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Finished today in a good way. I’m a night time gym goer because less people seem to be around after 10pm. And I enjoy my alone time. Did an LISS workout today for day 4 of the #sweat12wc SWEAT 12 week challenge. 
Felt great throughout the day. Wasn’t ever really hungry. Basically had 3 meals. Even though one of those was a bulletproof coffee. I’d never had one before and it was damn good. 
I did however get home after the gym - eat two oranges - and now I feel nauseous. So I don’t know what that’s about. Could quite possibly be PMS 🤣

#edrecovery #ed #recovery #edwarrior #edfighter #edfamily #strength #recoverycommunity #eatingdisorders #ana #mia #mytoxicfriendsanaandmia #anorexia #bulimia #bodyacceptance #depression #anxiety #awareness #bingeeating #orthorexia #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #anaandmia #selflove #bodypositive #healthateverysize #recoverywarrior #effyourbeautystandards #bopo

Finished today in a good way. I’m a night time gym goer because less people seem to be around after 10pm. And I enjoy my alone time. Did an LISS workout today for day 4 of the #sweat12wc SWEAT 12 week challenge. Felt great throughout the day. Wasn’t ever really hungry. Basically had 3 meals. Even though one of those was a bulletproof coffee. I’d never had one before and it was damn good. I did however get home after the gym - eat two oranges - and now I feel nauseous. So I don’t know what that’s about. Could quite possibly be PMS 🤣 #edrecovery #ed #recovery #edwarrior #edfighter #edfamily #strength #recoverycommunity #eatingdisorders #ana #mia #mytoxicfriendsanaandmia #anorexia #bulimia #bodyacceptance #depression #anxiety #awareness #bingeeating #orthorexia #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #anaandmia #selflove #bodypositive #healthateverysize #recoverywarrior #effyourbeautystandards #bopo

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Happy Friday my loves! May your weekend be full of rest, laughter, relaxation, fun, self care or doing whatever you want to do 😘 .

It sounds crazy now, but at one point in my journey (for quite a while) I was legitimately scared of the weekends. I was scared of being home as my anorexia would run wild. Whilst I was at school I could be ‘controlled’ somewhat. When I was at home I would literally exercise in my room all day and sometimes nights for both days. I would struggle to stick to my meal plan & fight with my family who were only trying to help me. I found the lack of routine and structure incredibly challenging. .

I craved to be like a “normal person” and look forward to the weekends. I remembered that before my ED I was able to have fun and look after myself and I desperately wanted to get back to that place but I didn’t know how. I was so fed up of being miserable and depriving myself of life. As part of my recovery, I made a conscious choice to get my weekends and my life back! To talk back to anorexia when tried to utilise the flexibility of the weekends to run wild. .

Through lots of hard work, I am so happy to say that now, like most people, my weekends are the best part of my week! I can trust myself to be home alone without torturing myself. I can eat out with friends and family. I can rest and relax and sleep in! It’s such a beautiful feeling to finally be able to take care of myself instead of living in fear of the negative anorexic dictator in my head. Full recovery is possible! Keep pushing through all the challenges of recovery and one day you will achieve your goals, no matter how impossible they may seem.

Happy Friday my loves! May your weekend be full of rest, laughter, relaxation, fun, self care or doing whatever you want to do 😘 . It sounds crazy now, but at one point in my journey (for quite a while) I was legitimately scared of the weekends. I was scared of being home as my anorexia would run wild. Whilst I was at school I could be ‘controlled’ somewhat. When I was at home I would literally exercise in my room all day and sometimes nights for both days. I would struggle to stick to my meal plan & fight with my family who were only trying to help me. I found the lack of routine and structure incredibly challenging. . I craved to be like a “normal person” and look forward to the weekends. I remembered that before my ED I was able to have fun and look after myself and I desperately wanted to get back to that place but I didn’t know how. I was so fed up of being miserable and depriving myself of life. As part of my recovery, I made a conscious choice to get my weekends and my life back! To talk back to anorexia when tried to utilise the flexibility of the weekends to run wild. . Through lots of hard work, I am so happy to say that now, like most people, my weekends are the best part of my week! I can trust myself to be home alone without torturing myself. I can eat out with friends and family. I can rest and relax and sleep in! It’s such a beautiful feeling to finally be able to take care of myself instead of living in fear of the negative anorexic dictator in my head. Full recovery is possible! Keep pushing through all the challenges of recovery and one day you will achieve your goals, no matter how impossible they may seem.

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Buongiorno ☀️ La mia giornata è iniziata con una super colazione 🥞 con 4 #recoverywin.Avevo detto a mamma che ancora non ero pronta a fare questa colazione,sono scesa e in cucina ho trovato lo yogurt,la frutta e i cheerios e non ho saputo resistere,ma in fondo perché avrei dovuto resistere?Perché non avrei dovuto seguito il piano?Perchè lo yogurt non era magro?Perché quella vocina mi dice di no,perché quei cereali 🥣 sono per bambini,sono troppo buoni e non ci puoi prendere gusto.Oggi però ho deciso di ascoltarmi veramente e lasciar perdere ciò che mi dieceva la testa ,sono stufa di deludere chi mi vuole veramente bene,sono stufa di far stare in pensiero mia madre che ogni giorno spera che io a scuola mangi almeno uno spicchio di mela 🍎,sono stufa di trattarmi male e,oggi voglio essere fiera di me.
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Buongiorno ☀️ La mia giornata è iniziata con una super colazione 🥞 con 4 #recoverywin.Avevo detto a mamma che ancora non ero pronta a fare questa colazione,sono scesa e in cucina ho trovato lo yogurt,la frutta e i cheerios e non ho saputo resistere,ma in fondo perché avrei dovuto resistere?Perché non avrei dovuto seguito il piano?Perchè lo yogurt non era magro?Perché quella vocina mi dice di no,perché quei cereali 🥣 sono per bambini,sono troppo buoni e non ci puoi prendere gusto.Oggi però ho deciso di ascoltarmi veramente e lasciar perdere ciò che mi dieceva la testa ,sono stufa di deludere chi mi vuole veramente bene,sono stufa di far stare in pensiero mia madre che ogni giorno spera che io a scuola mangi almeno uno spicchio di mela 🍎,sono stufa di trattarmi male e,oggi voglio essere fiera di me. BUONA GIORNATA - - - - - - -#colazione con: -cheerios,yogurt bianco con more - - - #anoressiaitalia #recoverywin #anoressia #anorexiarecovery

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Omg for morning tea I had a vegan blueberry and granola muffin and also a large coffee on almond milk 🥛☕️ I’ve never had a large coffee before as I always get the smallest and also this muffin is a huge win as usually I go for ones the I know and know don’t have sugar but this one did which it why it was so sweet and had nuts as well but it was so nice and worth it👍Sometimes you have to treat yourself as really we only live once so might as well live it 💕💕

Omg for morning tea I had a vegan blueberry and granola muffin and also a large coffee on almond milk 🥛☕️ I’ve never had a large coffee before as I always get the smallest and also this muffin is a huge win as usually I go for ones the I know and know don’t have sugar but this one did which it why it was so sweet and had nuts as well but it was so nice and worth it👍Sometimes you have to treat yourself as really we only live once so might as well live it 💕💕

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IT'S FRIDAY 🎉.
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Hello les crevettes 😊 ! Vendredi matin, si vous faites un bilan de la semaine que retenez vous ? Avez vous réussi à ne pas vous auto flageller, à ne pas vous frustrer sur la nourriture, à vous écouter, qu'avez vous fait cette semaine pour atteindre vos objectifs 💪 ? Comment noteriez vous cette semaine ../10 📝? Day off niveau muscu aujourd'hui, et vous quel est le programme 🏋️? Belle journée les crevettes 💋.
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#fitness #fitgirl #healthy #fitnessgirl #bodypositive #healthyfood #lifestyle #gym #bodybuilding #diet #flexibledieting #bulking #humpday #musculation #fitnesslifestyle #shredded #leanbulk #anorexiarecovery #workout #nutrition #getfit #happiness #goodvibes #bodygoal #healthylife #veggies #abs #shape #transformation #shoulders

