
I just love to take in the rolling hills, the blue skies, and the colors of the fall leaves. I also just have to say that if you haven’t witnessed a sunset from this area, you are missing out!
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Being in the country where internet service isn’t even an option in most places just reminds me to slow down and JUST... BE...
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It’s so important to take little moments to connect with your soul and to sit with yourself so you can remember who you truly are at your core without all the noise.
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#GiveLove #Happiness
#ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery  #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #findyourself

I got to spend my day in this beautiful “peace” of paradise that is Green Bluff! . I intentionally say “peace” of paradise because I can’t help but feel like all my worries go away when I get to just be in one of the most breathtaking areas of our little #SpokaneCommunity. . I just love to take in the rolling hills, the blue skies, and the colors of the fall leaves. I also just have to say that if you haven’t witnessed a sunset from this area, you are missing out! . Being in the country where internet service isn’t even an option in most places just reminds me to slow down and JUST... BE... . It’s so important to take little moments to connect with your soul and to sit with yourself so you can remember who you truly are at your core without all the noise. _______ #GiveLove #Happiness #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #findyourself

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I think I need to read this poem at the start of every day ❤️
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It reminds me that I only get to do life one time and I have no idea how many days I have left... but for the days I do have left, I can either decide to be intentional with my choices, feelings and life... or allow fear, self-doubt, my emotions and what other people think control me.
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I want to choose intentionality every single day.
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The Dash
by Linda Ellis .
I read of a man who stood to speak
At the funeral of a friend
He referred to the dates on her tombstone
From the beginning to the end
He noted that first came her date of her birth
And spoke the following date with tears,
But he said what mattered most of all
Was the dash between those years
For that dash represents all the time
That she spent alive on earth.
And now only those who loved her
Know what that little line is worth.
For it matters not how much we own;
The cars, the house, the cash,
What matters is how we live and love
And how we spend our dash.
So think about this long and hard.
Are there things you’d like to change?
For you never know how much time is left,
That can still be rearranged.
If we could just slow down enough
To consider what’s true and real
And always try to understand
The way other people feel.
And be less quick to anger,
And show appreciation more
And love the people in our lives
Like we’ve never loved before.
If we treat each other with respect,
And more often wear a smile
Remembering that this special dash
Might only last a little while.
So, when your eulogy is being read
With your life’s actions to rehash
Would you be proud of the things they say
About how you spent your dash?
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© by Linda Ellis, Copyright Inspire Kindness,
LLC 1996, www.thedashpoem.com
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#GiveLove #Happiness
#ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery  #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #findyourself

I think I need to read this poem at the start of every day ❤️ . It reminds me that I only get to do life one time and I have no idea how many days I have left... but for the days I do have left, I can either decide to be intentional with my choices, feelings and life... or allow fear, self-doubt, my emotions and what other people think control me. . I want to choose intentionality every single day. . The Dash by Linda Ellis . I read of a man who stood to speak At the funeral of a friend He referred to the dates on her tombstone From the beginning to the end He noted that first came her date of her birth And spoke the following date with tears, But he said what mattered most of all Was the dash between those years For that dash represents all the time That she spent alive on earth. And now only those who loved her Know what that little line is worth. For it matters not how much we own; The cars, the house, the cash, What matters is how we live and love And how we spend our dash. So think about this long and hard. Are there things you’d like to change? For you never know how much time is left, That can still be rearranged. If we could just slow down enough To consider what’s true and real And always try to understand The way other people feel. And be less quick to anger, And show appreciation more And love the people in our lives Like we’ve never loved before. If we treat each other with respect, And more often wear a smile Remembering that this special dash Might only last a little while. So, when your eulogy is being read With your life’s actions to rehash Would you be proud of the things they say About how you spent your dash? . © by Linda Ellis, Copyright Inspire Kindness, LLC 1996, www.thedashpoem.com _______ #GiveLove #Happiness #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #findyourself

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Do you struggle with feeling lonely or feel the relationships in your life should be better? .
I attended an event last night & was reminded just how important friendship & intimate connection is in our lives. .
How many times are hearing this statement today: “We are more connected than ever before thanks to technology, but our world is becoming lonelier than it’s ever been.” .
Personally, it feels like I’m hearing the feeling of loneliness expressed much more often than it used to be.
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The keynote speaker, John Ortberg, mentioned research studies that show good friends are better for good health than eating healthy is. The takeaway he joked about, is that from the evidence gathered, “you’re basically better off eating twinkies with good friends than eating broccoli alone.”
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Isn’t  it funny that we can be surrounded by people, even surrounded by people we would call friends, but still feel alone?
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The Psychology Department at the University of Chicago shares this definition for loneliness:

Do you struggle with feeling lonely or feel the relationships in your life should be better? . I attended an event last night & was reminded just how important friendship & intimate connection is in our lives. . How many times are hearing this statement today: “We are more connected than ever before thanks to technology, but our world is becoming lonelier than it’s ever been.” . Personally, it feels like I’m hearing the feeling of loneliness expressed much more often than it used to be. . The keynote speaker, John Ortberg, mentioned research studies that show good friends are better for good health than eating healthy is. The takeaway he joked about, is that from the evidence gathered, “you’re basically better off eating twinkies with good friends than eating broccoli alone.” . Isn’t it funny that we can be surrounded by people, even surrounded by people we would call friends, but still feel alone? . The Psychology Department at the University of Chicago shares this definition for loneliness: "the distress that results from discrepancies between ideal & perceived social relationships." . So basically, loneliness is about our expectations not being met for the relationships in our lives. If we are disappointed with our perception of the relationships we have, we feel lonely. . So this is the question I think we should ask: Are the expectations we are setting for our relationships realistic or are we starting to create unrealistic expectations based on the highlight reels of all the lives we follow on social media? Are we being present in the relationships we have or our we so caught up in dreaming about how they should be that we fail to pour into and appreciate the relationships we do have? . Before social media, it was impossible to see what everyone’s date nights and dinner parties looked like, what their vacations and weekends looked like. We only knew our experience. . Ortberg also said this, “more than our flesh & bones a person is a conscious constant flow of experience. To have intimacy in our lives we have to have shared experience.” . So if you’re feeling lonely, maybe it’s time for some shared experience with the people you care about most.

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Imagine a day where you can look your fear and shame in the eye and smile because you finally see them for what they are: a false sense of security. .
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We think we are keeping ourselves in a safe space by listening to fear and hiding our shameful secrets from the world.
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To have lived in that space for so long and to now be on the other side of that lie, I wish so badly I could snap my fingers and let everyone else experience the same hope and healing that is out there. It IS out there for you! You just have to be willing to admit you’re broken and be willing to work through the pain, which is a journey that looks different for everyone.
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You aren’t the only one who feels weird, broken, insufficient, unworthy and struggles with overwhelming self-doubt. We ALL do! Some of us are just better than others at pretending that we don’t.
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I’m not saying that I have cracked the code and suddenly have all the answers. I still have bad days! There are days I still doubt myself and my worthiness. There are days I still struggle to have a positive body image. There are days I flat out just feel sad and unsure. But ...by telling the world my biggest struggle and insecurity, I suddenly have found it so much easier to love myself and not care so much what people think about me. Now that everyone knows my ugly... my deepest and most painful secret, there’s suddenly not so much to be afraid of. .
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As @brenebrown says, “vulnerability is the core of shame and fear and our struggle for worthiness, but it appears that it’s also the birthplace of joy, of creativity, of belonging, of love.”
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And please always know I am hear to be a listening ear if you need one. When I first found a listening ear to hear my story, it changed my life.
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📸: @photographyfiftythree 
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#GiveLove #Happiness
#ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery  #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #findyourself

Imagine a day where you can look your fear and shame in the eye and smile because you finally see them for what they are: a false sense of security. . . We think we are keeping ourselves in a safe space by listening to fear and hiding our shameful secrets from the world. . . To have lived in that space for so long and to now be on the other side of that lie, I wish so badly I could snap my fingers and let everyone else experience the same hope and healing that is out there. It IS out there for you! You just have to be willing to admit you’re broken and be willing to work through the pain, which is a journey that looks different for everyone. . You aren’t the only one who feels weird, broken, insufficient, unworthy and struggles with overwhelming self-doubt. We ALL do! Some of us are just better than others at pretending that we don’t. . I’m not saying that I have cracked the code and suddenly have all the answers. I still have bad days! There are days I still doubt myself and my worthiness. There are days I still struggle to have a positive body image. There are days I flat out just feel sad and unsure. But ...by telling the world my biggest struggle and insecurity, I suddenly have found it so much easier to love myself and not care so much what people think about me. Now that everyone knows my ugly... my deepest and most painful secret, there’s suddenly not so much to be afraid of. . . As @brenebrown says, “vulnerability is the core of shame and fear and our struggle for worthiness, but it appears that it’s also the birthplace of joy, of creativity, of belonging, of love.” . And please always know I am hear to be a listening ear if you need one. When I first found a listening ear to hear my story, it changed my life. ——— 📸: @photographyfiftythree _______ #GiveLove #Happiness #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #findyourself

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One year ago, I stood on this same stage at a storytelling event called #PivotSpokane to share a story from my life on the word

One year ago, I stood on this same stage at a storytelling event called #PivotSpokane to share a story from my life on the word "Promise." . Despite being a person who doesn't get stage fright, as I stood in front of the crowd, I felt a terror I had never known before. I was about to openly admit & share my battle with bulimia for the first time ever. . My story of promise was a toxic promise I had made to myself to chase after perfection. My story was also a response to a promise I had been challenged by a couple weeks before: “Promise me that you will share your pain. Share your pain because if you don’t it will grow & become something nasty inside you.” . I made the promise to share my pain, so I got up on that little stage to make good on that promise, even though in that moment I wished to be anywhere else. . Last night, I returned to the same building, for the same event on the same stage, but this time, I was an audience member. I listened to 7 different people share stories from their lives that were raw, real, moving & even pee your pants funny at times. . As I listened, I reflected back to just one year ago, when I walked on that stage, full of uncertainty and anxiety… but now I sat there so humbled and full of gratitude for the opportunity I was given to share that ultimately changed my life in ways I don’t think I quite realize. . Dr. Raymond Reyes was one who shared a story from his life last night and he reminded us that F.E.A.R. is really just False Evidence Appearing Real. He also spoke this truth: "You cannot know courage without first knowing fear.” . I am so thankful I found the courage that night, as I stared fear in the face, to share what I once swore I would take to the grave, to admit my own brokenness, & to tell my story more openly & vulnerably than I ever had before. . One year ago, I found a courage within myself I didn’t know existed because I chose to face the biggest fear I’ve ever known. . Promise me that you will share your pain & more importantly, share your shame! Initially the fear will feel overpowering, but that fear is false & it’s a liar. When you bring your secrets into the light, they no longer control you.

