tryingtorecover #tryingtorecover Instagram Hashtag

The music I am giving you on this album is nothing but my best! I tapped into a side of me I never thought I had and I couldn’t of done it without the real support of my family, friends and fans, this is my everything. Trying to Recover drops at  midnight 💔 #tryingtorecover #nerdofficial #mixingengineer  #Rapper #Singer #Artist #Hiphopmusic #hiphop #Rap #rapper #Trap #trapmusic #808s #hitmaker #songwriter #musicproducer #Producer #Mixing #Mastering #itunes #Spotify #applemusic #Tidal #Googleplaymusic #Newmusic #december #2018 #Engineer #newhiphop #albumoftheyear

The music I am giving you on this album is nothing but my best! I tapped into a side of me I never thought I had and I couldn’t of done it without the real support of my family, friends and fans, this is my everything. Trying to Recover drops at midnight 💔 #tryingtorecover #nerdofficial #mixingengineer #Rapper #Singer #Artist #Hiphopmusic #hiphop #Rap #rapper #Trap #trapmusic #808s #hitmaker #songwriter #musicproducer #Producer #Mixing #Mastering #itunes #Spotify #applemusic #Tidal #Googleplaymusic #Newmusic #december #2018 #Engineer #newhiphop #albumoftheyear

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🍦 snap: laura20u 🏀
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Вот лежу не диване думаю написать там пост как все 😂😂и понимаю ,что я не умею 🤪мож НАУЧИТЕ⁉️
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#gothicmakeup #stunning #mujeres #barefeet #giantess #snownose #foottattoo #usemycode #tryingtorecover #tagged

🍦 snap: laura20u 🏀 . . Вот лежу не диване думаю написать там пост как все 😂😂и понимаю ,что я не умею 🤪мож НАУЧИТЕ⁉️ . . . . . #gothicmakeup #stunning #mujeres #barefeet #giantess #snownose #foottattoo #usemycode #tryingtorecover #tagged

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For my newer followers, I thought I'd re introduce myself with a little update too. So I'm a babyface tryer, not had periods for 5 years, recovering from anorexia which had taken 3 years of my periods away (other 2 years, I had the implant) and told by professionals I might never be able to have babies after the damage I've caused. I am in the bestest part of recovery atm, and really close to being my lowest healthy BMI weight! My whole recovery has been focused on the fact my body will be baby ready! I genuinely feel disgusted I might have taken my opportunity away and it's exhausting going for all the hormone tests, ultrasounds and bone tests however that's baby making for you. Mental health is an absolute bitch! I can't wait to become a mummy of my very own football team! 'If you can't be a home for one, how are you going to be a home for two' best quote someone ever said to me❤

For my newer followers, I thought I'd re introduce myself with a little update too. So I'm a babyface tryer, not had periods for 5 years, recovering from anorexia which had taken 3 years of my periods away (other 2 years, I had the implant) and told by professionals I might never be able to have babies after the damage I've caused. I am in the bestest part of recovery atm, and really close to being my lowest healthy BMI weight! My whole recovery has been focused on the fact my body will be baby ready! I genuinely feel disgusted I might have taken my opportunity away and it's exhausting going for all the hormone tests, ultrasounds and bone tests however that's baby making for you. Mental health is an absolute bitch! I can't wait to become a mummy of my very own football team! 'If you can't be a home for one, how are you going to be a home for two' best quote someone ever said to me❤

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🍺 Add my Snapchat: laura20u 🏂
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мне хочется крепко обнять тех, кто понимает меня в каждой моей строчке.
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#bossbabe #canadianblogger #positive #wshh #gucci #daughters #lashgame #lifequotes #getinmybelly #weights #fitness #whorepaint #cantwaitfortomorrow #tryingtorecover

🍺 Add my Snapchat: laura20u 🏂 . . мне хочется крепко обнять тех, кто понимает меня в каждой моей строчке. . . . . . #bossbabe #canadianblogger #positive #wshh #gucci #daughters #lashgame #lifequotes #getinmybelly #weights #fitness #whorepaint #cantwaitfortomorrow #tryingtorecover

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im sorry that i will never be good enough for you. i will never be good enough for anyone anyways. sorry to disappoint.. #suicidal #depression #depressed #alone #lost #notjustsad #depressedquote #alone #selfharm #tryingtorecover #worthless #broken #heartbreak #heartbroken #anxiety

im sorry that i will never be good enough for you. i will never be good enough for anyone anyways. sorry to disappoint.. #suicidal #depression #depressed #alone #lost #notjustsad #depressedquote #alone #selfharm #tryingtorecover #worthless #broken #heartbreak #heartbroken #anxiety