IT'S FRIDAY 🎉. . Hello les crevettes 😊 ! Vendredi matin, si vous faites un bilan de la semaine que retenez vous ? Avez vous réussi à ne pas vous auto flageller, à ne pas vous frustrer sur la nourriture, à vous écouter, qu'avez vous fait cette semaine pour atteindre vos objectifs 💪 ? Comment noteriez vous cette semaine ../10 📝? Day off niveau muscu aujourd'hui, et vous quel est le programme 🏋️? Belle journée les crevettes 💋. . #fitness #fitgirl #healthy #fitnessgirl #bodypositive #healthyfood #lifestyle #gym #bodybuilding #diet #flexibledieting #bulking #humpday #musculation #fitnesslifestyle #shredded #leanbulk #anorexiarecovery #workout #nutrition #getfit #happiness #goodvibes #bodygoal #healthylife #veggies #abs #shape #transformation #shoulders

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Je tenais à vous remercier pour tous vos messages chaque jour, vos commentaires, vos conseils qui me sont indispensable au quotidien ❤️✨ J’aime voir que ma communauté s’agrandit et que certains posts vous plaisent !🙊 J’aime tellement vous aider si je le peux, il ne faut surtout pas hésiter à m’envoyer un message si vous avez besoin de moi ( dans la limite du raisonnable 😉 )
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Le traditionnel Pudding du vendredi version cookie 🍪 ce matin ( arôme + Whey cookie and cream ✨ ) avec de la pomme 🍎, clémentine 🍊, alpro coco 🥥, framboises, crème de datte et chocolat 🍫🙊
Un hashtag pour retrouver mes recettes plus facilement vous intéresserait ?🤔
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A cause de mon absence, je loupe vraiment beaucoup de vos posts .. Veuillez m’en excuser 😐.. Je vous laisse deviner le nombre de contrôles que j’ai la semaine prochaine 😂 Bonne dernière journée avant le week-end 😘😘❤️
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#food #foodporn #healthy #foodisfuel #instafood #yummy #instagood #breakfast #healthy #healthybreakfast #cleaneating #photooftheday #mangersain #picoftheday #eatclean #healthyfood #fitness #teamfitcat #teamshape #anorexie #anorexia #ana #tca #anorexiarecovery #fitnessfood #foodgasm #bowl  #pudding #alpro  #chocolate #kinder

Je tenais à vous remercier pour tous vos messages chaque jour, vos commentaires, vos conseils qui me sont indispensable au quotidien ❤️✨ J’aime voir que ma communauté s’agrandit et que certains posts vous plaisent !🙊 J’aime tellement vous aider si je le peux, il ne faut surtout pas hésiter à m’envoyer un message si vous avez besoin de moi ( dans la limite du raisonnable 😉 ) • Le traditionnel Pudding du vendredi version cookie 🍪 ce matin ( arôme + Whey cookie and cream ✨ ) avec de la pomme 🍎, clémentine 🍊, alpro coco 🥥, framboises, crème de datte et chocolat 🍫🙊 Un hashtag pour retrouver mes recettes plus facilement vous intéresserait ?🤔 • A cause de mon absence, je loupe vraiment beaucoup de vos posts .. Veuillez m’en excuser 😐.. Je vous laisse deviner le nombre de contrôles que j’ai la semaine prochaine 😂 Bonne dernière journée avant le week-end 😘😘❤️ • • #food #foodporn #healthy #foodisfuel #instafood #yummy #instagood #breakfast #healthy #healthybreakfast #cleaneating #photooftheday #mangersain #picoftheday #eatclean #healthyfood #fitness #teamfitcat #teamshape #anorexie #anorexia #ana #tca #anorexiarecovery #fitnessfood #foodgasm #bowl #pudding #alpro #chocolate #kinder

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What long road it been after all the health issues but bouncing back from death it felt like #HS #anorexiarecovery  my #tenyearchallenge #10yearchallenge @kttape @abbvie @healthstoriesproject @1stphorm

What long road it been after all the health issues but bouncing back from death it felt like #HS #anorexiarecovery my #tenyearchallenge #10yearchallenge @kttape @abbvie @healthstoriesproject @1stphorm

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throwback to when i had some good food because who doesn’t like good food 😂 another sleepness night and im struggling with my eating. major behaviour i haven’t used in 6 months which i used yesterday which im scared about as that’s what sets me off into relapsing. going to see if my nurse is available to speak today as things are getting bad 😫 i really don’t want to get bad again as my boyfriend means the world to me but the stupid anorexic thoughts seem to kick in. 🙁 just need to keep reminding myself why recovery is so important! 🌸💖

throwback to when i had some good food because who doesn’t like good food 😂 another sleepness night and im struggling with my eating. major behaviour i haven’t used in 6 months which i used yesterday which im scared about as that’s what sets me off into relapsing. going to see if my nurse is available to speak today as things are getting bad 😫 i really don’t want to get bad again as my boyfriend means the world to me but the stupid anorexic thoughts seem to kick in. 🙁 just need to keep reminding myself why recovery is so important! 🌸💖

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Good morning☀ 
So, that was breakfast today! The same as usual. 
I am looking forward to the week-end because I am going to go skiing with my mother and sister!!! 🎿 
What are your plans for the week-end? 
Have a nice friday🌻

#anorexiarecovery #anorexiawarrior #edrecovery #edwarrior #eatittobeatit #eatingdisorderrecovery #foodisfuel #fightanorexia #fightingforfoodfreedom #keepfighting #staystrong

Good morning☀ So, that was breakfast today! The same as usual. I am looking forward to the week-end because I am going to go skiing with my mother and sister!!! 🎿 What are your plans for the week-end? Have a nice friday🌻 #anorexiarecovery #anorexiawarrior #edrecovery #edwarrior #eatittobeatit #eatingdisorderrecovery #foodisfuel #fightanorexia #fightingforfoodfreedom #keepfighting #staystrong

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• so, I decided to do something for myself and my health and get admitted back into treatment for my anorexia and other mental health issues. I need to do this for myself, because I’ve suffered far too long with these issues, and I want to be happy and healthy. I’m terrified of eating six times a day and gaining the weight, but, I know it needs to be done. I’m sorry if I’ve let anyone down, or disappointed them. But, 2019 is going to be my year. It has to be. Here’s to recovery 💞 •

• so, I decided to do something for myself and my health and get admitted back into treatment for my anorexia and other mental health issues. I need to do this for myself, because I’ve suffered far too long with these issues, and I want to be happy and healthy. I’m terrified of eating six times a day and gaining the weight, but, I know it needs to be done. I’m sorry if I’ve let anyone down, or disappointed them. But, 2019 is going to be my year. It has to be. Here’s to recovery 💞 •

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▫️Agrums tarts. Physalis and chocolate topping. 
Tartelettes clémentine/ vanille - base croustillante au maïs. Physalis et chocolat noté 
Ces petites merveilles, dégustées dès 4h du matin ce matin ! 😋

Et oui je suis déjà à l’aéroport en attendant le vol pour...Budapest ❄️ Je vous souhaite une bonne journée 😘

#chocolate#fitness#breakfast#delicious#eat#sweet#homemade#cake#fitgirl#anorexiarecovery#fit#yummy#delicious#fitness#food#foodpics#photooftheday#eatclean#healthyfood#health#healthy#holiday#foodporn#yellow#fitfam#morning#foodlover#colorful#workout#fruits#happy

▫️Agrums tarts. Physalis and chocolate topping. Tartelettes clémentine/ vanille - base croustillante au maïs. Physalis et chocolat noté Ces petites merveilles, dégustées dès 4h du matin ce matin ! 😋 Et oui je suis déjà à l’aéroport en attendant le vol pour...Budapest ❄️ Je vous souhaite une bonne journée 😘 #chocolate #fitness #breakfast #delicious #eat #sweet #homemade #cake #fitgirl #anorexiarecovery #fit #yummy #delicious #fitness #food #foodpics #photooftheday #eatclean #healthyfood #health #healthy #holiday #foodporn #yellow #fitfam #morning #foodlover #colorful #workout #fruits #happy

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🌸hi everyone🌸
I know I haven't been active lately but I will try to be more in the future 🌼 body image sucks and life sucks in general but I'll probably get through this. Here are 10 things about me :
- I'm 18yo and recovering for the second time
- I am anorexic but sometimes it happens that I binge and I got rid ofany kind of purging few weeks ago
- I have a dog and she's basically my life
- I'm constantly tired
- I have a man
- I love drawing and painting, and I'm fond of exercising
- I'm antisocial
- I'm somniphobic
- I'm not sure whether or not I deserve or need recovery
- I'm weight restored

#anorexia #anorexiarecovery #ana #recovery #ed #edrecovery #fooddiary 
#food #foodblog #eatingdisorder #ednos #edfam #anafighter #healthy #fearfood #recoverywin #view