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“I did not want to have a thing to do with eating disorders. I was in complete denial. I was 100 percent set on making sure that I never got caught.”
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Pride, fear and shame were all part of why I previously thought nobody would ever be able to help me overcome my problem.
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This is a little excerpt from a feature story in the @spokesmanreview. .
My most sincere thank you to Treva Lind for beautifully telling my story.
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If you’d like to read the whole article, the link is in my bio. 📸: Libby Kamrowski
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#ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #OvercomeAddiction #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #spokanecommunity

“I did not want to have a thing to do with eating disorders. I was in complete denial. I was 100 percent set on making sure that I never got caught.” . Pride, fear and shame were all part of why I previously thought nobody would ever be able to help me overcome my problem. _________________________________ This is a little excerpt from a feature story in the @spokesmanreview. . My most sincere thank you to Treva Lind for beautifully telling my story. . If you’d like to read the whole article, the link is in my bio. 📸: Libby Kamrowski ____________________________ #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #OvercomeAddiction #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #spokanecommunity

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“I’m selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.”
– Marilyn Monroe
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There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t thank God for a man who can handle me at my worst, forgives and forgets.
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#ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #OvercomeAddiction #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #SpokaneCommunity

“I’m selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.” – Marilyn Monroe . There’s not a day that goes by that I don’t thank God for a man who can handle me at my worst, forgives and forgets. ____________________________ #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #OvercomeAddiction #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #SpokaneCommunity

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These last two weeks have been some pretty special weeks for Annabelle & I.
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We participated in 2 different fashion shows for great causes. Last weekend was Beyond Pink which raises money for thermal imaging screenings which detect breast cancer SO much earlier than mammograms.
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Tonight we participated in a super fun show with funky outfits to raise money for St. Vincent de Paul which offers so much support to the homeless in our community.
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I got to watch Annabelle push through fear she has never known before. Last week I listened to her tell me back stage how scared she was and how she felt like she couldn’t breathe. I talked her through that fear & explained how that energy can be used to perform. I explained how her being out on the runway that night, wasn’t about her, it was about a cause much greater than both of us. I explained how mistakes will probably happen (and they did) but it doesn’t matter... you just keep going, realizing that giving up or getting upset looks way more silly than laughing it off & staying focused until the end. . 
I have never been so proud to see her get out there & rock it!
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She messed up & kept going in front of 600 people, smiling the whole time.
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When she finished, it was the coolest thing to see how proud she was of herself. She had pushed through fear & got a taste of how good it feels to do so!
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So when tonight came, she was confident & ready to rock it. She wasn’t scared, she was just excited! She knew our outfits were crazy silly & she didn’t care!
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She walked not just with me, but with women & men of ALL ages & ALL sizes. I love she got to be a part of two shows that celebrate ALL types of people. .
On the way home she asked me what the most exciting day in my life has been. I told her it was either the day I met her dad, the day I got married or the day I had her & Emmaus.
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She told me those were good answers... & then said her most exciting day so far was doing these two fashion shows.
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I can’t even count how many times Annabelle asked to drop out of these shows! Sometimes the best things we can do for our kids is push them out of their comfort zone and help them push past fear.

These last two weeks have been some pretty special weeks for Annabelle & I. . We participated in 2 different fashion shows for great causes. Last weekend was Beyond Pink which raises money for thermal imaging screenings which detect breast cancer SO much earlier than mammograms. . Tonight we participated in a super fun show with funky outfits to raise money for St. Vincent de Paul which offers so much support to the homeless in our community. . I got to watch Annabelle push through fear she has never known before. Last week I listened to her tell me back stage how scared she was and how she felt like she couldn’t breathe. I talked her through that fear & explained how that energy can be used to perform. I explained how her being out on the runway that night, wasn’t about her, it was about a cause much greater than both of us. I explained how mistakes will probably happen (and they did) but it doesn’t matter... you just keep going, realizing that giving up or getting upset looks way more silly than laughing it off & staying focused until the end. . I have never been so proud to see her get out there & rock it! . She messed up & kept going in front of 600 people, smiling the whole time. . When she finished, it was the coolest thing to see how proud she was of herself. She had pushed through fear & got a taste of how good it feels to do so! . So when tonight came, she was confident & ready to rock it. She wasn’t scared, she was just excited! She knew our outfits were crazy silly & she didn’t care! . She walked not just with me, but with women & men of ALL ages & ALL sizes. I love she got to be a part of two shows that celebrate ALL types of people. . On the way home she asked me what the most exciting day in my life has been. I told her it was either the day I met her dad, the day I got married or the day I had her & Emmaus. . She told me those were good answers... & then said her most exciting day so far was doing these two fashion shows. . I can’t even count how many times Annabelle asked to drop out of these shows! Sometimes the best things we can do for our kids is push them out of their comfort zone and help them push past fear.

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How does this keep happening to me? 🤪😂
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Subconsciously I must love nursery rhymes!
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How does this keep happening to me? 🤪😂 . Subconsciously I must love nursery rhymes! _________________________ #momlife #toddlermom #momof2 #singalong #singalongsongs #nurseryrhymes #momproblems #laugh #funnymoments #toddlerlife #joysofmotherhood #noshame #shameuncovered #cartunes #whatsyourjam #lovemusic

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Can you even imagine losing two brothers to suicide, just months apart?
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Join me this Friday early in the morning as I sit down for a Facebook live with a woman who is on a mission end suicide in our community. .
Sabrina Votava has an incredible story and has found an incredible way to turn her pain into purpose. Set an alarm for 6:30am... we will be going live on my Facebook page,

Can you even imagine losing two brothers to suicide, just months apart? . Join me this Friday early in the morning as I sit down for a Facebook live with a woman who is on a mission end suicide in our community. . Sabrina Votava has an incredible story and has found an incredible way to turn her pain into purpose. Set an alarm for 6:30am... we will be going live on my Facebook page, "Uncovered with Nichole Mischke." . There is a lot of shame that surrounds suicide both for those with suicidal thoughts and for those who have lost a loved one to suicide. Keeping a conversation going and raising awareness about suicide is one of the best ways to eliminate the shame that surrounds it. . Sabrina is an educator on suicide prevention and intervention who has worked with numerous individuals and organizations around the Pacific Northwest to help them recognize the signs of suicide and to give them the tools and resources to keep a person in crisis safe.  Having worked in this field for over a decade, Sabrina’s passion is evident in her trainings. . Her personal experiences coupled with years of research give her the ability to connect with a wide variety of audiences from youth to adults, nonexperts to professionals.  Sabrina has been featured in various media outlets throughout Washington state over the years and has most recently started a non-profit organization to serve our community, @failsafeforlife. . FailSafe for Life knows that strength not only lies in our words, but in our actions. Their mission is to end suicide in Spokane and they will not quit until their job is complete. Founded in 2016, FailSafe for Life inspires action through education, instilling hope, and connecting communities. They are driven by a firm belief in the power of understanding, and the knowledge that the pain that surrounds suicide can be treated. . Sabrina is certified as a QPR Master Trainer, ASIST trainer, Networks for Life trainer and is a member of the Leadership Team of the Prevent Suicide Spokane Coalition. . Sabrina holds a B.S. in Public Health from the University of Washington and is currently pursuing her M.A. in Social and Behavioral Health from Whitworth University.

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"Once you are REAL you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand." . We all want to look good and feel great in the skin we're in... that's part of being human. But it's a risky place to be in when your entire world revolves around what you look like... when your self-worth comes from your reflection in the mirror. . I say it's risky because you are literally risking missing out on living the life you were born to live! . I think many of us get caught up in chasing after physical perfection, ultimately because we are scared of not being loved. We are scared that if we don't look perfect, we won't find love or be worthy of it. So we strive to be as beautiful as possible, thinking that's what will make us worthy of love and acceptance. . If the velveteen rabbit allowed his fear of becoming worn and old to be the driving force behind his choices, think of all the incredible experiences and memories he would have missed out on. He never would have become real and connected with who he really is... which is ultimately the way to find TRUE LOVE. Connecting with your soul and stepping out into the world unashamed of who you are... that is the path to finding love for yourself and love from another. . We can all sit on a shelf and look nice. It's safe on the shelf and it's easy to sit and look pretty. But sitting on a shelf, while you may fool the world with how perfect you look, it will only leave you feeling empty inside and in the end, we all become old and shelves become weak, eventually falling to the floor. . . . (This wall hanging can be found at @smallwoodhome) ____________________________ #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #OvercomeAddiction #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #SpokaneCommunity

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I just finished up an interview with the @spokesmanreview on my battle with an eating disorder and what I'm trying to do with my new platform. You can look for the article in the paper this weekend.
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My biggest points I hope to convey:
1. Eating disorders do not have a face. They affect every age, race, gender & sexual orientation. Over the last few months since I started down this journey of opening up about my struggle & the shame I experienced,  I have heard from mothers with daughters AND sons battling eating disorders... some as young as 9 & 10.  I have heard from grown women & men battling eating disorders & body dysmorphia. Most people with eating disorders, don't look like they have an eating disorder. Many are able to live a seemingly normal life, just like I was, while secretly battling behind closed doors.
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2. If you are secretly struggling with an eating disorder or any other shameful behavior,  you really are not as alone as you think you are. You are not crazy & there is nothing wrong with you. You just need a little help like we all do sometimes & there is nothing shameful about that. Shame wants to isolate you & make you think you're the only one who can't get your life together... but please realize that shame is a liar. Opening up & being vulnerable with your struggle takes a lot of courage & is terrifying at first, but the reward on the other side of truth is the best gift you will ever receive.
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3. I hope to use this platform to share many stories of shame for anyone who wants to share. Stories can be shared openly, or anonymously, in writing, video interview, photos, or whatever way you'd like to tell it. Just reach out to me if you have a story you would like to share.
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4. I have been contacted by many  who have loved ones struggling with eating disorders who are desperate to get their loved ones to stop. While I am more than willing to offer a listening ear for anyone battling an eating disorder... ultimately the only way for a person to find healing from an eating disorder is for them to realize they want healing. They have to want it for themselves. So please, if you have a loved one battling an eating disorder... (cont. in comments)