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🌈 Add my Snapchat: kapo7oo 🍜
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Тебе нужно понравиться его родителям, дабы предотвратить сложности в отношениях.
Это мой список деталей, возможно вам это пригодится и вы воспользуетесь этим постом❤️
1️⃣ ПУНКТУАЛЬНОСТЬ. Если ты часто куда-то опаздываешь, то тут ты просто не можешь опоздать😱 Это выделяет уважение и серьёзность к встрече с родителями.
2️⃣ СДЕРЖАННОСТЬ. Не стоит спорить или же высказывать критику против родни. Вам же лучше😄
3️⃣ОПРЯТНОСТЬ. Покажите свою женственность и аккуратность. Приберите волосы заколками.
4️⃣ ПРИЛИЧИЕ. Не нужно обжиматься с парнем на глазах у родителей. Предложи в чём-то помочь
5️⃣РЕЧЬ. Постарайся не использовать слова паразиты. «Короче, пипец, омг, мда...»
6️⃣НЕ ИДИ С ПУСТЫМИ РУКАМИ. Это первый день вашего знакомства. Тут нужно произвести впечатление. Купи что-то к столу. Торт, конфеты, фрукты.
7️⃣ МАКИЯЖ. Тут главное не переборщить. Легкость, блеск в глазах и сияющая кожа то, что надо.
8️⃣ ОСТАВАЙСЯ СОБОЙ. Не будь зажатой и не жди вопроса в свою сторону, чтобы хоть что-то рассказать. Будь общительна!
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#nofilter #left #themostbeautifulgirlintheworld #streetphotography #feel #instalove #hörnyrn #ijustwannabestrong #details #instamom #tryingtorecover #basicallytwins #puppies #gymnastics #moderndistribution #germany #tbt #redhairdontcare #americanbully #fashioninspo

🌈 Add my Snapchat: kapo7oo 🍜 . . Тебе нужно понравиться его родителям, дабы предотвратить сложности в отношениях. Это мой список деталей, возможно вам это пригодится и вы воспользуетесь этим постом❤️ 1️⃣ ПУНКТУАЛЬНОСТЬ. Если ты часто куда-то опаздываешь, то тут ты просто не можешь опоздать😱 Это выделяет уважение и серьёзность к встрече с родителями. 2️⃣ СДЕРЖАННОСТЬ. Не стоит спорить или же высказывать критику против родни. Вам же лучше😄 3️⃣ОПРЯТНОСТЬ. Покажите свою женственность и аккуратность. Приберите волосы заколками. 4️⃣ ПРИЛИЧИЕ. Не нужно обжиматься с парнем на глазах у родителей. Предложи в чём-то помочь 5️⃣РЕЧЬ. Постарайся не использовать слова паразиты. «Короче, пипец, омг, мда...» 6️⃣НЕ ИДИ С ПУСТЫМИ РУКАМИ. Это первый день вашего знакомства. Тут нужно произвести впечатление. Купи что-то к столу. Торт, конфеты, фрукты. 7️⃣ МАКИЯЖ. Тут главное не переборщить. Легкость, блеск в глазах и сияющая кожа то, что надо. 8️⃣ ОСТАВАЙСЯ СОБОЙ. Не будь зажатой и не жди вопроса в свою сторону, чтобы хоть что-то рассказать. Будь общительна! . . . . . #nofilter #left #themostbeautifulgirlintheworld #streetphotography #feel #instalove #hörnyrn #ijustwannabestrong #details #instamom #tryingtorecover #basicallytwins #puppies #gymnastics #moderndistribution #germany #tbt #redhairdontcare #americanbully #fashioninspo

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🍞 Snapchat: carot2w 😻
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Хорошая погодка = хорошее настроение 😊
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#cewek #nofilter #hot #currentlywearing #tryingtorecover #bodybuildingmotivation

🍞 Snapchat: carot2w 😻 . . Хорошая погодка = хорошее настроение 😊 . . . . . #cewek #nofilter #hot #currentlywearing #tryingtorecover #bodybuildingmotivation

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Just listening to some good old sound📻📻📻📻......#listeningtomusic #tryingtorecover #fluseason #goodnightworld #loveuall😘 #besafe

Just listening to some good old sound📻📻📻📻......#listeningtomusic #tryingtorecover #fluseason #goodnightworld #loveuall😘 #besafe