🌸hi everyone🌸 I know I haven't been active lately but I will try to be more in the future 🌼 body image sucks and life sucks in general but I'll probably get through this. Here are 10 things about me : - I'm 18yo and recovering for the second time - I am anorexic but sometimes it happens that I binge and I got rid ofany kind of purging few weeks ago - I have a dog and she's basically my life - I'm constantly tired - I have a man - I love drawing and painting, and I'm fond of exercising - I'm antisocial - I'm somniphobic - I'm not sure whether or not I deserve or need recovery - I'm weight restored #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #ana #recovery #ed #edrecovery #fooddiary #food #foodblog #eatingdisorder #ednos #edfam #anafighter #healthy #fearfood #recoverywin #view

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》》CENA《《 Papaya + Frutos Rojos con Yoghurt Griego Natural y Granola
Buenas noches hasta mañana!
#anaymia #recovery #anorexiarecovery #Ana #Mia  #depresión  #cdjuarez #anorexianerviosa  #anorexia #bulimia

》》CENA《《 Papaya + Frutos Rojos con Yoghurt Griego Natural y Granola Buenas noches hasta mañana! #anaymia #recovery #anorexiarecovery #Ana #Mia #depresión #cdjuarez #anorexianerviosa #anorexia #bulimia

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》》ALMUERZO《《 2 Galletas de Arroz Integral con Pechuga de Pollo en Rodaja + Aguacate + Espinaca + Queso Cottage y de Tomar Agua 
Linda Tarde!
#anaymia #recovery #anorexiarecovery #Ana #Mia  #depresión  #cdjuarez #anorexianerviosa  #anorexia #bulimia

》》ALMUERZO《《 2 Galletas de Arroz Integral con Pechuga de Pollo en Rodaja + Aguacate + Espinaca + Queso Cottage y de Tomar Agua Linda Tarde! #anaymia #recovery #anorexiarecovery #Ana #Mia #depresión #cdjuarez #anorexianerviosa #anorexia #bulimia

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Haré tips después de los 10seguidores♡
Recuerda que primero de todo debes amarte.
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#anaymialifestyle #anaymía #vegetariano #anorexiarecovery #anorexianerviosa #amorpropio

Haré tips después de los 10seguidores♡ Recuerda que primero de todo debes amarte. . . . . . . #anaymialifestyle #anaymía #vegetariano #anorexiarecovery #anorexianerviosa #amorpropio

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》》DESAYUNO《《 Melon + Frutos del Bosque con Yoghurt Griego Natural y Granola
Buenos Días!
#anaymia #recovery #anorexiarecovery #Ana #Mia  #depresión  #cdjuarez #anorexianerviosa  #anorexia #bulimia

》》DESAYUNO《《 Melon + Frutos del Bosque con Yoghurt Griego Natural y Granola Buenos Días! #anaymia #recovery #anorexiarecovery #Ana #Mia #depresión #cdjuarez #anorexianerviosa #anorexia #bulimia

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cannot remember the last time i ::: had the whole sweet potato
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cannot remember the last time i ::: had the whole sweet potato . w: sea salt, black pepper & ICBINB ‘0 cal’ butter spray (please don’t judge me thanks :)))))) . . okay shared a tiny bite with popcorn she loves sweet potato. all out of p much everything else like all the usual /produce tbh still haven’t picked up groceries l o l wow yeah this was good though . . . . . #adultswitheds #adultswitheatingdisorders #edfamily #edfam #edrecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #bdd #bodydysmorphicdisorder #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bpdrecovery #exerciseaddiction #orthorexia #depression #anxiety #oppositeaction

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Food: Overnight oats with banana and cinnamon
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This is the first time I tried overnight oats and they're so good😍 Totally in love with them❤ I didn't even neet a sweetener like honey for example. I thought I would but when I tried it,it was delicious by itself. And even more perfect with the banana and cinnamon👌
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I'm having many struggles at home at the moment. My mom and I are constantly fighting. She doesn't believe me that I'm eating enough and thinks that I want to loose weight again,but it's DEFINITELY not the truth. And she just doesn't listen when I talk to her.
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#foodporn#foodblog#foodreview#foodphotography#food#eating#eat#goodmorning#breakfast#overnightoats#banana#cinnamon#sweet#tasty#delicious#satisfying#anorexiarecovery#anorexia#ed#eatingdisorder

Swipe to see the video! Food: Overnight oats with banana and cinnamon 💕 This is the first time I tried overnight oats and they're so good😍 Totally in love with them❤ I didn't even neet a sweetener like honey for example. I thought I would but when I tried it,it was delicious by itself. And even more perfect with the banana and cinnamon👌 💕 I'm having many struggles at home at the moment. My mom and I are constantly fighting. She doesn't believe me that I'm eating enough and thinks that I want to loose weight again,but it's DEFINITELY not the truth. And she just doesn't listen when I talk to her. 💕 #foodporn #foodblog #foodreview #foodphotography #food #eating #eat #goodmorning #breakfast #overnightoats #banana #cinnamon #sweet #tasty #delicious #satisfying #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #ed #eatingdisorder

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🌹 Very dizzy from med adjustment 👎
- infact still not how I saw myself at 26 being diagnosed with a heart condition and hypertension in the same month.
- or having to be on meds for the rest of my life.
- and genuinely needing a pill box to remind me to take my heart/bp meds...but because my health has to come first even if I look like an

🌹 Very dizzy from med adjustment 👎 - infact still not how I saw myself at 26 being diagnosed with a heart condition and hypertension in the same month. - or having to be on meds for the rest of my life. - and genuinely needing a pill box to remind me to take my heart/bp meds...but because my health has to come first even if I look like an "old lady" or seem "too young" to have this condition or a medication box..I was so embarrassed when my mother said I looked "retarded" with my 24hr abpm on and didn't want people to see me like that (as if i had a choice and didn't already feel embarrassed!) 😢 But then I realized selfcare and managing your health must be top priority..so from now on I don't care if you judge what I do to get by, yes I need a pillbox, yes I need support and help in managing my health and I am not ashamed. Feel free to tell and or show me your med boxes so I feel less like a fuckwit 💪❤💊 😏 - 🍔 also i had subway for lunch and wow yum turkey subs 🤤 fuck you ana. #medication #pillbox #medbox #personalhealthjourney #anawarrior #edrecovery #hypertension #heartcondition #heartmeds #lifestylechanges #noshame #healthcomesfirst #selfcare #healthblogger #hazydays #roses #pillcase #chronicillness #atrisk #dowhatyouhaveto #selflove #selfacceptance #havefaith #justbreathe #subwayeatfresh #nourishment #anorexiarecovery #spoonie #medicationorganizer

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Possible TW!! Well, I’ve hit the weight I was at when I went into treatment for the first time. But this time, I’m not going into treatment. In fact, my dietician and therapist think I’m actually trying. It’s easy to lie on my meal logs. They aren’t with me 24/7 to see if I’m actually eating or not. If my dietician see’s I’m losing weight, I can just tell her now that I’ve been eating again, my fast metabolism is kicking in again. My parents are back at work during the week so they don’t know I’m sleeping in until noon, missing my breakfast and morning snack, often not hungry until 3ish to eat ‘lunch’, and then still feeling full and not eating a full dinner. Eating disorders are liars. They are sneaky. They are manipulative. I was going to go to lunch tomorrow with my boyfriend, but out of pure fright of having to eat the food at a restaurant, I came up with an excuse to not go. I used to love going out to eat with my boyfriend. I looked forward to it. But now it gives me so much anxiety. Anxiety days before we even go out, and often I cop out and hang out with him after lunch times. I feel so much guilt over letting my ed come back into my life. A part of me wishes I stayed strong and fought the urges. Allowed myself to stay in recovery, but during one of my weakest moments, I let it come back to help me, and now I can’t let it go. And I’m not sure if I’m ready to anymore. 
#anorexiarecovery #anorexia #bulimiarecovery #fighting #bpd #depression #anarecovery #borderline #bipolar #anxiety #treatment #fighting #depressed #angry #foodwarrior #anawarrior #fightinghard #hopes #ambition #recoverywarrior #recoverywarriors #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #recoverycommunity #eatingdisorderrecovery  #eatingdisorderawareness #depressed #selfhate #done