I just finished up an interview with the @spokesmanreview on my battle with an eating disorder and what I'm trying to do with my new platform. You can look for the article in the paper this weekend. . My biggest points I hope to convey: 1. Eating disorders do not have a face. They affect every age, race, gender & sexual orientation. Over the last few months since I started down this journey of opening up about my struggle & the shame I experienced, I have heard from mothers with daughters AND sons battling eating disorders... some as young as 9 & 10. I have heard from grown women & men battling eating disorders & body dysmorphia. Most people with eating disorders, don't look like they have an eating disorder. Many are able to live a seemingly normal life, just like I was, while secretly battling behind closed doors. . 2. If you are secretly struggling with an eating disorder or any other shameful behavior, you really are not as alone as you think you are. You are not crazy & there is nothing wrong with you. You just need a little help like we all do sometimes & there is nothing shameful about that. Shame wants to isolate you & make you think you're the only one who can't get your life together... but please realize that shame is a liar. Opening up & being vulnerable with your struggle takes a lot of courage & is terrifying at first, but the reward on the other side of truth is the best gift you will ever receive. . 3. I hope to use this platform to share many stories of shame for anyone who wants to share. Stories can be shared openly, or anonymously, in writing, video interview, photos, or whatever way you'd like to tell it. Just reach out to me if you have a story you would like to share. . 4. I have been contacted by many who have loved ones struggling with eating disorders who are desperate to get their loved ones to stop. While I am more than willing to offer a listening ear for anyone battling an eating disorder... ultimately the only way for a person to find healing from an eating disorder is for them to realize they want healing. They have to want it for themselves. So please, if you have a loved one battling an eating disorder... (cont. in comments)

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Shame can consume us in many areas of our life and one of those areas is suicide.
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Next Friday, October 12th, I will be hosting a Facebook live with a woman who lost two brothers to suicide. .
For anyone who has had thoughts of suicide, you are not alone. For anyone who has had to grieve the loss of a loved one to suicide, you are not alone.
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An incredible organization and nonprofit,  @failsafeforlife has been started to raise awareness and prevent suicide in our community and beyond. One is too many.
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#ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #OvercomeAddiction #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #SpokaneCommunity
#oneistoomany #suicideprevention

Shame can consume us in many areas of our life and one of those areas is suicide. . Next Friday, October 12th, I will be hosting a Facebook live with a woman who lost two brothers to suicide. . For anyone who has had thoughts of suicide, you are not alone. For anyone who has had to grieve the loss of a loved one to suicide, you are not alone. . An incredible organization and nonprofit, @failsafeforlife has been started to raise awareness and prevent suicide in our community and beyond. One is too many. ____________________________ #GiveLove #Happiness #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #OvercomeAddiction #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #SpokaneCommunity #oneistoomany #suicideprevention

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When days get stressful and overwhelming it helps for me to check myself and remember just how many blessings I have been given.
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The biggest blessing I am thankful for is good health! .
Overcoming my eating disorder started with really having an appreciation for a healthy body and understanding that food is not my enemy, but an amazing way to nourish my body and the ONLY way to stay healthy and strong.
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In 2011, I watched my dad shrivel away from cancer right before my eyes. All I could think about at the time was

When days get stressful and overwhelming it helps for me to check myself and remember just how many blessings I have been given. . The biggest blessing I am thankful for is good health! . Overcoming my eating disorder started with really having an appreciation for a healthy body and understanding that food is not my enemy, but an amazing way to nourish my body and the ONLY way to stay healthy and strong. . In 2011, I watched my dad shrivel away from cancer right before my eyes. All I could think about at the time was "is there something he could have done differently to avoid this terrible disease?!" . I know that cancer doesn't discriminate and it never makes sense when a loved one's life is taken too soon, but watching my dad in his final days, unable to walk, eat, use the bathroom or even speak because he was so weak was the biggest wake up call I ever received as I battled my eating disorder in secret. . This is not to say that I was instantly healed of my eating disorder & I fear sometimes that in saying things like, "remember how blessed you are!" I am only seeming to simplifying how truly hard it is to overcome an eating disorder or any other form of addiction. IT IS NOT EASY! AT TIMES IT FEELS IMPOSSIBLE! . But holding my dad's hand as he breathed his last breath was the start of a very long road to recovery for me. It's like I truly woke up & realized that my time on earth is limited. I don't have forever. As morbid as it sounds, a day is coming when I will be the one in the casket. . I looked death in the face & realized I wanted to TRULY live! I didn't want my existence and purpose to be consumed with how I looked in a bikini. I was desperate to figure out how to stop abusing my body & start appreciating how I could nourish it. . But again, this is no simple task. Recovery looks different for everyone & many battle their eating disorders for a life time. I am so thankful that I truly feel set free from mine. People ask me if I'm ever afraid I will relapse & (cont in comments) __________________ 📷: Professional photo and photo of me as I sit here posing this.

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These are the words that finally made me share my struggle with an eating disorder. .
For so long all I was focused on was trying to hide my secret obsession with food and my unhealthy body image.
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I thought I was protecting myself by not bringing my shame into the light, but as an old friend reminded me in a message recently,  secrets keep you sick and when shame is brought into light it no longer has power over you.
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#GiveLove #Joy #Happiness
#ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #OvercomeAddiction #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #SpokaneCommunity

These are the words that finally made me share my struggle with an eating disorder. . For so long all I was focused on was trying to hide my secret obsession with food and my unhealthy body image. . I thought I was protecting myself by not bringing my shame into the light, but as an old friend reminded me in a message recently, secrets keep you sick and when shame is brought into light it no longer has power over you. ____________________________ #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #OvercomeAddiction #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #SpokaneCommunity

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"Take the risk" . These words were written on the lid of a cup of coffee from a little stand in N. Idaho. . I know these words will mean something different to every person who reads them, but right now in my life, these words remind me to continue taking the risk to be vulnerable and authentic. . . I'm working to dive deeper into my past and my own understanding of my experiences so I can continue to learn and share more about my struggles, insecurities, eating disorder & other areas of shame in my life. . . I'm working to admit my insecurities. . . I'm working to recognize jealousy in my heart as soon as possible so I can dismiss it as soon as possible. . . I'm working to be confident in myself & what I have to offer. . . I'm working to love every inch of myself, scars, stretch marks, & all. . . I'm working to never again let my worth be defined by the number on a scale or the size of my jeans. . . I'm working to say what I mean & mean what I say. . . I'm working to be patient with my kids. . . I'm working to stop using my words as a sword when I'm mad at my husband. . . I'm working to own up to my mistakes & to be the first to say "I'm sorry" when I've done something wrong. . . I'm working to forgive & forget & to not hold grudges. . . That's what "take the risk" means to me right now. I have experienced the freedom that comes from admitting I am only human and from bringing my shame & struggles into the light! It makes me only want to take the risk of being vulnerable over & over, again & again! . . What do these words mean to you? Do they encourage to make a life change? To bring a secret into the light? To tell someone you love them? . . If your heart is telling you to do something, #TakeTheRisk ____________________________ #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #OvercomeAddiction #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #SpokaneCommunity

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Saw this today on @drcolleenreichmann 's page and had to repost!
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Comments about what I was or wasn't eating is what eventually led me to make myself throw up for the first time. .
In high school, I was working with a modeling agency which made me feel extreme pressure to be a certain size. So... I went on the

Saw this today on @drcolleenreichmann 's page and had to repost! . Comments about what I was or wasn't eating is what eventually led me to make myself throw up for the first time. . In high school, I was working with a modeling agency which made me feel extreme pressure to be a certain size. So... I went on the "healthiest" diet I could think of and lost about 15 pounds over the course of 6 months or so. I was elated about this, but then... comments started coming from friends,  classmates and moms of my friends about what I was or wasn't eating.  I remember so badly just wanting the comments to stop. I just wanted people to treat me like what I was eating was normal. So... at a party at my parent's house one night, I wasn't eating any of the cookies and baked goodies, and a mother made a comment: "of course you've lost weight! You haven't eaten a single thing off this table!" . I felt like I was being watched. Like everyone was observing and taking note on what I chose to put in my mouth (this was actually a feeling I had dealt with since I was a young girl. I was a little chubby growing up and I remember classmates commenting on the foods I ate as the "reason I was fat.") . So... to prove that I was "normal" I picked up a plate and ate foods I hadn't allowed myself to eat in months.  That's where the panic attack set in and all the guilt about what I had just consumed.  I went to the upstairs bathroom and painfully made myself puke, swearing it was the first and the last time I would ever do that and that I was just going to stick to my "healthy diet" from then on. Well... that didn't happen. . That moment started the beginning of the 10 darkest years of my life in a battle with bulimia & then later bulimia & binge eating. I know now that the restrictions I had made myself stick to in my "healthy diet" were actually also a huge reason why I experienced unbelievable guilt when I ate what I had deemed as "bad food" but I also think that had I not been so aware of all the comments I was told my whole life about what I was or wasn't eating, maybe my path would have been different? Who knows. . 3rd grade is the first time I remember a comment (cont in comments)

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We've been taught since the age we could walk to be kind to others... but what about being kind to ourselves?
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In comparison, for most people, it's WAY easier to be kind to others than it is to be kind to ourselves.
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Would you ever say the things you say to yourself to your child or friend? Probably not! .
And why wouldn't you? Bcause you recognize that the words you speak to your loved ones can either tear them down or build them up! ...And also because you recognize that once insulting or hurtful words are spoken, it's almost impossible to forget them! .
Stop tearing yourself down! Imagine who you would be if you only lifted yourself up?!
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Negative self-talk will destroy you and prevent you from achieving all that you are capable of!
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So let me just remind you to be kind to yourself.
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To the woman who just had a baby...
To the woman whose dress size has increased since she got married...
To the woman who feels fat...
To the woman who has been called

We've been taught since the age we could walk to be kind to others... but what about being kind to ourselves? . In comparison, for most people, it's WAY easier to be kind to others than it is to be kind to ourselves. . Would you ever say the things you say to yourself to your child or friend? Probably not! . And why wouldn't you? Bcause you recognize that the words you speak to your loved ones can either tear them down or build them up! ...And also because you recognize that once insulting or hurtful words are spoken, it's almost impossible to forget them! . Stop tearing yourself down! Imagine who you would be if you only lifted yourself up?! . Negative self-talk will destroy you and prevent you from achieving all that you are capable of! . So let me just remind you to be kind to yourself. . To the woman who just had a baby... To the woman whose dress size has increased since she got married... To the woman who feels fat... To the woman who has been called "fat..." To the woman who feels overwhelmed my chores, work, school, being a mom, being a wife and more... To the woman who is always running late... To the woman whose kids haven't bathed in a week... To the woman who herself hasn't bathed in a week... To the woman who can't remember the last time she worked out... To the woman who feels like she has to wear makeup... To the woman who feels unworthy of wearing makeup... To the woman who struggles with an addiction, eating disorder, anxiety or depression... To the woman who feels invisible to her husband... To the woman who feels alone... To the woman whose heart keeps getting broke... BE KIND TO YOURSELF! . And guys this goes for you too! _____________ 📷: Professional photo and photo of me as I post this from a coffee shop with my boy