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I got a college letter in the mail today and I don’t have the energy to attempt to even act like I’m interested or that I see myself in college.
You can see the indents where I was trying to stop myself.
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#depression #depressed #sorry #sorry #suicidal #selfharm #selfhate #sad #sadness #hurt #notgoodenough #ihatemyself #brokeninside #killmenow #killmeease #selfdesruction #cutting #scars #fat #anorexia #hurtingmyself #igly #cuts #suicide #iwanttodie #tryingtorecover #tryingtogetbetter #worthless #insane

I got a college letter in the mail today and I don’t have the energy to attempt to even act like I’m interested or that I see myself in college. You can see the indents where I was trying to stop myself. • • • • • • • • • • #depression #depressed #sorry #sorry #suicidal #selfharm #selfhate #sad #sadness #hurt #notgoodenough #ihatemyself #brokeninside #killmenow #killmeease #selfdesruction #cutting #scars #fat #anorexia #hurtingmyself #igly #cuts #suicide #iwanttodie #tryingtorecover #tryingtogetbetter #worthless #insane

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I ended up binging and purging after a week of fasting I'm such a failure, '-' I'm disgusting 
My mum was a bitch all day she stresses me out , I know she is mentally ill but I can't help her anymore she is getting worse , she hurts me and I'm not strong enough to take it , I'm just depressed and tired , food makes me feel better , it's chocolate cream wafers and 2 cheese slices , I didn't manage to purge it all and I just don't care , I've accepted that I'm fat , and I'll fast again , tomorrow I'll just drink water. 
#binging#binge#bingepurge#bulimia#bulimic#eatingdisorder#ednos#overeating#imgross#ihatemyself#iwanttodie#failure#pain#anxiety#bulma#tryingtorecover#bingefood#fearfood#depressed#depression#killme#purging

I ended up binging and purging after a week of fasting I'm such a failure, '-' I'm disgusting My mum was a bitch all day she stresses me out , I know she is mentally ill but I can't help her anymore she is getting worse , she hurts me and I'm not strong enough to take it , I'm just depressed and tired , food makes me feel better , it's chocolate cream wafers and 2 cheese slices , I didn't manage to purge it all and I just don't care , I've accepted that I'm fat , and I'll fast again , tomorrow I'll just drink water. #binging #binge #bingepurge #bulimia #bulimic #eatingdisorder #ednos #overeating #imgross #ihatemyself #iwanttodie #failure #pain #anxiety #bulma #tryingtorecover #bingefood #fearfood #depressed #depression #killme #purging

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Snowpocalypse 2018 Update: ☃️🤣☃️👐☃️😂☃️
The greatest adventure of this whole thing.....taking out the trash

I am from this land yet not of it. 
This was determined by the way I shoveled the snow from my porch to the area around my trash can. 
Some folks almost intuitively shovel snow away from areas they may need to access later. 
Not this chick. 
Instead of making the trash can accessible, I chose to add snow all the way around it, creating a waist deep wall of snow that I had to shovel out this afternoon. 
This is a metaphor for my past life. 
At least I wore my bibs and coat.... Is it spring yet? 
#snowmageddon #snowpocalypse #carharrt #tryingtorecover #winsome #losesome #maybenotthebrightest #makingnewmistakes #laughingatmyself

Snowpocalypse 2018 Update: ☃️🤣☃️👐☃️😂☃️ The greatest adventure of this whole thing.....taking out the trash I am from this land yet not of it. This was determined by the way I shoveled the snow from my porch to the area around my trash can. Some folks almost intuitively shovel snow away from areas they may need to access later. Not this chick. Instead of making the trash can accessible, I chose to add snow all the way around it, creating a waist deep wall of snow that I had to shovel out this afternoon. This is a metaphor for my past life. At least I wore my bibs and coat.... Is it spring yet? #snowmageddon #snowpocalypse #carharrt #tryingtorecover #winsome #losesome #maybenotthebrightest #makingnewmistakes #laughingatmyself

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Sometime''s🔊🎸🕺Noisy
 #mumbaistreets #clublife #tryingtorecover 
#mumbaimerijaan #dancefloor

Sometime''s🔊🎸🕺Noisy #mumbaistreets #clublife #tryingtorecover #mumbaimerijaan #dancefloor