Possible TW!! Well, I’ve hit the weight I was at when I went into treatment for the first time. But this time, I’m not going into treatment. In fact, my dietician and therapist think I’m actually trying. It’s easy to lie on my meal logs. They aren’t with me 24/7 to see if I’m actually eating or not. If my dietician see’s I’m losing weight, I can just tell her now that I’ve been eating again, my fast metabolism is kicking in again. My parents are back at work during the week so they don’t know I’m sleeping in until noon, missing my breakfast and morning snack, often not hungry until 3ish to eat ‘lunch’, and then still feeling full and not eating a full dinner. Eating disorders are liars. They are sneaky. They are manipulative. I was going to go to lunch tomorrow with my boyfriend, but out of pure fright of having to eat the food at a restaurant, I came up with an excuse to not go. I used to love going out to eat with my boyfriend. I looked forward to it. But now it gives me so much anxiety. Anxiety days before we even go out, and often I cop out and hang out with him after lunch times. I feel so much guilt over letting my ed come back into my life. A part of me wishes I stayed strong and fought the urges. Allowed myself to stay in recovery, but during one of my weakest moments, I let it come back to help me, and now I can’t let it go. And I’m not sure if I’m ready to anymore. #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #bulimiarecovery #fighting #bpd #depression #anarecovery #borderline #bipolar #anxiety #treatment #fighting #depressed #angry #foodwarrior #anawarrior #fightinghard #hopes #ambition #recoverywarrior #recoverywarriors #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #recoverycommunity #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #depressed #selfhate #done

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GOOD NEWS;
so at the ED clinic yesterday i weighed in at the weight i was before i got sick and lost weight. i am so so close to being weight restored! all my hormones and nutrients are fine. i am now allowed to do 30min max exercise a week, to see how i manage with my eating and doing that. my next appt is in 2 weeks, and i really believe i can be weight restored by then. i also am praying that my period comes in that time! •
freedom feels amazing guys. I know it’s hard to fight Ana, but this terrible illness took away a year of my life that I could have been prospering. it stunted my growth. took away everything. i am now about to move into Phase 2 and i am SO READY TO GET MY LIFE BACK❤️❤️❤️

GOOD NEWS; so at the ED clinic yesterday i weighed in at the weight i was before i got sick and lost weight. i am so so close to being weight restored! all my hormones and nutrients are fine. i am now allowed to do 30min max exercise a week, to see how i manage with my eating and doing that. my next appt is in 2 weeks, and i really believe i can be weight restored by then. i also am praying that my period comes in that time! • freedom feels amazing guys. I know it’s hard to fight Ana, but this terrible illness took away a year of my life that I could have been prospering. it stunted my growth. took away everything. i am now about to move into Phase 2 and i am SO READY TO GET MY LIFE BACK❤️❤️❤️

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Hallo♡
Hier seht ihr mein Abendessen von vorgestern.
Gestern Abend waren wir Pizza essen und ich habe eine ganze Hawaii gegessen😃😌
Und nein, ich habe kein Bild. Es tut mir Leid, ich habe mein Handy einfach vergessen. Erst fand ich es wirklich schlimm, aber dann ist mir klar geworden:
Wie komisch ist es denn sein Essen hauptsächlich genießen zu können, weil man es davor fotografiert hat und es so danach nochmal anschauen kann?
Ich habe diese Pizza für mich gegessen, weil ich sie unglaublich lecker fand und das ist okay. Ich muss niemanden ein Bild der

Hallo♡ Hier seht ihr mein Abendessen von vorgestern. Gestern Abend waren wir Pizza essen und ich habe eine ganze Hawaii gegessen😃😌 Und nein, ich habe kein Bild. Es tut mir Leid, ich habe mein Handy einfach vergessen. Erst fand ich es wirklich schlimm, aber dann ist mir klar geworden: Wie komisch ist es denn sein Essen hauptsächlich genießen zu können, weil man es davor fotografiert hat und es so danach nochmal anschauen kann? Ich habe diese Pizza für mich gegessen, weil ich sie unglaublich lecker fand und das ist okay. Ich muss niemanden ein Bild der "perfekten" Pizza zeigen. Ewig das Essen herzurichten, damit es ja perfekt ist, ist für mich einfach auch nicht normal. Essen muss nicht hübsch aus sehen, ihr esst es für euch und wenn es euch schmeckt, ist das Aussehen völlig egal❤ Kämpft weiter!🤗 Lynn❄ #recovery #recovering #recoveryisworthit #anorexia #edrecovery #minniemaud #food #foodporn #anorexiarecovery

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I changed my whole perspective.
My whole thinking is now down to earth. 
I am pure.
I am unconditional.
My heart belongs to the ocean.
My heart belongs to the jungle.
My heart belongs to earth.
The western lifestyle didn’t suit me.
I felt like not fitting in.
Right now I feel home.
I feel save and I feel grounded.
I feel like someone allowed me to go home. 
To feel fulfilled and completed.
I am not planning.
Life is a flow that we need to follow.
Like a surfer catches the wave.
Catch your wave and ride her.
Go within.
Try and let the universe guide you.
Trust in the power and process.
Trust in you.

I changed my whole perspective. My whole thinking is now down to earth. I am pure. I am unconditional. My heart belongs to the ocean. My heart belongs to the jungle. My heart belongs to earth. The western lifestyle didn’t suit me. I felt like not fitting in. Right now I feel home. I feel save and I feel grounded. I feel like someone allowed me to go home. To feel fulfilled and completed. I am not planning. Life is a flow that we need to follow. Like a surfer catches the wave. Catch your wave and ride her. Go within. Try and let the universe guide you. Trust in the power and process. Trust in you.

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С 95 до 45 
Я была стройным ребёнком, но когда мне было 7, мой отец ушёл от нас и после этого я начала очень много есть и набирать вес. И вот уже в 10 мой вес 70, а в 13 - 95 🙄 постоянные издевки, обзывательства, унижения, когда проходила по коридору школы, кто-нибудь мог крикнуть вслед :«нихрена какая жирна, как тебя земля носит, жиробас, свинья и тп».. даже учителя могли назвать жирной. Потом началось время эмо, челкастых и неформалов. Попав под это влияние, ко мне начали относится ещё хуже. Самое противное, что в самый трудный период в жизни, от меня отвернулись родители...
Продолжения в следующих постах 🐾
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#трудности#жизнь#история#мойпуть#блог#детство#любовь#похудение#анорексия#допосле#жир#вес#диеты#спорт#diet#live#life#anorexiarecovery#anorexia#recovery#strong#mood#blog#sport

С 95 до 45 Я была стройным ребёнком, но когда мне было 7, мой отец ушёл от нас и после этого я начала очень много есть и набирать вес. И вот уже в 10 мой вес 70, а в 13 - 95 🙄 постоянные издевки, обзывательства, унижения, когда проходила по коридору школы, кто-нибудь мог крикнуть вслед :«нихрена какая жирна, как тебя земля носит, жиробас, свинья и тп».. даже учителя могли назвать жирной. Потом началось время эмо, челкастых и неформалов. Попав под это влияние, ко мне начали относится ещё хуже. Самое противное, что в самый трудный период в жизни, от меня отвернулись родители... Продолжения в следующих постах 🐾 • • • #трудности #жизнь #история #мойпуть #блог #детство #любовь #похудение #анорексия #допосле #жир #вес #диеты #спорт #diet #live #life #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #recovery #strong #mood #blog #sport

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Quick breakfast this morning :) do you see that peanut butter melt 😍🥜
I found yesterday a lot of new insight into my situation/my thoughts and feelings, and got really motivated to do some changes :) Feeling really optimistic right now :)
Have a great day :)

Quick breakfast this morning :) do you see that peanut butter melt 😍🥜 I found yesterday a lot of new insight into my situation/my thoughts and feelings, and got really motivated to do some changes :) Feeling really optimistic right now :) Have a great day :)

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Dinner: 4 SPRING ROLLS! With about a tbsp of homemade peanut sauce 😋 lots of studying calls for lots of energy, and when eating lighter foods like this that means more volume AND THAT'S OK!
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The past few days have been extremely stressful with exams tomorrow and next week. It also doesn't help that I forgot my fluoxetine a few times lol 😂 anyway, the stress that I won't do