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Are you brave enough to share the most vulnerable parts of yourself? .
Are you brave enough to admit that you struggle with jealousy and insecurities? .
Are you brave enough to love and accept yourself for the incredible and unique individual you are? .
Are you brave enough to set your pride aside for the sake of bettering a relationship with your child, friend, family member or spouse? .
Are you brave enough to use your God given gifts and talents to go after the purpose you feel in your soul you were put on this earth to do? .
Most people will put on their best face and hide behind a mask day-after-day because they are too afraid to admit that they struggle, that they have been hurt, that they have an addiction, or that they are imperfect.
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Most people are too prideful, too ashamed and too embarrassed to admit their insecurities and recognize the jealousy in their life that are only holding them back from becoming the best version of themselves.
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Most people are too afraid to love themselves just as they are, partly because it's easier to focus on everything that's wrong with you and also because it means they would have to stop living scared and stop making excuses for themseleves.
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Most people are too prideful to admit when they are wrong or say

Are you brave enough to share the most vulnerable parts of yourself? . Are you brave enough to admit that you struggle with jealousy and insecurities? . Are you brave enough to love and accept yourself for the incredible and unique individual you are? . Are you brave enough to set your pride aside for the sake of bettering a relationship with your child, friend, family member or spouse? . Are you brave enough to use your God given gifts and talents to go after the purpose you feel in your soul you were put on this earth to do? . Most people will put on their best face and hide behind a mask day-after-day because they are too afraid to admit that they struggle, that they have been hurt, that they have an addiction, or that they are imperfect. . . Most people are too prideful, too ashamed and too embarrassed to admit their insecurities and recognize the jealousy in their life that are only holding them back from becoming the best version of themselves. . Most people are too afraid to love themselves just as they are, partly because it's easier to focus on everything that's wrong with you and also because it means they would have to stop living scared and stop making excuses for themseleves. . Most people are too prideful to admit when they are wrong or say "I'm sorry" first because it feels better to wait for someone else to come to us first to mend the relationship. . . Most people are too scared to use their gifts and talents and declare what they want for their life because they are too afraid to fail. . Don't live how most people live. Be brave. . I have struggled in all these areas but am now using international effort every day to be brave. . 📷: Professional photo & photo of me as I am today. ____________________________ #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #OvercomeAddiction #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #SpokaneCommunity

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"I'm in love with the cities I've never been to and the people I've never met." - Melody Truong . The possibilities for your life are endless! Realize that! . Stop looking in the mirror to examine all your flaws and the reasons you're not worthy and start looking out the window at just how wonderful this life can be. . Yes, I know you've been hurt, but there's goodness for you now and there are people who need to see your strength so they can be inspired by you. . Yes, I know you're scared but fear is a liar just trying to steal your breath and suffocate you. . Yes, I know you're tired but you will find life, energy and joy when you dive into your purpose. ____________________________ #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #OvercomeAddiction #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #Spokane #SpokaneCommunity #MomFirst

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Shame told me to:
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.*Stay quiet
.*Hide my flaws from others
.*Avoid the truth
.*Mask who I was
.*Exhaust myself into emptiness
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But when I finally looked my shame in the face and called it what it was, it no longer had control over me. .
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Now my shame tells me to: .
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.*Shout it out!
.*Help others release their shame
.*Accept my truth and ALL of me
.*Magnify my purpose
.*Empty myself of lies I once believed to be filled in truth

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Shame told me to: . .*Stay quiet .*Hide my flaws from others .*Avoid the truth .*Mask who I was .*Exhaust myself into emptiness . . But when I finally looked my shame in the face and called it what it was, it no longer had control over me. . . Now my shame tells me to: . . .*Shout it out! .*Help others release their shame .*Accept my truth and ALL of me .*Magnify my purpose .*Empty myself of lies I once believed to be filled in truth ____________________________ #GiveLove #Happiness #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #OvercomeAddiction #AddictionRecovery #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #Spokane #SpokaneCommunity #MomFirst #CommunityOverCompetition #BossMom

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Does anyone else have moments where they freak out on their kids on a totally different level?
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While I hate to admit this, this can really be a struggle for me sometimes. I know I would never physically hurt my kids... but I fear sometimes that screaming & yelling at them can be just as harmful & perhaps even more harmful.
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It's not like this happens often, but when it does, it's like there's a beast inside me I totally let out of the cage. .
It happened this weekend when I ran over my daughter's helmet right after I asked her to put it away. She was outside on her skateboard but we had to leave, so I told her to put her skateboard & helmet away & get in the car. To her, putting her helmet away meant throwing it in the grass as she climbed in the car. Our driveway & front yard is kind of slanted, so she was totally oblivious that this not only was NOT putting her helmet away, it also allowed her helmet to roll into the driveway, right underneath the tire of my car.
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Does anyone else have moments where they freak out on their kids on a totally different level? . While I hate to admit this, this can really be a struggle for me sometimes. I know I would never physically hurt my kids... but I fear sometimes that screaming & yelling at them can be just as harmful & perhaps even more harmful. . It's not like this happens often, but when it does, it's like there's a beast inside me I totally let out of the cage. . It happened this weekend when I ran over my daughter's helmet right after I asked her to put it away. She was outside on her skateboard but we had to leave, so I told her to put her skateboard & helmet away & get in the car. To her, putting her helmet away meant throwing it in the grass as she climbed in the car. Our driveway & front yard is kind of slanted, so she was totally oblivious that this not only was NOT putting her helmet away, it also allowed her helmet to roll into the driveway, right underneath the tire of my car. . "CRUNCH!" I totally crushed the helmet as I backed out & then proceeded to just lose it on her. . "You don't take care of any of your things! You're completely ungrateful! Don't you know all the stuff we give you actually costs us money?!" It wasn't just the words, it was the way I said them... with complete disgust for her. I went on & on until she had tears running down her face. Eventually I calmed down to the point of being rational & apologized for how I reacted. I don't ever want my daughter to think that she should allow ANYONE to speak to her the way I did. . I share this for a few reasons... & one of those reasons is definitely NOT because I'm proud of how I responded. . 1. Being a mom is hard & no one is perfect at it. We all have days we wish we could just do over. 2. Apologizing & asking for forgiveness when we have wronged our kids is extremely important. We need to show our kids what it looks like to set our pride aside when we are in the wrong. 3. (The biggest point I want to make today) I have really been reflecting on what ugly parts of my past I'm allowing to show up in me today. Regret, shame, bitterness... those are all things I've dealt with. But to (cont. in comments)

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Just returned from a weekend of soccer games and country living with cousins... my heart is full!
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There's something about being with horses, I always seem to experience a different level of compassion when I'm with them. Everytime I would stop petting them and turn away to go inside, one would stomp the ground, stretch their neck as far over the fence as they could and make a funny little noise as if to say,

Just returned from a weekend of soccer games and country living with cousins... my heart is full! . There's something about being with horses, I always seem to experience a different level of compassion when I'm with them. Everytime I would stop petting them and turn away to go inside, one would stomp the ground, stretch their neck as far over the fence as they could and make a funny little noise as if to say, "don't leave yet, we are enjoying your presence." . So I would turn back and keep petting them. Our time is precious, that's for sure, but today was such a simple reminder how much our time can mean to the ones we choose to spend it with. Today I gave my time to a horse... but it was just what I needed to remember to give more of my time to my kids and those I know might really NEED some of my time. . Giving our time to someone shows them (in the words of Oprah) "I hear you, I see you and what you say matters to me." ____________________________ #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #MomFirst #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #Overcome #SelfLoveAdvocate #EndlessPossibilities #QualityTimeSpent #GiveYourTime #TimeSpent

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When I was a young girl, sure I got teased every once in a while... but more painful than the few hurtful words spoken to me, was watching my sister be bullied relentlessly. .
I wasn't always nearby to stand up for her but I shared a bedroom with her... so I was always there to see her hurt.
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All she ever wanted was a true friend.
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In watching my sister be tormented for years, I remember clearly making a mental note one day that all any of us want... in fact, it's the most basic and universal human desire... is to be loved and accepted for who we are and to be understood.
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That's all we want. The coworker you can't stand... that's what they want. Your spouse you're thinking about leaving... that's what they want. Your child who drives you crazy at times... that's what they want. The bully in your child's class... that's what they want. Your neighbor, your teacher, your mother, your father, your sister, your brother... we all just long for connection and understanding and to know that at least one other person has our back.
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This is why sharing our own stories and hearing stories from others is so important. .
A person's story is perhaps their most powerful asset. You can see someone, be utterly annoyed by them, assume you have nothing in common... but then you hear their story and suddenly you'll have tears in your eyes.
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This is why I fell in love with sharing people's stories & I really am going to work on sharing more people's stories, particularly stories of shame
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No matter how different we all may seem, we are really more alike than we realize. .
Maybe if we can all remember this, we can also remember to find grace for people when we don't quite understand them... & then to ask questions to learn their story so we CAN understand them a little more.
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#ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #Overcome #SelfLoveAdvocate

When I was a young girl, sure I got teased every once in a while... but more painful than the few hurtful words spoken to me, was watching my sister be bullied relentlessly. . I wasn't always nearby to stand up for her but I shared a bedroom with her... so I was always there to see her hurt. . All she ever wanted was a true friend. . In watching my sister be tormented for years, I remember clearly making a mental note one day that all any of us want... in fact, it's the most basic and universal human desire... is to be loved and accepted for who we are and to be understood. . That's all we want. The coworker you can't stand... that's what they want. Your spouse you're thinking about leaving... that's what they want. Your child who drives you crazy at times... that's what they want. The bully in your child's class... that's what they want. Your neighbor, your teacher, your mother, your father, your sister, your brother... we all just long for connection and understanding and to know that at least one other person has our back. . This is why sharing our own stories and hearing stories from others is so important. . A person's story is perhaps their most powerful asset. You can see someone, be utterly annoyed by them, assume you have nothing in common... but then you hear their story and suddenly you'll have tears in your eyes. . This is why I fell in love with sharing people's stories & I really am going to work on sharing more people's stories, particularly stories of shame . No matter how different we all may seem, we are really more alike than we realize. . Maybe if we can all remember this, we can also remember to find grace for people when we don't quite understand them... & then to ask questions to learn their story so we CAN understand them a little more. ____________________________ #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #EndlessPossibilities #MomFirst #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #Overcome #SelfLoveAdvocate