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🍥 Find me on Snapchat: kapo7oo 🍷
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На днях попробовала кофе ☕️ от  и что я хочу сказать... это божественно 🤤 Я выбрала ETHIOPIA Sidamo (фруктово-шоколадный мягкий вкус, аромат стойкий с фруктовыми нотками и цитрусовым акцентом). У них очень много видов, так что заходи и выбирай кофе на свой вкус 😉 Доставка на дом и по всей Украине! 🇺🇦
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#photographer #lingerie #justbeauty #followme #foot #fitgirl #berlin #makemoments #nofilter #bodybuilding #lookoftheday #heartonyoursleeve #hottie #girlswhotattoo #tryingtorecover #zaralarsson

🍥 Find me on Snapchat: kapo7oo 🍷 . . На днях попробовала кофе ☕️ от и что я хочу сказать... это божественно 🤤 Я выбрала ETHIOPIA Sidamo (фруктово-шоколадный мягкий вкус, аромат стойкий с фруктовыми нотками и цитрусовым акцентом). У них очень много видов, так что заходи и выбирай кофе на свой вкус 😉 Доставка на дом и по всей Украине! 🇺🇦 . . . . . #photographer #lingerie #justbeauty #followme #foot #fitgirl #berlin #makemoments #nofilter #bodybuilding #lookoftheday #heartonyoursleeve #hottie #girlswhotattoo #tryingtorecover #zaralarsson

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I LOVE how i used to look!😍
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Hey ya'll a little update you probably werent waiting for but here it is anyways!
I'm actually feeling very sad right now. My boyfriend just went home and I feel like I slipping back into this depressed thingy (and I jut got out of it for a day). I did have an amazing weekend. We went shopping and I ate more food than normal (which in regret as hell😓). I also just can't stop thinking right now. Some things happened this weekend that just messed my head up, cuz I can't stand change.
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This week is gonna be hard, I already know this now. Tomorrow I have appointment with my coach at school and I don't like her at all. It's about the progress I'm making, which is non because of this dumb school I'm on. But we gotta look at this positive, that's what I'm trying anyway! 😄💕
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I LOVE how i used to look!😍 - - - Hey ya'll a little update you probably werent waiting for but here it is anyways! I'm actually feeling very sad right now. My boyfriend just went home and I feel like I slipping back into this depressed thingy (and I jut got out of it for a day). I did have an amazing weekend. We went shopping and I ate more food than normal (which in regret as hell😓). I also just can't stop thinking right now. Some things happened this weekend that just messed my head up, cuz I can't stand change. - - This week is gonna be hard, I already know this now. Tomorrow I have appointment with my coach at school and I don't like her at all. It's about the progress I'm making, which is non because of this dumb school I'm on. But we gotta look at this positive, that's what I'm trying anyway! 😄💕 - - - #recovery #restart #emo #skirt #emogirl #fightdepression #tryingtorecover #worth #loved #positivity #change #betterme #tw #hurt #sad #imokay #headphones #lovethislook

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Fe fe fe fe fe felafel😍
#dinner was the last 3 I had 😣, bread and veggies!
I'm still surprised to see how clever my body is. Today I've eaten lots of food that was high in volume but relatively low or normal in calories. And now I've reached for the lowest-volume highest-calorie foods I had available and smashed them😛
#ed #edrecovery #orthorexia #fuckyouana #roadtorecovery #food #tryingtorecover #iwillbeatthis #eatingdisorderrecovery #foodie #weightdoesntmatter #vegetarian #selflove #eatingdisorder #vegan #veganfood

Fe fe fe fe fe felafel😍 #dinner was the last 3 I had 😣, bread and veggies! I'm still surprised to see how clever my body is. Today I've eaten lots of food that was high in volume but relatively low or normal in calories. And now I've reached for the lowest-volume highest-calorie foods I had available and smashed them😛 #ed #edrecovery #orthorexia #fuckyouana #roadtorecovery #food #tryingtorecover #iwillbeatthis #eatingdisorderrecovery #foodie #weightdoesntmatter #vegetarian #selflove #eatingdisorder #vegan #veganfood

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if i tell them they leave and i dont want them to leave... one of my friends saw my cuts on my arms and now... its like shes scared of me... why do i always fuck everything up? #suicidal #depression #depressed #alone #lost #notjustsad #depressedquote #alone #selfharm #tryingtorecover #worthless #broken #heartbreak #heartbroken #anxiety

if i tell them they leave and i dont want them to leave... one of my friends saw my cuts on my arms and now... its like shes scared of me... why do i always fuck everything up? #suicidal #depression #depressed #alone #lost #notjustsad #depressedquote #alone #selfharm #tryingtorecover #worthless #broken #heartbreak #heartbroken #anxiety