Dinner: 4 SPRING ROLLS! With about a tbsp of homemade peanut sauce 😋 lots of studying calls for lots of energy, and when eating lighter foods like this that means more volume AND THAT'S OK! • The past few days have been extremely stressful with exams tomorrow and next week. It also doesn't help that I forgot my fluoxetine a few times lol 😂 anyway, the stress that I won't do "good enough" has been a major ED trigger and today has been difficult. • Whenever I feel like i'm not good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, etc, my first thought is always that it's because i'm "fat". I always seem to think I was worthier and smarter at my lowest weight. And while that makes total sense in my head, and I still completely feel like I looked better severely underweight, their is technically NO WAY I could have been smarter when I was so malnourished. • I did an entire project on the cognitive implications of starvation and malnourishment, so I know quite well that it results in a decrease in white and grey matter in the brain. That makes it more difficult to focus, remember things, and it just makes you less intelligent overall. So WHY do I feel like I would be SMARTER in that state? • No, my exams would NOT have gone better at that weight. And quite frankly, they will go quite well now. I know I am as prepared as I can b, even though the next week will still be an extreme challenge. • #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #edfighter #selfcare #balance #progress #prorecovery #eatittobeatit #recoveryisworthit #babysteps #recoveryoverrelapse #recovery #recoverywin #nourishnotpunish #foodisfuel #foodismedicine #foodisnottheenemy #springrolls #saladrolls

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I haven’t been posting recently because I had unfortunately fallen into a bit of a relapse but I am happy to say that I am doing much better! :) Today I really go back on track and tried my hardest to eat all my meals and snacks. It was really really hard to eat today and I wanted to go back to relapsing but I knew I couldn’t. Relapsing won’t get you anywhere. Your eating disorder will never be satisfied. They trick us into thinking that if we restrict and lose weight we will be happy but we won’t. We will be sad and cold and empty. No matter how hard it is you need to keep fighting cause recovery is so so so worth it. Yes it’s hard and yes you will want to give up but it is so much better then living your life controlled by that voice inside your head •
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#healthynothungry #healthynotskinny #nutricion #nutritionmatters #nutritiousanddelicious #nourishyourbody #fuelyourbody #foodisfuel #foodismedicine #edrecovery #edfam #ednos #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #youareworthit #youareloved

I haven’t been posting recently because I had unfortunately fallen into a bit of a relapse but I am happy to say that I am doing much better! :) Today I really go back on track and tried my hardest to eat all my meals and snacks. It was really really hard to eat today and I wanted to go back to relapsing but I knew I couldn’t. Relapsing won’t get you anywhere. Your eating disorder will never be satisfied. They trick us into thinking that if we restrict and lose weight we will be happy but we won’t. We will be sad and cold and empty. No matter how hard it is you need to keep fighting cause recovery is so so so worth it. Yes it’s hard and yes you will want to give up but it is so much better then living your life controlled by that voice inside your head • • • #healthynothungry #healthynotskinny #nutricion #nutritionmatters #nutritiousanddelicious #nourishyourbody #fuelyourbody #foodisfuel #foodismedicine #edrecovery #edfam #ednos #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #youareworthit #youareloved

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As we come into the weekend, I wanted to say a couple things about self-care- not the lavish bubble bath kind, although that’s great, more of the eating regularly, sleeping enough, setting boundaries, etc. I work with my clients to develop self-care routines that feel nourishing to them, whether that’s for physical or mental health (or all the shades of gray in between). It can be really hard to develop strategies for taking care of yourself when you’ve spent years at war with your body. Something that frequently comes up in these conversations is people not wanting to prioritize their needs (which, side note, if you don’t do it no one will!)
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One thing I hear frequently is “but this makes me different”. Whether it’s a college student needing more sleep or someone having to ask for breaks at work, advocating for yourself can sometimes mean doing things differently than your peers/friends/coworkers/family. I would challenge you to think about that a little bit differently. First, we can’t compare our needs to other people’s. They’re always going to be different! Maybe they’ve figured out what works for them and they’re just living their life. Or maybe they haven’t! And maybe they are still trying to figure it out too, in which case they might really need an example of what good self-care looks like. You never have to feel guilty because you’ve figured out what taking care of yourself looks like and chances are, there’s someone in your life who could learn from you.
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How are you planning on taking care of yourself this weekend?

As we come into the weekend, I wanted to say a couple things about self-care- not the lavish bubble bath kind, although that’s great, more of the eating regularly, sleeping enough, setting boundaries, etc. I work with my clients to develop self-care routines that feel nourishing to them, whether that’s for physical or mental health (or all the shades of gray in between). It can be really hard to develop strategies for taking care of yourself when you’ve spent years at war with your body. Something that frequently comes up in these conversations is people not wanting to prioritize their needs (which, side note, if you don’t do it no one will!) 💫💫 One thing I hear frequently is “but this makes me different”. Whether it’s a college student needing more sleep or someone having to ask for breaks at work, advocating for yourself can sometimes mean doing things differently than your peers/friends/coworkers/family. I would challenge you to think about that a little bit differently. First, we can’t compare our needs to other people’s. They’re always going to be different! Maybe they’ve figured out what works for them and they’re just living their life. Or maybe they haven’t! And maybe they are still trying to figure it out too, in which case they might really need an example of what good self-care looks like. You never have to feel guilty because you’ve figured out what taking care of yourself looks like and chances are, there’s someone in your life who could learn from you. 🌟🌟🌟 How are you planning on taking care of yourself this weekend?

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Good morning 🌞
My mom is basically putting me in a bad mood every day.

It’s her thing now.

I am gaining ( which is hard for me mentally) and she keeps saying that I don’t do enough, that I’m loosing weight.

To be honest, the whole situation just really upsets me. I’m working so hard and turns out that I’m literally doing “nothing”. Make me wanna give up.

Anyway, doesn’t meter.

I hope that your morning is a lot better than mine💓
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#ed #ana #anafighter #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #edfighter #anorexic #strongnotskinny #edwarrior #recovering #fooddiary #gainingweightisworthit #foodisfuel #eatittobeatit #body #heal #recoveryforlife #livealife #nourishyourself  #ed #bestrong #recovery #sushi #dessert #food #foodporn #mousse #healthy #recipe #cake

Good morning 🌞 My mom is basically putting me in a bad mood every day. It’s her thing now. I am gaining ( which is hard for me mentally) and she keeps saying that I don’t do enough, that I’m loosing weight. To be honest, the whole situation just really upsets me. I’m working so hard and turns out that I’m literally doing “nothing”. Make me wanna give up. Anyway, doesn’t meter. I hope that your morning is a lot better than mine💓 . . #ed #ana #anafighter #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #edfighter #anorexic #strongnotskinny #edwarrior #recovering #fooddiary #gainingweightisworthit #foodisfuel #eatittobeatit #body #heal #recoveryforlife #livealife #nourishyourself #ed #bestrong #recovery #sushi #dessert #food #foodporn #mousse #healthy #recipe #cake

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Welcome to 2019 lovely’s. I’m hoping this year I will be able to start developing a great Instagram and share my journey through my life, showing my art through makeup, mental health/recovery and much more. I love social media, BUT I will be showing you the raw me no fake bullshit! Eventually I am wanting to make a YouTube channel but I might need a bit more encouragement. I see it’s not easy but I shall work my hardest. So many exciting things this year. The past few years have been hell and this year will not be easy but I want to share it with you and support anyone in anyway I can. I want to help people and have this account where anyone can come and get support or even if you need a distraction I will be doing some fun things to my instagram. 
So stay tuned! - S xx
#artthroughmakeup #makeup #mentalheath #recovery #fashion #lgbt #supportpage #travel #anorexiarecovery #follow #like #staytuned #staypositive

Welcome to 2019 lovely’s. I’m hoping this year I will be able to start developing a great Instagram and share my journey through my life, showing my art through makeup, mental health/recovery and much more. I love social media, BUT I will be showing you the raw me no fake bullshit! Eventually I am wanting to make a YouTube channel but I might need a bit more encouragement. I see it’s not easy but I shall work my hardest. So many exciting things this year. The past few years have been hell and this year will not be easy but I want to share it with you and support anyone in anyway I can. I want to help people and have this account where anyone can come and get support or even if you need a distraction I will be doing some fun things to my instagram. So stay tuned! - S xx #artthroughmakeup #makeup #mentalheath #recovery #fashion #lgbt #supportpage #travel #anorexiarecovery #follow #like #staytuned #staypositive

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I'm not quite sure what possessed me to make these at midnight when I should be sleeping, buttt I present to you, Advice From My Cats🐱🖤

I'm not quite sure what possessed me to make these at midnight when I should be sleeping, buttt I present to you, Advice From My Cats🐱🖤

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Buongiorno a tutti☀️
Oggi per me niente scuola e so giá, che mi annoieró tantissimo a casa 🏠 ma vabbe 🤷🏻‍♀️ Stamattina colazione amata, con pancarrè e marmellata e il mio adorato latte🥛 caldo, che con questo freddo🥶 serve proprio!  #ana #recovery #recoverywin #siamopiufortinoi🏆 #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anoressia #anoressiaitalia #freedom #likesforlike #likes #liker #likelike #follow #waltdisney #icecream #a #healthyfood #healthy #healthyrecipes  #cafe #healthylifestyle #food #foodporn #foodblogger #foodie #plasmon #milkandhoney  #followers #likes #fitness