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"🎵I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance Never settle for the path of least resistance Livin' might mean takin' chances, but they're worth takin' Lovin' might be a mistake, but it's worth makin' Don't let some Hellbent heart leave you bitter When you come close to sellin' out, reconsider Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance... I hope you dance I hope you dance 🎵" ________________________________ How can anyone read these words or hear this song and not be inspired? . Life isn't always easy and it certainly isn't fair. We can't always control what happens to us but we can control how we respond and how many times we pick ourselves back up and keep moving forward. . And life really is just a dance. . Dancing might make you feel a bit scared at first. It's always more comfortable to stand off to the side and watch others dance. It takes courage and confidence to put yourself out there and show the world what your dance looks like. It might make you feel self-conscious because everyone is watching. It might make you feel silly because your dance looks a little different than the people dancing around you. But your dance is YOUR dance to have, it's your dance to embrace and to perform! Don't waste your time on the dance floor just because it feels a little too awkward to even place your feet there! One day, your time on the dance floor will be over... and another dancer will get to take your place. Even if you trip, or fall, or stumble, get back up, laugh it off, brush off the dust and keep going! Eventually, you will find the rhythm that works for you. _________________________________ #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #EndlessPossibilities #MomFirst #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #Overcome #SelfLoveAdvocate

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You know what's fun? It's fun to get all dressed up and get pretty photos taken of yourself!
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I think that's one of the reasons I love being a photographer! I LOVE getting to give someone a picture of themselves looking absolutely stunning! I love hearing their reactions and seeing the joy on their face when they realize that the beautiful person staring back at them... is them! (You can follow my photography at @NicholeMischkePhotography)
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So... I recently got to have some fun with a little photoshoot... and while I'm excited to have some great pictures of myself to share on social media as I continue to share parts of my story with an ED and lessons I've learned, I refuse to only post perfect photos of myself... because that's not real life and it's definitely not my life. .
So starting today, whenever I share a professional photo of myself, I will also be sharing a photo of me as I am when I post it!
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I do this just to remind everyone out there that it's important to not get so caught up in perfection. We've all either been the person or been around the person who has refused to take a picture of themselves or let a picture be posted of themselves because it wasn't quite perfect enough.
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Now I'm not saying that we all need to go take ugly pictures of ourselves and our friends and post them on the internet! I'm just saying that some people really struggle to show the imperfect parts of themselves and their lives (I've been that person in the past). I think we can all take some baby steps to be more okay with imperfection.
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#ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #Overcome #SelfLoveAdvocate

You know what's fun? It's fun to get all dressed up and get pretty photos taken of yourself! . I think that's one of the reasons I love being a photographer! I LOVE getting to give someone a picture of themselves looking absolutely stunning! I love hearing their reactions and seeing the joy on their face when they realize that the beautiful person staring back at them... is them! (You can follow my photography at @NicholeMischkePhotography) . So... I recently got to have some fun with a little photoshoot... and while I'm excited to have some great pictures of myself to share on social media as I continue to share parts of my story with an ED and lessons I've learned, I refuse to only post perfect photos of myself... because that's not real life and it's definitely not my life. . So starting today, whenever I share a professional photo of myself, I will also be sharing a photo of me as I am when I post it! . I do this just to remind everyone out there that it's important to not get so caught up in perfection. We've all either been the person or been around the person who has refused to take a picture of themselves or let a picture be posted of themselves because it wasn't quite perfect enough. . Now I'm not saying that we all need to go take ugly pictures of ourselves and our friends and post them on the internet! I'm just saying that some people really struggle to show the imperfect parts of themselves and their lives (I've been that person in the past). I think we can all take some baby steps to be more okay with imperfection. _________________________________ #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #EndlessPossibilities #MomFirst #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #Overcome #SelfLoveAdvocate

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RAISING KIDS TO HAVE A HEALTHY RELATIONSHIP W/ FOOD - GIVE EM THE COOKIE!
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This is something I learned from @mccalldempsey.
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Strive to raise your kids to have a healthy relationship w/ food! One of the ways to do this is to stop labeling food as

RAISING KIDS TO HAVE A HEALTHY RELATIONSHIP W/ FOOD - GIVE EM THE COOKIE! . This is something I learned from @mccalldempsey. . Strive to raise your kids to have a healthy relationship w/ food! One of the ways to do this is to stop labeling food as "good" or "bad." . How many times do we say, "sugar is bad!" & "veggies are good!" . By constantly grouping food into categories of good & bad, it becomes easy to then internalize that & actually feel like a good or bad person based on what we eat! This can lead to feelings of shame & guilt when we eat certain foods. It can lead to feeling like we have to completely restrict a certain food group from our diet. These ideas only build a foundation for disordered eating patterns & eating disorders. . Understand that binge eating is a side effect of restriction! So when we deprive ourselves of all things sugar because "sugar is bad," or all carbs because "carbs are bad," when we finally "mess up" & give into our cravings we are more likely to binge on that forbidden food because of the shame & guilt associated with eating it. We feel like we've "fallen off the wagon" so we might as well eat the whole batch of brownies or the whole pizza etc... . So here's the tidbit McCall Dempsey shared w/ me when I interviewed her a couple weeks ago (you can watch it on my FB page). When you serve your kids lunch, put the cookie or treat that's available on their plate w/ everything else & just let them eat their lunch however comes natural. Some kids will eat the cookie first, some will save it for last... but the point is, we need to teach them that food is food! We dont get rewarded for eating veggies by getting sugar & we dont have to eat a perfectly healthy diet to be deserving of ice cream! . Everything in moderation! As long as you are teaching your kids how to make meals from whole, real food, they will see what a healthy balanced diet looks like. . So eat a cookie if you feel like it and enjoy it! Stop feeling guilty if you drink a milkshake! This change of thinking has literally allowed me to eat more in moderation than ever before! My cravings are gone! I eat when I'm hungry, sometimes still when I'm bored 😂...(comments)

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“The most terrifying thing is to accept oneself completely.” ―Carl Jung
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This quote rings so true in my soul! I used to be in a place where I felt like it was easier facing death as a consequence to my eating disorder than admitting I had a problem and seeking help.
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I was terrified to show the world how imperfect I really was. I didn't want to accept it for myself and I didn't want anyone to know.
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But please, I literally beg anyone struggling with shame... open up and share your shame! The truth will set you free! It really will! And healing IS possible!

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#ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #Overcome #SelfLoveAdvocate

“The most terrifying thing is to accept oneself completely.” ―Carl Jung ____________________________ This quote rings so true in my soul! I used to be in a place where I felt like it was easier facing death as a consequence to my eating disorder than admitting I had a problem and seeking help. . I was terrified to show the world how imperfect I really was. I didn't want to accept it for myself and I didn't want anyone to know. . But please, I literally beg anyone struggling with shame... open up and share your shame! The truth will set you free! It really will! And healing IS possible! _________________________________ #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #EndlessPossibilities #MomFirst #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #Overcome #SelfLoveAdvocate

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And just like that... Summer is over and it's back to school!
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It's a little surreal today to watch Annabelle head off to 3rd grade because for me, that was my first year going to an actual school instead of being homeschooled. I can look back and see how fast it all went from there!
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Middle school came fast... high school came even faster! And here I am now... 30-years-old with 2 kids!
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This is also the first year I got to be home with her on the first day of school instead of at work. I got to do her hair, pack her lunch and help her get all ready for the big day!
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Quitting my job was one of the scariest decisions I've ever made! Even though I had felt in my heart it's what I needed to do, it took more than a year to actually have the courage to decide to listen to that voice and do it!
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And I've never felt more than right now that I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be! I am able to be home with my kids, while focusing on spreading awareness about eating disorders,  body image issues, self love and the importance of sharing your shame so it doesn't hold you back!
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I encourage EVERYONE... if your heart is telling you to do something,  even if financially it doesn't seem like there's a way to make it happen! I promise, there is a way! When you follow your heart, doors swing open because you are doing what you were made to do! Have faith and keep searching! You get one life to live! One life! Don't waste a day living it for someone else or based on what you feel pressured to do.
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And can I just say I am so proud of my girl! She's honest, caring, and I'm seeing her heart for others grow more and more every day! She loves gymnastics and soccer and she is THE BEST big sister! I want my life right now to be all about helping her be the best version of herself! I want to help her learn to love herself and others... even those who are hard to love. I want to teach her to work hard... even when things are tuff. I want to teach her to trust herself and have confidence. That's all! If she has those things... everything else will come.
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I love you Annabelle! 3rd grade is going to be awesome!
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And just like that... Summer is over and it's back to school! . It's a little surreal today to watch Annabelle head off to 3rd grade because for me, that was my first year going to an actual school instead of being homeschooled. I can look back and see how fast it all went from there! . Middle school came fast... high school came even faster! And here I am now... 30-years-old with 2 kids! . This is also the first year I got to be home with her on the first day of school instead of at work. I got to do her hair, pack her lunch and help her get all ready for the big day! . Quitting my job was one of the scariest decisions I've ever made! Even though I had felt in my heart it's what I needed to do, it took more than a year to actually have the courage to decide to listen to that voice and do it! . And I've never felt more than right now that I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be! I am able to be home with my kids, while focusing on spreading awareness about eating disorders, body image issues, self love and the importance of sharing your shame so it doesn't hold you back! . I encourage EVERYONE... if your heart is telling you to do something, even if financially it doesn't seem like there's a way to make it happen! I promise, there is a way! When you follow your heart, doors swing open because you are doing what you were made to do! Have faith and keep searching! You get one life to live! One life! Don't waste a day living it for someone else or based on what you feel pressured to do. . And can I just say I am so proud of my girl! She's honest, caring, and I'm seeing her heart for others grow more and more every day! She loves gymnastics and soccer and she is THE BEST big sister! I want my life right now to be all about helping her be the best version of herself! I want to help her learn to love herself and others... even those who are hard to love. I want to teach her to work hard... even when things are tuff. I want to teach her to trust herself and have confidence. That's all! If she has those things... everything else will come. . I love you Annabelle! 3rd grade is going to be awesome! FirstDayOfSchool #FirstDay3rdGrade

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I still find myself completely overwhelmed sometimes to look back at the time in my life when bulimia was a daily battle.
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What started as a very restrictive diet to land a modeling contract, turned into me being so self-conscious and tired of hearing all the comments from people about what I was or wasn't eating. I just wanted what I ate to be

I still find myself completely overwhelmed sometimes to look back at the time in my life when bulimia was a daily battle. . What started as a very restrictive diet to land a modeling contract, turned into me being so self-conscious and tired of hearing all the comments from people about what I was or wasn't eating. I just wanted what I ate to be "normal" and I wanted the comments to stop. So one day, I decided to eat "normal food" (even though it went against my diet) in front of people at a party so I could prove I was just like them, eating "normal food." . That's the day that immense guilt and panic came over me for fear that I would weigh more when I stepped on the scale. . Even though I swore to myself it was a one time thing, I continued to eat "normal" in front of friends only to quietly purge in secret. . As bulimia became my habit, binge eating soon attached itself to my day-to-day routine as well. . My struggle with an eating disorder was my deepest darkest secret. I was SO ASHAMED! . My shame had such a death grip on me! I seriously swore to myself I would NEVER admit my problem to anyone. It was too big, too dark, too disgusting and in my mind, unforgivable. . I am only so openly sharing today because I am desperate to give the same freedom I experienced by finally sharing my secret to other people living in shame. . Trust me when I tell you, life is so much better without carrying the heavy burden of shame! . The walls of "protection" you think you're building so no one finds out what you're desperate to hide, those are actually walls that will suffocate you slowly overtime. . We are all imperfect and I have finally found truth in this statment: "Often times what is the most shameful is also the most universal." . I was never alone in my battle... I was actually surrounded by people who were facing the same demon I was! They just never felt comfortable sharing with me until I was able to share myself. . You are not alone either my friend! . If you have something eating away at your thoughts on a daily basis, maybe something you also swore you'd never admit to... go tell someone! Even just one person! (Cont. in comments)

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Yes @nicholemischkeuncovered ! This is super important; thank you for sharing ❤
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#Repost @nicholemischkeuncovered (@get_repost)
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Your children are watching the way you treat yourself and they are listening to the way you talk about yourself. .
So show them what it looks like to love yourself... it's the best way to teach them how to love themselves.
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Yes @nicholemischkeuncovered ! This is super important; thank you for sharing ❤ . #Repost @nicholemischkeuncovered (@get_repost) ・・・ Your children are watching the way you treat yourself and they are listening to the way you talk about yourself. . So show them what it looks like to love yourself... it's the best way to teach them how to love themselves. _________________________________ #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #EndlessPossibilities #MomFirst #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #Overcome #SelfLoveAdvocate

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Your children are watching the way you treat yourself and they are listening to the way you talk about yourself. .
So show them what it looks like to love yourself... it's the best way to teach them how to love themselves.
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#ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #Overcome #SelfLoveAdvocate

Your children are watching the way you treat yourself and they are listening to the way you talk about yourself. . So show them what it looks like to love yourself... it's the best way to teach them how to love themselves. _________________________________ #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #EndlessPossibilities #MomFirst #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #Overcome #SelfLoveAdvocate

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When times are bad, find strength in knowing that things won't stay like that forever. Change is inevitable. Healing and growth ARE possible as long as you keep searching for them.
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Whatever trials you may face: When you feel invisible, when you're getting teased, when you feel lonely, when you feel unattractive, when you feel unlovable, when you feel stupid, when you lose a job, when you lose a loved one, when you lose a friend... allow yourself to soak up those moments and remember them, because even in moments of pain, there are lessons to be learned and you NEED to learn those lessons so that one day, you can help someone else.
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When times are bad, find strength in knowing that things won't stay like that forever. Change is inevitable. Healing and growth ARE possible as long as you keep searching for them. . Whatever trials you may face: When you feel invisible, when you're getting teased, when you feel lonely, when you feel unattractive, when you feel unlovable, when you feel stupid, when you lose a job, when you lose a loved one, when you lose a friend... allow yourself to soak up those moments and remember them, because even in moments of pain, there are lessons to be learned and you NEED to learn those lessons so that one day, you can help someone else. 📷: @parkroadphotography _________________________________ #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #EndlessPossibilities #MomFirst #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #Overcome #SelfLoveAdvocate

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Who in your life could use a little more kindness not because they've done anything to deserve it, but just because?
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Where in your life could you give a random act of kindness to a stranger?
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I was thinking this morning about all the kindness that's been shown to me in my life... from strangers buying my coffee to coworkers surprising me with coffee at work, to friends making meals for us after one of my kids were born, to neighbors lending ingredients for recipes... we even received a free vacation stay once from an old family friend who didn't really know me that well, but knew my dad when he was alive. .
I have received so much and I am grateful! I want to be better about sharing acts of kindness with others in my life.
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I mean... how awesome does it feel when a stranger buys your coffee? They only saved you 4 bucks but in that moment it makes your day! In that moment,  it makes you stop, remember what's important in life! Kindness let's you know that you are seen and you are worthy. .
How cool that we have the power to give that same feeling to someone else?! Really... it's kinda like a #superpower!
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Kindness... it changes lives.
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Who in your life could use a little more kindness not because they've done anything to deserve it, but just because? . Where in your life could you give a random act of kindness to a stranger? . I was thinking this morning about all the kindness that's been shown to me in my life... from strangers buying my coffee to coworkers surprising me with coffee at work, to friends making meals for us after one of my kids were born, to neighbors lending ingredients for recipes... we even received a free vacation stay once from an old family friend who didn't really know me that well, but knew my dad when he was alive. . I have received so much and I am grateful! I want to be better about sharing acts of kindness with others in my life. . I mean... how awesome does it feel when a stranger buys your coffee? They only saved you 4 bucks but in that moment it makes your day! In that moment, it makes you stop, remember what's important in life! Kindness let's you know that you are seen and you are worthy. . How cool that we have the power to give that same feeling to someone else?! Really... it's kinda like a #superpower! . Kindness... it changes lives. _________________________________ #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #EndlessPossibilities #MomFirst #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #Overcome #SelfLoveAdvocate

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I remember days when I couldn't imagine leaving my house without

I remember days when I couldn't imagine leaving my house without "looking presentable." . I literally hesitated to look people in the eye at the grocery store if I didn't have make-up on! . This phase of my life went hand-in-hand with my eating disorder. Nothing about me ever felt perfect enough because all I focused on were my flaws. . Overtime though and with healing, I continue to learn more and more about what it really means to love yourself and be confident. I've learned that confidence actually comes from an inner peace, not an external face... But I've also learned there is a flip side to this that some women struggle with as well. . I recently met someone who didn't feel worthy to wear makeup. She felt silly for putting it on... and felt like she didnt deserve to feel pretty. . Ladies and gentlemen... make-up is great, but that's all it is... make-up! Wearing it or not wearing it does not make you more or less worthy and it does not have anything to do with your confidence level! . And guess what? You don't have to have a reason to wear it or not! . Does anyone ever remember the day you decided to wear a dress to school and people would say, "why are you so dressed up?" . I used to fumble around for what my "reason" was until I soon realized... I didn't have to have a reason at all! I can wear a dress simply because I feel like it! I could be taking a run to the dump, going to the grocery store, or going on a date with my husband... it doesn't matter! . The same goes for make-up! Today, I wear make-up because I like to feel pretty sometimes. I can wear it to the gym... or not. I can wear it to church... or not. I can wear it on the days I don't even leave my house... or not! . I think it's important to let my son and daughter grow up seeing me both wear make-up AND go without it. I need to demonstrate to them what self-love and confidence really looks like and I also need to show them that I am worthy of dressing up, curling my hair and dancing in dresses! . NEVER let someone make you feel like you're not worthy to show off your sparkle! You are beautiful inside and out and there are many ways to let your beauty shine!

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What are you afraid of and why are you afraid? Maybe you just need to change your perspective!
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I hope what I'm about to share will inspire at least one person to push past that fear because I really believe a huge reward and opportunity is waiting on the other side!
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I just finished one of the hardest things I've ever done (aside from childbirth of course).
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A few months ago a friend asked if I wanted to do a 128 mile relay with a team of 8 moms. It sounded like a great challenge and an opportunity to meet some other women so I said

What are you afraid of and why are you afraid? Maybe you just need to change your perspective! . I hope what I'm about to share will inspire at least one person to push past that fear because I really believe a huge reward and opportunity is waiting on the other side! . I just finished one of the hardest things I've ever done (aside from childbirth of course). . A few months ago a friend asked if I wanted to do a 128 mile relay with a team of 8 moms. It sounded like a great challenge and an opportunity to meet some other women so I said "sure!" . I didn't really realize what I had signed up for, until I finished my first leg of the relay. . I knew I would have to run a 3-mile, 5-mile and 8-mile leg and even though I'd never ran more than 7 miles at one time, I was fine with that. I knew that even with an injured knee, and even if I had to walk, I wasn't going to die! I wanted to push myself and prove that I was capable of doing something more difficult than I'd ever done before. . But what I didn't realize, is that I would basically be running up and down a mountain next to some pretty steep and terrifying drop-offs! . I knew I was going to have to run at night, but I had no idea I was going to have to run 8 miles at night, down the side of a mountain, in 38 degree temps, in a forest where the trail was also at times on the edge of what some would define as a cliff... with only a headlamp to guide my way! . My 8-mile leg was supposed to start at 2:30am!The whole day leading up to that leg, all I had been hearing people who had already run it IN THE DAYLIGHT say was, "That was crazy!" "I'd never want to run that at night!" "There's definitely places you could fall off a cliff if you're not careful!" . As my turn approached, I was getting more and more scared! I decided to pack myself extra protein bars, water bottles and even a lighter... "just in case I fall off a cliff, break my leg, and have to survive in the wild until I'm found" I thought. . Then... the words that changed my perspective! My teammate who had to run the same leg in the dark right before got back... "That was incredible!" she said. "I am on such a high right now! (continued in comments)