Buongiorno a tutti☀️ Oggi per me niente scuola e so giá, che mi annoieró tantissimo a casa 🏠 ma vabbe 🤷🏻‍♀️ Stamattina colazione amata, con pancarrè e marmellata e il mio adorato latte🥛 caldo, che con questo freddo🥶 serve proprio! #ana #recovery #recoverywin #siamopiufortinoi🏆 #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anoressia #anoressiaitalia #freedom #likesforlike #likes #liker #likelike #follow #waltdisney #icecream #a #healthyfood #healthy #healthyrecipes #cafe #healthylifestyle #food #foodporn #foodblogger #foodie #plasmon #milkandhoney #followers #likes #fitness

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Heyy, my real name isn’t ginger 21 years old. Hobbies include: not eating, thinking about food, eating then hating myself, rinse and repeat. It never ends. Vegan, gluten free, sugar free. I just want to shrink.  #anorexia #eatingdissorder #fat #anorexicgirl #anonymous #sohungry #bones #thinspiraton #wintergirls #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecovery #help

Heyy, my real name isn’t ginger 21 years old. Hobbies include: not eating, thinking about food, eating then hating myself, rinse and repeat. It never ends. Vegan, gluten free, sugar free. I just want to shrink. #anorexia #eatingdissorder #fat #anorexicgirl #anonymous #sohungry #bones #thinspiraton #wintergirls #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiarecovery #help

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Tea time: today, I purchased a pair of jeans in my healthy size. They’re still slightly big on me and that’s okay because I know as I continue the restoration process I’ll grow into them. I’m telling myself that as much as this scares me, it’s a good thing. It means I’m willing to get to where I need to be. (Though I can wear them and I’m wearing these jeans tomorrow as a body image challenge. It will be the first time I’ve worn jeans in the month and a half I’ve been in treatment). Cheers to recovery #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder

Tea time: today, I purchased a pair of jeans in my healthy size. They’re still slightly big on me and that’s okay because I know as I continue the restoration process I’ll grow into them. I’m telling myself that as much as this scares me, it’s a good thing. It means I’m willing to get to where I need to be. (Though I can wear them and I’m wearing these jeans tomorrow as a body image challenge. It will be the first time I’ve worn jeans in the month and a half I’ve been in treatment). Cheers to recovery #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder

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#lunch was homemade hummus sandwich with salad on this beaut day in the mountain!
I’m so lucky I live by the sea and mountains 😍  #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #nourishtoflourish #edrecovery #anorexiawarrior

#lunch was homemade hummus sandwich with salad on this beaut day in the mountain! I’m so lucky I live by the sea and mountains 😍 #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #nourishtoflourish #edrecovery #anorexiawarrior

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Xanax for dinner😸 I’m definitely a junk food anorexic, I ate two cow tails today- 220 calories, and I shared a bag of cheezets with my boyfriend-410 calories but I only ate half, and uh my calorie free high off my drugs for dinner yay. I’m just getting more sick #anorexia #ana #anorexiarecovery #anorexianerviosa #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #depressed #depression #drugaddict #suicidal #foodporn #dinner

Xanax for dinner😸 I’m definitely a junk food anorexic, I ate two cow tails today- 220 calories, and I shared a bag of cheezets with my boyfriend-410 calories but I only ate half, and uh my calorie free high off my drugs for dinner yay. I’m just getting more sick #anorexia #ana #anorexiarecovery #anorexianerviosa #bulimia #bulimiarecovery #depressed #depression #drugaddict #suicidal #foodporn #dinner

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Walked into Target today and was greeted with a display full of workout equipment, weight loss nonsense and new years resolution journals.
It triggered me at first - should I be engaging in this shit again? Everyone else seems to be, I thought.
Started browsing through the displays and realized I was starting to act on a trigger and walked away.
That isn't my life anymore - obsessed with shrinking myself and setting unrealistic resolutions on New Years.
I may have a long way to go in recovery, but I have also come SO  far. And I need to acknowledge that more. 💜

Walked into Target today and was greeted with a display full of workout equipment, weight loss nonsense and new years resolution journals. It triggered me at first - should I be engaging in this shit again? Everyone else seems to be, I thought. Started browsing through the displays and realized I was starting to act on a trigger and walked away. That isn't my life anymore - obsessed with shrinking myself and setting unrealistic resolutions on New Years. I may have a long way to go in recovery, but I have also come SO far. And I need to acknowledge that more. 💜

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breakfast after my bone doctor appointment (lol that sounds like a subtler way to say dick appointment)!! They didn't replace my cast which is annoying because this one hurts my fingers but oh well, this was scary and so was having a drink with it but Opposite action.

breakfast after my bone doctor appointment (lol that sounds like a subtler way to say dick appointment)!! They didn't replace my cast which is annoying because this one hurts my fingers but oh well, this was scary and so was having a drink with it but Opposite action.

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So grateful for the support I have from my mom and dad and boyfriend.💕 They always encourage me and celebrate the tiny victories with me.😍 even if it’s something as small as finishing a whole meal.🌮 I’m so blessed and I thank god everyday for all of them.✨
#grateful #mom #dad #boyfriend #positivevibes #goodvibes #positivequotes #starteachdaywithagratefulheart #support #love #lovethem #family #friends #recovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisordersurvivor #anorexiarecovery #fuckeatingdisorders #bulimiarecovery

So grateful for the support I have from my mom and dad and boyfriend.💕 They always encourage me and celebrate the tiny victories with me.😍 even if it’s something as small as finishing a whole meal.🌮 I’m so blessed and I thank god everyday for all of them.✨ #grateful #mom #dad #boyfriend #positivevibes #goodvibes #positivequotes #starteachdaywithagratefulheart #support #love #lovethem #family #friends #recovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisordersurvivor #anorexiarecovery #fuckeatingdisorders #bulimiarecovery

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Today was okay. Got triggered at lunch at school though. My friend hasn’t been eating lunch recently, and breakfast. And when she does have lunch she has 2 chips. I want to let one of her family members know because I’m worried about her. I’m afraid she might be going through the same thing as I am. Even if she isn’t she still needs to eat. Anyways, my dad is going to be leaving again soon.Which is fine because at least he has a job. So happy tomorrow is Friday.
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#anorexiarecovery #edwarrior #eatingdisorderrecovery #fdoe #foodisfuel #mentalhealth #selflove #fearfood #eatittobeatit #food #flexitarian #realrecovery #nourishtoflourish #recoverywin #ana #fuckanorexia #anawarrior #recoveryisworthit #anasoldier #edsoldier #beatingana

Today was okay. Got triggered at lunch at school though. My friend hasn’t been eating lunch recently, and breakfast. And when she does have lunch she has 2 chips. I want to let one of her family members know because I’m worried about her. I’m afraid she might be going through the same thing as I am. Even if she isn’t she still needs to eat. Anyways, my dad is going to be leaving again soon.Which is fine because at least he has a job. So happy tomorrow is Friday. . Everyday you’re able to wake up should be a sign that you’re worth living 💭 . . . #anorexiarecovery #edwarrior #eatingdisorderrecovery #fdoe #foodisfuel #mentalhealth #selflove #fearfood #eatittobeatit #food #flexitarian #realrecovery #nourishtoflourish #recoverywin #ana #fuckanorexia #anawarrior #recoveryisworthit #anasoldier #edsoldier #beatingana

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It’s really hard to not beat yourself up when you see everyone on social media flourishing (careers, babies, world travel). That’s because I screwed it up for myself. I let disordered eating and crippling insecurity control my life to the point I was scared to leave home and do anything risky.
I was bullied as a little girl. I believe that’s what triggered my ED and crippling insecurity. Now I have to see people, who made my life hell, living their best life as I play catch up.
But I’m gonna love this body. I’m going to be somebody. I might be slower but I don’t want the bullies from my childhood and the bullies in my head to win. I want to love each curve and start living my life.
#eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #bullying #stopbullying #mentalhealthawareness #recovery #bodypositivity #insecuritywillkillyou #letstalkmentalhealth #osfedrecovery #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #ednosrecovery #growth #adulting