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I just got my knee all KT Taped for my relay race!
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As I sit here waiting for my turn to run I can't help but reflect on how far I feel like I've come in my struggle with eating and body image. .
I used to feel like there was nothing that would ever help me overcome my eating disorder. I so badly wanted to stop the physical, psychological and emotional abuse it felt like I was inflicting on myself but I didn't know how, who or what would ever bring me healing. My battle felt hopeless.
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So this is for anyone who needs to hear that there is hope. Recovery and healing IS possible!
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Just like this KT tape will never actually fix my knee for good... my knee will always have scar tissue from surgery and feel weak and tight at times from tearing my ACL years ago... the scars from the past injury will always be there! But there are things I can do to make it better, to make it stronger so that I don't feel the pain as frequently or as much anymore. .
My eating disorder is kind of the same way. I still have the scars and if I let myself, I can start to slip back into my old ways of thinking... but with therapy, talking to someone you trust, learning how to practice self-love so much so that it becomes your new way of thinking, focusing on the positive aspects of your life, your strengths, your gifts and the person you want to become instead of focusing on all the ways you are inadequate... those things are all like my super bandaids! .
My scars will always be there... & my eating disorder will always be a part of my story... but it does not and will not define me or control me. I CAN continue to grow and become better SO MUCH SO that it will soon feel like my eating disorder is only a very distant wound... one I can hardly feel anymore.
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That type of healing is possible! Your eating disorder does not have to be a part of your life & something that controls you forever!
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I just got my knee all KT Taped for my relay race! . As I sit here waiting for my turn to run I can't help but reflect on how far I feel like I've come in my struggle with eating and body image. . I used to feel like there was nothing that would ever help me overcome my eating disorder. I so badly wanted to stop the physical, psychological and emotional abuse it felt like I was inflicting on myself but I didn't know how, who or what would ever bring me healing. My battle felt hopeless. . So this is for anyone who needs to hear that there is hope. Recovery and healing IS possible! . Just like this KT tape will never actually fix my knee for good... my knee will always have scar tissue from surgery and feel weak and tight at times from tearing my ACL years ago... the scars from the past injury will always be there! But there are things I can do to make it better, to make it stronger so that I don't feel the pain as frequently or as much anymore. . My eating disorder is kind of the same way. I still have the scars and if I let myself, I can start to slip back into my old ways of thinking... but with therapy, talking to someone you trust, learning how to practice self-love so much so that it becomes your new way of thinking, focusing on the positive aspects of your life, your strengths, your gifts and the person you want to become instead of focusing on all the ways you are inadequate... those things are all like my super bandaids! . My scars will always be there... & my eating disorder will always be a part of my story... but it does not and will not define me or control me. I CAN continue to grow and become better SO MUCH SO that it will soon feel like my eating disorder is only a very distant wound... one I can hardly feel anymore. . That type of healing is possible! Your eating disorder does not have to be a part of your life & something that controls you forever! _________________________________ #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #EndlessPossibilities #MomFirst #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #LoveYourself #RagnarRelay #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #RagnarTrailRainier #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery

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I am about to embark on a 128 mile relay with 7 other women and all I can think about is how incredibly thankful I am for my health and my able body!
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Your body is capable of incredible things! Your body is capable of doing REALLY hard things! .
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Instead of examining every inch of yourself to focus on all the imperfections you can find, allow yourself to marvel at the incredible miracle you are! Be so grateful to be alive and breathing today!
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Stop hating yourself because your tummy isn't quite flat and you dont have abs.
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Be thankful instead for the way your body can nourish itself to propel you forward!
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Stop hating yourself because your legs are too thick, your thighs touch and your butt isn't round.
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Instead, be thankful for the strength in your legs to carry you! Your feet and legs have taken you through so many journeys and have so many more miles and adventures to share with you.
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Stop hating yourself because in a tank top you feel like your arms and back have a little more fat than you'd like to see.
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Be grateful instead for the hugs your arms have shared, the children they have cuddled, the loads they have carried, the words your hands have written and the hands your hands have held.
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We have SO MUCH to be grateful for!
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I used to look at running for the hard workout that it was. I used to run just to burn calories and lose weight... telling myself how fat I was the whole time.
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Today I run to be thankful for each breath I breathe, to be thankful for the beauty I can see along the way and to be thankful that I am even strong enough and capable to do it in the first place!
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#RagnarRelay here we come! #RagnarTrailRainier
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I am about to embark on a 128 mile relay with 7 other women and all I can think about is how incredibly thankful I am for my health and my able body! . Your body is capable of incredible things! Your body is capable of doing REALLY hard things! . . Instead of examining every inch of yourself to focus on all the imperfections you can find, allow yourself to marvel at the incredible miracle you are! Be so grateful to be alive and breathing today! . Stop hating yourself because your tummy isn't quite flat and you dont have abs. . Be thankful instead for the way your body can nourish itself to propel you forward! . Stop hating yourself because your legs are too thick, your thighs touch and your butt isn't round. . Instead, be thankful for the strength in your legs to carry you! Your feet and legs have taken you through so many journeys and have so many more miles and adventures to share with you. . Stop hating yourself because in a tank top you feel like your arms and back have a little more fat than you'd like to see. . Be grateful instead for the hugs your arms have shared, the children they have cuddled, the loads they have carried, the words your hands have written and the hands your hands have held. . We have SO MUCH to be grateful for! . . I used to look at running for the hard workout that it was. I used to run just to burn calories and lose weight... telling myself how fat I was the whole time. . Today I run to be thankful for each breath I breathe, to be thankful for the beauty I can see along the way and to be thankful that I am even strong enough and capable to do it in the first place! . #RagnarRelay here we come! #RagnarTrailRainier _________________________________ #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #EndlessPossibilities #MomFirst #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #Overcome #SelfLoveAdvocate

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When you finally decide to try and love yourself as you really are, you start to be able to look past the flaws you conditioned yourself to focus on for so long.
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Slowly you'll watch those

When you finally decide to try and love yourself as you really are, you start to be able to look past the flaws you conditioned yourself to focus on for so long. . Slowly you'll watch those "flaws" fade away from your mind. . And soon you'll begin to wonder why you wasted so much time and energy beating yourself up when there were so many more reasons to love yourself just as you are. 📷: @ParkRoadPhotography _________________________________ #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #EndlessPossibilities #MomFirst #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #Overcome #SelfLoveAdvocate

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Almost 12 years ago, I met my husband in the ice cream aisle at #Safeway.
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The story of how we met still gives me goose bumps because our paths cross at one moment in time that changed our lives forever. Most couples have multiple chances to build up the courage to ask the other out. They either work together, go to school together, have mutual friends, and let's be real... most couples in today's day meet online!
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Not us. Our relationship started right before dating apps became a thing which means my husband actually had to have the courage to ask a girl out to her face!
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And I am so thankful that my husband, who felt something between us in our brief encounter together in that Safeway aisle, decided to take a chance.
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While I was leaving the store he chased me down in the parking lot saying,

Almost 12 years ago, I met my husband in the ice cream aisle at #Safeway. . The story of how we met still gives me goose bumps because our paths cross at one moment in time that changed our lives forever. Most couples have multiple chances to build up the courage to ask the other out. They either work together, go to school together, have mutual friends, and let's be real... most couples in today's day meet online! . Not us. Our relationship started right before dating apps became a thing which means my husband actually had to have the courage to ask a girl out to her face! . And I am so thankful that my husband, who felt something between us in our brief encounter together in that Safeway aisle, decided to take a chance. . While I was leaving the store he chased me down in the parking lot saying, "Hey... wait up! Not to look like I'm chasing you down, although I guess I am, but you just seemed kinda cool and I was wondering if you might want to have a sandwich sometime?" . That is verbatim what he said. . A sandwich? That is the line that sealed the deal for me! It's the line that literally made my thoughts do a180 from... "Oh man, how am I going to tell this guy to get lost?" to... "A sandwich? That sounds super easy and totally innocent. A sandwich sounds fun!" . Today we celebrated our 6-year wedding anniversary. Today we celebrated our 2 beautiful children, countless blessings, growing stronger together every day, loving each other in the good times and loving each other even when we don't really like each other. . Our lives collided in a single moment that drastically changed our course. A single moment! If Luke hadn't asked me out that night, I probably would have never seen him again. I probably would have never even known his name! But that one moment of courage... it changed everything. . Don't ever forget the power of a moment. . Everything can change in a moment... so on't wait for life to happen to you. Grab hold of those moments and listen to the little nudges in your heart because it just might be the universe trying to make the stars align for you. . And also... use the sandwich pickup line! I guarantee it will work every time!

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7 years ago today my dad passed away from an extremely aggressive form of cancer. From diagnosis to when he passed away, it was less than 3 months. I had never seen the kind of suffering I watched my dad go through... and I have never felt so helpless in wanting to take the pain away from someone you love.
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My dad was my hero. I'd probably have to write a book to really share all the lessons he taught me but there are two I will share today.
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First... take care of your body! And if you have good health, do not take that for granted for a second because at any moment, that could change! Our society today has become so obsessed with our physical appearance that it often gets in the way of good health. There's this idea that thinner is better yet people are completely abusing their bodies and losing weight in unhealthy ways, just to be thin! You get one life! That is it! So let's stop spending so much time obsessing about how flat our stomach is, how round our butt is and having a gap between our legs and GO LIVE LIFE! It will be over before you know it! If you are healthy, alive and breathing today... go make a difference and strive to be a better version of yourself than you were the day before!
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Second lesson I will share... the only person in your life whose opinion matters is your own. At the end of the day, it's you who has to look yourself in the mirror and be okay, content and happy with the person you see.
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My dad used to keep all sorts of trinkets, articles he liked and his favorite poems in the top drawer of his dresser. Every so often he would grab this poem that a teacher had shared with him in high school, and he'd read it to my siblings and I. It was the reminder he would give us over and over again to make sure we always stayed true to ourselves. The poem is called #TheManInTheGlass, by Peter Dale Wimbrow Sr.
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7 years ago today my dad passed away from an extremely aggressive form of cancer. From diagnosis to when he passed away, it was less than 3 months. I had never seen the kind of suffering I watched my dad go through... and I have never felt so helpless in wanting to take the pain away from someone you love. . My dad was my hero. I'd probably have to write a book to really share all the lessons he taught me but there are two I will share today. . First... take care of your body! And if you have good health, do not take that for granted for a second because at any moment, that could change! Our society today has become so obsessed with our physical appearance that it often gets in the way of good health. There's this idea that thinner is better yet people are completely abusing their bodies and losing weight in unhealthy ways, just to be thin! You get one life! That is it! So let's stop spending so much time obsessing about how flat our stomach is, how round our butt is and having a gap between our legs and GO LIVE LIFE! It will be over before you know it! If you are healthy, alive and breathing today... go make a difference and strive to be a better version of yourself than you were the day before! . Second lesson I will share... the only person in your life whose opinion matters is your own. At the end of the day, it's you who has to look yourself in the mirror and be okay, content and happy with the person you see. . My dad used to keep all sorts of trinkets, articles he liked and his favorite poems in the top drawer of his dresser. Every so often he would grab this poem that a teacher had shared with him in high school, and he'd read it to my siblings and I. It was the reminder he would give us over and over again to make sure we always stayed true to ourselves. The poem is called #TheManInTheGlass, by Peter Dale Wimbrow Sr. (continued in comments)