It’s really hard to not beat yourself up when you see everyone on social media flourishing (careers, babies, world travel). That’s because I screwed it up for myself. I let disordered eating and crippling insecurity control my life to the point I was scared to leave home and do anything risky. I was bullied as a little girl. I believe that’s what triggered my ED and crippling insecurity. Now I have to see people, who made my life hell, living their best life as I play catch up. But I’m gonna love this body. I’m going to be somebody. I might be slower but I don’t want the bullies from my childhood and the bullies in my head to win. I want to love each curve and start living my life. #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #bullying #stopbullying #mentalhealthawareness #recovery #bodypositivity #insecuritywillkillyou #letstalkmentalhealth #osfedrecovery #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #ednosrecovery #growth #adulting

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Hello!!
Right now im drinking a protein shake and i ate a bit which is good because i feel myself slowly relapsing but its alright. In 7th period we were talking about suicide and of course i didnt want to answer because all i heard that suicide is selfish and all that but some kids tried to defend it and i didn't want to be selfish i just cant help but feeling this way my mom had it my grandma had it and so on. Long story short i cried when the teacher wanted to talk to me alone but thank god my friend was there because she gives the best hugs. Oh if you guys chould help me understand why i feel like im wearing a mask? Like it can break any second or why i feel like im being pushed?
Well thats all have a wonderful day 👋❤ .
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#anoreixa #deppression #selfharm #recovery #recoveryisworthit #recoveryjourney #recoverytime #growing #recoveryihardbutworthit #recoverywarriors #recovering #recoveryworks #recoverytime #recoveryjourney #recoveryispossible #recoveryishard #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealth #mentalhealthwarrior #fuckdepression #deppressionkills #depressionsucks #depressionwarrior #selfharmrecovery #stopselfharm #selfharmaddiction #anorexiarecovery #anorexianerviosa #anorexiafighter #anorexianevrosa

Hello!! Right now im drinking a protein shake and i ate a bit which is good because i feel myself slowly relapsing but its alright. In 7th period we were talking about suicide and of course i didnt want to answer because all i heard that suicide is selfish and all that but some kids tried to defend it and i didn't want to be selfish i just cant help but feeling this way my mom had it my grandma had it and so on. Long story short i cried when the teacher wanted to talk to me alone but thank god my friend was there because she gives the best hugs. Oh if you guys chould help me understand why i feel like im wearing a mask? Like it can break any second or why i feel like im being pushed? Well thats all have a wonderful day 👋❤ . . . . . . . . . . . . #anoreixa #deppression #selfharm #recovery #recoveryisworthit #recoveryjourney #recoverytime #growing #recoveryihardbutworthit #recoverywarriors #recovering #recoveryworks #recoverytime #recoveryjourney #recoveryispossible #recoveryishard #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalhealth #mentalhealthwarrior #fuckdepression #deppressionkills #depressionsucks #depressionwarrior #selfharmrecovery #stopselfharm #selfharmaddiction #anorexiarecovery #anorexianerviosa #anorexiafighter #anorexianevrosa

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That girl over there may be beautiful but that doesn't mean you're not! #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #kartiniclinic

That girl over there may be beautiful but that doesn't mean you're not! #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #kartiniclinic

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🇬🇧 Day 17: Pages/ groups/ sites that help

Both associations offer plenty of services.

The first one helps for chronic pain, and the second for ED. (Links at the end) 🇫🇷 jour 17: pages/groupes/ sites qui aident

Les 2 organismes offrent plein de services. Le premier aide pour la douleur chronique, le second pour les TCA.
(Liens à la fin)

https://douleurchronique.org
https://anebquebec.com 🚂🚂🚂🚂🚂🚂🚂🚂🚂
#lupus #lupusrecovery #luousawareness #invisibleillness #chronicillness #maladiechronique #lupuswarrior #anafight #anarecovery #anarecovering #anorexiarecovering #anorexieguerison #anorexiarecovery #tcaguerison #edrecovering #edrecovery

🇬🇧 Day 17: Pages/ groups/ sites that help Both associations offer plenty of services. The first one helps for chronic pain, and the second for ED. (Links at the end) 🇫🇷 jour 17: pages/groupes/ sites qui aident Les 2 organismes offrent plein de services. Le premier aide pour la douleur chronique, le second pour les TCA. (Liens à la fin) https://douleurchronique.org https://anebquebec.com 🚂🚂🚂🚂🚂🚂🚂🚂🚂 #lupus #lupusrecovery #luousawareness #invisibleillness #chronicillness #maladiechronique #lupuswarrior #anafight #anarecovery #anarecovering #anorexiarecovering #anorexieguerison #anorexiarecovery #tcaguerison #edrecovering #edrecovery

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This week has been busy—or more so, I’ve been not so great at taking pauses at work
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I’ve learned over the last few months that I need little breaks throughout the day—a trip to the water cooler, checking in with a coworker
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Here’s what my break looked like on Tuesday ⤴️
This book is definitely one of my faves! It has such good tips on how to move away from diet culture, self hatred, and move towards self-compassion and nourishing your body. Ya girl also loves a good cuppa ☕️
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This week has been busy—or more so, I’ve been not so great at taking pauses at work 🖥 🛋 I’ve learned over the last few months that I need little breaks throughout the day—a trip to the water cooler, checking in with a coworker 🗣 Here’s what my break looked like on Tuesday ⤴️ This book is definitely one of my faves! It has such good tips on how to move away from diet culture, self hatred, and move towards self-compassion and nourishing your body. Ya girl also loves a good cuppa ☕️ • • • #therapy #therapist #mentalhealthcounselor #selfcare #selfcompassion #edrecovery #recoverywarrior #edwarrior #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #bingeeatingdisorderrecovery #bingeeatingrecovery #treatpeoplewithkindness #bodykindness #bodypositivity #bopo #haes #intuitiveeating #intuitivemovement

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This was so easy - today marks another calorie increase. I'm beginning to realise it takes a lot to gain weight. 
The saying goes 'But first Coffee' mine now goes 'But first Food' 😆
7mths now of NO eating disorder behaviors 🤗 although some may say counting calories and having to measure food is but that is part of my recovery - to make sure I'm in a calorie surplus and not in a calorie deficit. My macro counting is to make sure I'm eating enough carbs, fats and protein and not restricting on fats or carbs etc.

This was so easy - today marks another calorie increase. I'm beginning to realise it takes a lot to gain weight. The saying goes 'But first Coffee' mine now goes 'But first Food' 😆 7mths now of NO eating disorder behaviors 🤗 although some may say counting calories and having to measure food is but that is part of my recovery - to make sure I'm in a calorie surplus and not in a calorie deficit. My macro counting is to make sure I'm eating enough carbs, fats and protein and not restricting on fats or carbs etc.

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Well I spent 4 and a half hours at the dentist getting a root canal today. Apparently mine was really difficult😭. The anesthetic wore off and my mouth is killing me. I can’t eat anything solid because biting down hurts so bad. It makes me frustrated because in some ways it feels like did this to myself. But my illness did. This dental fiasco has cemented a reason why engaging in my eating disorder just isn’t worth it. You can’t pick and choose what impacts on your life and health your ED is going to have. Like permanently screwing your teeth and hair falling out, or growing a fur coat (hello lanugo my old friend), or not being able to shit, or having no sex drive, or bloating up like a pufferfish, and the list goes on. Unglamorous AF. The media and even just the general attitude of people towards EDs like to glamorize eating disorders. Some people ignorantly envy anorexia and bulimia, and there are some who even WANT to have it like the misguided people behind pro-ana/pro-mia/thinspo accounts and websites. They glorify the weight loss aspect and ignore the rest. They see skinniness on the outside and desire it while blind to the literal decay going on inside. They don’t see the absolute misery of being trapped in a cycle that’s killing you but not being able to stop and hating yourself for it. They don’t see the partners who leave you because they can’t handle the rollercoaster of your illness anymore. They don’t see the screaming fights and estrangement of family. They don’t see your ambitions and life goals slowly being replaced by a horrific obsession with being thin and living a double life, or your grades and job suffering as a result. It angers me to no end that somebody could make light out of it and objectify it for vanity. Eating disorders are not a diet. They’re mental illnesses with terrible physical consequences. I honestly wouldn’t wish having one on my worst enemy. That says something, because as we’ve established, I’ve got some repressed anger issues.

Well I spent 4 and a half hours at the dentist getting a root canal today. Apparently mine was really difficult😭. The anesthetic wore off and my mouth is killing me. I can’t eat anything solid because biting down hurts so bad. It makes me frustrated because in some ways it feels like did this to myself. But my illness did. This dental fiasco has cemented a reason why engaging in my eating disorder just isn’t worth it. You can’t pick and choose what impacts on your life and health your ED is going to have. Like permanently screwing your teeth and hair falling out, or growing a fur coat (hello lanugo my old friend), or not being able to shit, or having no sex drive, or bloating up like a pufferfish, and the list goes on. Unglamorous AF. The media and even just the general attitude of people towards EDs like to glamorize eating disorders. Some people ignorantly envy anorexia and bulimia, and there are some who even WANT to have it like the misguided people behind pro-ana/pro-mia/thinspo accounts and websites. They glorify the weight loss aspect and ignore the rest. They see skinniness on the outside and desire it while blind to the literal decay going on inside. They don’t see the absolute misery of being trapped in a cycle that’s killing you but not being able to stop and hating yourself for it. They don’t see the partners who leave you because they can’t handle the rollercoaster of your illness anymore. They don’t see the screaming fights and estrangement of family. They don’t see your ambitions and life goals slowly being replaced by a horrific obsession with being thin and living a double life, or your grades and job suffering as a result. It angers me to no end that somebody could make light out of it and objectify it for vanity. Eating disorders are not a diet. They’re mental illnesses with terrible physical consequences. I honestly wouldn’t wish having one on my worst enemy. That says something, because as we’ve established, I’ve got some repressed anger issues.

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✨Fecha:18/01/19✨ 🍃 DESAYUNO 🍃
Hora:10.08
🥞Panqueques de avena y plátano
🍌Plátano sancochado (comí algunos)
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🌸ALMUERZO🌸
Hora:2.00
🍗Pechuga de pollo hervida
🍲 Frejol panamito hervido
🍳1clara
🥗Ensalada de pepino
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🌱MERIENDA🌱
Hora:6.00
🍌Plátano sancochado
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🍁CENA🍁
Hora:8.50
🍗Pollo
🍲Frejol
🍳1clara
🍌2rodajas de plátano sancochado

Hoy me sentí re kk por comer el pinshe bananito sancochado ;-;, agh, odio esto, ya que estoy bien pndeja por obsesionarme y sentirme tan mal por comer algo tan rico y que nisiquiera fue una exageración, pero es parte de esta recuperación y alv, se puede!, No sé rindan bbs <3
#recoveryispossible #anorexiarecovery #eatforlife #warrioranorexia #tca #anorexiafight #fooddiary #recoveryishard #foodstagram #eatforhealth

✨Fecha:18/01/19✨ 🍃 DESAYUNO 🍃 Hora:10.08 🥞Panqueques de avena y plátano 🍌Plátano sancochado (comí algunos) . 🌸ALMUERZO🌸 Hora:2.00 🍗Pechuga de pollo hervida 🍲 Frejol panamito hervido 🍳1clara 🥗Ensalada de pepino . 🌱MERIENDA🌱 Hora:6.00 🍌Plátano sancochado . 🍁CENA🍁 Hora:8.50 🍗Pollo 🍲Frejol 🍳1clara 🍌2rodajas de plátano sancochado Hoy me sentí re kk por comer el pinshe bananito sancochado ;-;, agh, odio esto, ya que estoy bien pndeja por obsesionarme y sentirme tan mal por comer algo tan rico y que nisiquiera fue una exageración, pero es parte de esta recuperación y alv, se puede!, No sé rindan bbs <3 #recoveryispossible #anorexiarecovery #eatforlife #warrioranorexia #tca #anorexiafight #fooddiary #recoveryishard #foodstagram #eatforhealth

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My body has changed dramatically over the past few years. It didn’t just go from emaciated to healthy overnight - the change happened day after day, week after week and month after month, so many smaller changes that most people would barely notice as they are happening. 
But I noticed. Every kilogram I put on, every dress size up, every piece of clothing that I had to toss because I had outgrown it... it seemed like a nightmare that would never end. Because I see myself getting bigger before my own eyes and I HATED IT. After all of those years starving myself I was giving up on being skinny just like that? I felt like the biggest quitter. 
And yet I kept going - for my parents, my siblings, my friends and my pets, because for some reason my weight gain had the opposite effect on them. They kept saying ‘you look so much healthier’ with so much joy in their voices that I knew I couldn’t let them down. Even though I hated what was happening to my body. Even though I was ashamed. 
I don’t know when I started accepting that maybe my new body wasn’t so bad after all. Maybe it was when I started roller skating and horse riding again, or when I was cleared to go back to school. Maybe it was when I started focussing on what my body could do rather than its size. 
Weight gain is perhaps THE HARDEST part about recovery, because it goes against everything Anorexia has been telling you for months. But trust me - if you want to live your life, there’s no way around it. Gaining weight is just part of regaining your life, because as your body gets bigger, so does your happiness, your choices and your entire world basically!

Because you know what that weight does? It protects your organs, allows you to grow more muscle and gives you energy to thrive in life. Sure, it looks scary at first, but NEED it. And only Anorexia will tell you otherwise (ps she’s a bitch, so don’t listen to her anyway). You’re worthy, no matter your size. 🌻❤️🌻❤️

My body has changed dramatically over the past few years. It didn’t just go from emaciated to healthy overnight - the change happened day after day, week after week and month after month, so many smaller changes that most people would barely notice as they are happening. But I noticed. Every kilogram I put on, every dress size up, every piece of clothing that I had to toss because I had outgrown it... it seemed like a nightmare that would never end. Because I see myself getting bigger before my own eyes and I HATED IT. After all of those years starving myself I was giving up on being skinny just like that? I felt like the biggest quitter. And yet I kept going - for my parents, my siblings, my friends and my pets, because for some reason my weight gain had the opposite effect on them. They kept saying ‘you look so much healthier’ with so much joy in their voices that I knew I couldn’t let them down. Even though I hated what was happening to my body. Even though I was ashamed. I don’t know when I started accepting that maybe my new body wasn’t so bad after all. Maybe it was when I started roller skating and horse riding again, or when I was cleared to go back to school. Maybe it was when I started focussing on what my body could do rather than its size. Weight gain is perhaps THE HARDEST part about recovery, because it goes against everything Anorexia has been telling you for months. But trust me - if you want to live your life, there’s no way around it. Gaining weight is just part of regaining your life, because as your body gets bigger, so does your happiness, your choices and your entire world basically! Because you know what that weight does? It protects your organs, allows you to grow more muscle and gives you energy to thrive in life. Sure, it looks scary at first, but NEED it. And only Anorexia will tell you otherwise (ps she’s a bitch, so don’t listen to her anyway). You’re worthy, no matter your size. 🌻❤️🌻❤️

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Hello everybody 🤗❤️
Here you can see yesterday's creamy dinner ☺️ (dm me if you are interested in the recipe) *
How are you? 🌹
I would say I feel semi good...
At the moment the atmosphere isn't that good at home...I suffer under school pressure because of an exam in maths... I'm overwhelmed what I could do after my graduation and think that my dreams won't come true (going abroad)... and my body does not function yet how it should (

Hello everybody 🤗❤️ Here you can see yesterday's creamy dinner ☺️ (dm me if you are interested in the recipe) * How are you? 🌹 I would say I feel semi good... At the moment the atmosphere isn't that good at home...I suffer under school pressure because of an exam in maths... I'm overwhelmed what I could do after my graduation and think that my dreams won't come true (going abroad)... and my body does not function yet how it should ("girl problem", yk)... This all makes me worry a lot and my mood isn't pretty good 😔 * Well, hard times are normal and better ones will come! I should try to think positive and change negative thoughts to good ones (how my therapist taught me 😌☝🏼) ✨ I'm so thankful for my grandmother 😍 Today she invited me to eat at her home so that I can calm down a little bit, distract me from all the stress and talk to her about whatever I want ❤️ I enjoyed the time with her and dinner was yummy 😋 (Grazie, Piniii ❣️😘) * Now I'm snacking on bittersweet chocolate and pistachios while learning maths... 📚🙄😂 Well, keep going, my loves 😚💙 * Show will, fight and get happy again 😘🌹🤗 * #RecoveryIsWorthIt #proRecovery #fuckana #recovery #anorexiarecovery #EDFighter #strongNotSkinny #recovery #EatToBeatIt #edRecovery #EatingDisorderRecovery #ed #eatingdisorder #edwarrior #beatana #anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #edfam #realrecovery #RecoveryWin #food #2fab4ana #anawho #recoveryfood #foodblog #nourishnotpunish #risotto #vegan #balance #veggie #healthy #Italianfood

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My favourite recovery quote. This keeps me going on the hardest days 💞

My favourite recovery quote. This keeps me going on the hardest days 💞

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