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We are like seashells 
upon a beach, 
beautiful & unique, 
each with a story to tell,
& each waiting 
for someone to find us & appreciate us 
just the way we are...
even if we're cracked & filled with sand.
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We are like seashells upon a beach, beautiful & unique, each with a story to tell, & each waiting for someone to find us & appreciate us just the way we are... even if we're cracked & filled with sand. _________________________________ #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #EndlessPossibilities #MomFirst #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #Overcome

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I got to spend the evening with my incredible girl yesterday who doesn't feel so little anymore.
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She recently reminded me that once she turns 9 next month she'll be halfway to an adult! .
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Time doesn't standstill for anyone and seeing these last 9 years fly by really is a constant reminder of how fast these next 9 will go... especially if I don't make an intentional and conscious effort to be present and involved.
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I can start crying just thinking about it! Anyone else? .
Anyway, enough with the sappy stuff! Half-way to an adult or half-way to 60... I don't think either of us will ever stop appreciating a delicious bowl of icecream.
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We ended our little date with a stop at #ColdStone to share a Love It!
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I got to spend the evening with my incredible girl yesterday who doesn't feel so little anymore. . She recently reminded me that once she turns 9 next month she'll be halfway to an adult! . . Time doesn't standstill for anyone and seeing these last 9 years fly by really is a constant reminder of how fast these next 9 will go... especially if I don't make an intentional and conscious effort to be present and involved. . I can start crying just thinking about it! Anyone else? . Anyway, enough with the sappy stuff! Half-way to an adult or half-way to 60... I don't think either of us will ever stop appreciating a delicious bowl of icecream. . We ended our little date with a stop at #ColdStone to share a Love It! ___________________________________ #CookieDoughntYouWantSome #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #EndlessPossibilities #MomFirst #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #Overcome

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"I will never forget, in 3rd grade __________" . Anyone else have a profound memory from 3rd grade? Positive or negative? I'd love if some of you would weigh in on this. . Recently I have heard this phrase come out of multiple people's mouths and it has stopped me in my tracks every time because I have said that exact same sentence before too. There are moments that I experienced in 3rd grade specifically that I carried into my adult life. Words spoken to me in 3rd grade were some of the most hurtful things I ever had said to me. 3rd grade is the year I was called names, called fat, and it was really the year that made me realize that I wasn't the cute little tiny girl that many of my friends were, I was bigger, taller, and already in that awkward prepubescent stage of life. It was the year I felt like I stuck out like a sore thumb as far as being a target to mock. . Hearing others share stories that have started with, "I'll never forget, in 3rd grade ________" has made me a little curious if others also have some significant memories from that age in life. So I'd love to hear from you if you do! . Maybe it was something a friend said or did, or even something your parents said or did. . I think it's important to recognize words that were spoken to us as children that negatively influence the way we see ourselves, even today as adults. . I think it's also important to remember as parents that these early years of our children's lives are very important in building up their confidence and self-esteem. The things your kids hear you say now can stay with them the rest of their lives and really influence the lense through which they view themselves and the world. 📷: @ParkRoadPhotography _________________________________ #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #EndlessPossibilities #MomFirst #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #PositiveThoughts #Overcome

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Stop focusing on what you don't have and be amazed and thankful for what what you do
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Why do we so stew in a place where we give ourselves ALL the reasons we can't do _______ because we don't have ______, _____, and _____.
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This state of existing can be so toxic to your health, mind, body, business, family... literally every part of your life!
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Stop focusing on what you don't have and be amazed and thankful for what what you do . Why do we so stew in a place where we give ourselves ALL the reasons we can't do _______ because we don't have ______, _____, and _____. . This state of existing can be so toxic to your health, mind, body, business, family... literally every part of your life! . "I can't feel good about my body because I don't have abs." "I can't feel good about myself because I'm overweight." "I can't ever allow myself to love me until I look physically perfect" "I can't post this photo of myself on my social media because I don't look good enough" "I cant workout because I can't afford a fitness trainer like so-and-so can." "I can't workout because there aren't any gyms close to my house" "I can't be in a healthy relationship because I'm not worthy." "I can't leave this toxic relationship because I don't have anyone else who would be with me" "I can't get that dream job because I'm not qualified" "I can't have the career of my dreams because I didn't go to college" "I can't have the career of my dreams because I'm not smart." "I can't eat healthy because it costs more money." "I can't eat healthy because I don't have self-control" "I can't host a gathering at my house because it's not nice enough" "I can't get organized because I don't have the items I need to get organized." "I can't play with my kids because I don't have time for that." "I can't love my husband because he has wronged me so many more times than I have wronged him." "I can't forgive so-and-so because they don't even care if I do." "I can't go on a vacation because I don't have the money for that." "I can't run my business the way I want to because I don't have the money to invest in the best marketing team" "I can't write a book or a blog because I'm dyslexic or I'm not a good writer." . Stop with the "I can't" and JUST IMAGINE what you COULD DO if you only started to say "I CAN! . You are not incapable of x, y, and z because of the THINGS you lack. You are only incapable because you lack a belief that YOU CAN. . . "Whether you think you can or you think you can't, you're right." -Henry Ford ___________________________

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Often times we make decisions in our lives because we let the world & those around us tell us what we SHOULD be doing.
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But once you truly grasp that you get one life to live, one single life, where tomorrow isn't guaranteed, it becomes a lot easier to take back the pen & write your story the way your heart has been telling you to write it all along.
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Will it be scary? Of course! Will you be afraid to fail? Of course!  But growth doesn't happen without failure! So really... we should all be chasing after failure! We should crave failure! .
I know not everyone agrees with this but I truly believe everyone has THEIR THING. It's the thing their soul has been screaming at them to do since they can remember! Some of us don't hear the screaming anymore though because we've shoved that voice down a dark hole, too scared to listen to what is has to say because it's a constant reminder that we are on the wrong path in our life.
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This might sound weird, but sometimes, when I'm around certain people, I feel like I know their passion & can instantly figure out what they were born to become. Often times, I will call them out on it & their reply usually goes something like this:
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Often times we make decisions in our lives because we let the world & those around us tell us what we SHOULD be doing. . But once you truly grasp that you get one life to live, one single life, where tomorrow isn't guaranteed, it becomes a lot easier to take back the pen & write your story the way your heart has been telling you to write it all along. . Will it be scary? Of course! Will you be afraid to fail? Of course! But growth doesn't happen without failure! So really... we should all be chasing after failure! We should crave failure! . I know not everyone agrees with this but I truly believe everyone has THEIR THING. It's the thing their soul has been screaming at them to do since they can remember! Some of us don't hear the screaming anymore though because we've shoved that voice down a dark hole, too scared to listen to what is has to say because it's a constant reminder that we are on the wrong path in our life. . This might sound weird, but sometimes, when I'm around certain people, I feel like I know their passion & can instantly figure out what they were born to become. Often times, I will call them out on it & their reply usually goes something like this: . "Yea... funny you should say that. That's actually what I've always wanted to do. I just...__________." . That line is ALWAYS filled with excuses, self-doubt & the fear of failure. ALWAYS. . You guys! Nobody has ever chased after a dream without feeling that fear! It's universal! . The only thing that sets you apart from the person who is doing the thing you always wanted to do is they weren't afraid to try. . So just try. Try with your whole heart! Your heart knows what your story should be so take back the authorship! Stop living the way you think the world says you should. . And this message is just as much for me as it is for you! I just quit my job 2 months ago and I still can't believe I did it sometimes! . My husband & I aren't rich! Saying goodbye to my paycheck & health insurance didn't make us feel all cozy inside! It was down right scary! But for the first time I finally feel what it's like to take back the pen & write my own story the way my heart knows it should be written.

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The words that follow

The words that follow "I am" will follow you. . How are you defining yourself today? Fill in the blank: . "I am ________________" . If the way you're defining yourself is ANYTHING but positive, it's time to practice some self love! . Start seeing yourself for the unrepeatable miracle that you are! _________________________________ #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #EndlessPossibilities #MomFirst #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #WordsToLiveBy #Instagood #PowerOfWords #SelfLove #FillYourCup #QuoteOfTheDay #Inspiration #Recovery #NewYou #Healing #AuthenticSelf #BeBold

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"The secret of change is to focus all of your energy not on fighting the old, but on building the new." . - Socrates, "Way of the Peaceful Warrior: A Book that Changes Lives" 📷: @ParkRoadPhotography _________________________________ #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #EndlessPossibilities #MomFirst #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery

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My grandma Betty would have been 89 years old today.
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This may very well be the last photo that was taken of the two of us. I only knew her for 6 short years but I can still remember how she smelled... I just LOVED the perfume she wore!
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To me, her life is the most perfect example that we don't need to move across the world to #MakeADifference.  We can make a difference exactly where we are, in the same town we were born and raised in. .
You see... she was a mother to 5 and a school teacher to hundreds! She grew up on the Rathdrum Prairie in Idaho and that's exactly where she stayed to raise her family and be a teacher.
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She made such an impact in the classroom that when she passed away, she had a brand new elementary school named after her...

My grandma Betty would have been 89 years old today. . This may very well be the last photo that was taken of the two of us. I only knew her for 6 short years but I can still remember how she smelled... I just LOVED the perfume she wore! . To me, her life is the most perfect example that we don't need to move across the world to #MakeADifference. We can make a difference exactly where we are, in the same town we were born and raised in. . You see... she was a mother to 5 and a school teacher to hundreds! She grew up on the Rathdrum Prairie in Idaho and that's exactly where she stayed to raise her family and be a teacher. . She made such an impact in the classroom that when she passed away, she had a brand new elementary school named after her... "Betty Kiefer Elementary." . Since her passing, thousands of kids have now gone on to be educated in the walls of her school. . I cannot count how many people I have heard share stories over the last almost 30 years of the way she loved everyone around her and how her presence made an impact. . My grandma recognized that there were lives desperate to be impacted and changed for the better because she was a part of them. . All it takes for the rest of us to do the same, is to step outside of ourselves and be the difference we wish to see in the world. . I know I want to try and be better about that. . Today, I am grateful for my beautiful grandmother who built a legacy of love, acceptance and patience in my family. . _________________________________ #GiveLove #Joy #Happiness #EndlessPossibilities #MomFirst #TheOnesWhoCameBefore #ThereIsHope #EatingDisorderRecovery #BulimiaRecovery #ShameUncovered #NoMoreShame #LoveYourself #WomenSupportingWomen #BodyImageMovement #IAmEnough #SpeakTruth #UnapologeticallyMe #ShareYourStory #EDRecovery #UncoverHope #Hope #LoveConquersAll #Love

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