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i just need someone to look me in the eyes, hold me, and tell me its going to be ok. that they can get me away from this house and these people without me getting hurt. #suicidal #depression #depressed #alone #lost #notjustsad #depressedquote #alone #selfharm #tryingtorecover #worthless #broken #heartbreak #heartbroken #anxiety

i just need someone to look me in the eyes, hold me, and tell me its going to be ok. that they can get me away from this house and these people without me getting hurt. #suicidal #depression #depressed #alone #lost #notjustsad #depressedquote #alone #selfharm #tryingtorecover #worthless #broken #heartbreak #heartbroken #anxiety

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ive been broken down these past couple days. i cant do anything or talk to anyone about it except my school counselor and now im pretty much screwed because i told her almost everything. which means she is going to tell my parents.... and for that ill have to pay the price... #suicidal #depression #depressed #alone #lost #notjustsad #depressedquote #alone #selfharm #tryingtorecover #worthless #broken #heartbreak #heartbroken #anxiety

ive been broken down these past couple days. i cant do anything or talk to anyone about it except my school counselor and now im pretty much screwed because i told her almost everything. which means she is going to tell my parents.... and for that ill have to pay the price... #suicidal #depression #depressed #alone #lost #notjustsad #depressedquote #alone #selfharm #tryingtorecover #worthless #broken #heartbreak #heartbroken #anxiety

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#lunch : white sweet potato, tofu, Brussels sprouts, salad and a yellow kiwi!
Good thing: i have discovered that microwaving tofu makes it taste and look like chicken.
Bad thing: I've eaten way too many sprouts and I feel like vomiting 🤢
The only thing that kept me alive was a coffee 😂
How is your Sunday going?
#ed #edrecovery #orthorexia #fuckyouana #roadtorecovery #food #tryingtorecover #iwillbeatthis #eatingdisorderrecovery #foodie #weightdoesntmatter #vegetarian #selflove #eatingdisorder #vegan #veganfood

#lunch : white sweet potato, tofu, Brussels sprouts, salad and a yellow kiwi! Good thing: i have discovered that microwaving tofu makes it taste and look like chicken. Bad thing: I've eaten way too many sprouts and I feel like vomiting 🤢 The only thing that kept me alive was a coffee 😂 How is your Sunday going? #ed #edrecovery #orthorexia #fuckyouana #roadtorecovery #food #tryingtorecover #iwillbeatthis #eatingdisorderrecovery #foodie #weightdoesntmatter #vegetarian #selflove #eatingdisorder #vegan #veganfood

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Yesterdays #lunch was rice with #vegetables 🥦 
todays a quite good day🎵 I ate a lot if healthy food but still reached my calorie goal ^^ i feel so much better 'cause i was eating a lot of shit the last days and I think my body kinda recognized that. I'm still going to eat my Ice cream today don't get me wrong, but i will try making healthier food choices throughout the day❤#anorexia #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #ed #eatingdisorder #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiawarrior #fightinganorexia #beatanorexia #nourishtoflourish #edwarrior #recovery #tryingtorecover #tryingmybest #staystrong #food #eating #recoveryisworthit #mentalillness #weightgain #healthy #health #positivity #eatittobeati

Yesterdays #lunch was rice with #vegetables 🥦 todays a quite good day🎵 I ate a lot if healthy food but still reached my calorie goal ^^ i feel so much better 'cause i was eating a lot of shit the last days and I think my body kinda recognized that. I'm still going to eat my Ice cream today don't get me wrong, but i will try making healthier food choices throughout the day❤#anorexia #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #ed #eatingdisorder #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiawarrior #fightinganorexia #beatanorexia #nourishtoflourish #edwarrior #recovery #tryingtorecover #tryingmybest #staystrong #food #eating #recoveryisworthit #mentalillness #weightgain #healthy #health #positivity #eatittobeati

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Made yesterdays #nightsnack to a #benandjerrys #pintparty 🍦🎉 it was so chocolately and delicious omg xD my sister came to visit me and my parents and we want to bake some biscuits... i don't know how to feel about this tbh. I sure want to make further progress and spend time with my familiy but my depression is just killing me rn. #anorexia #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #ed #eatingdisorder #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiawarrior #fightinganorexia #beatanorexia #nourishtoflourish #edwarrior #recovery #tryingtorecover #tryingmybest #staystrong #food #eating #recoveryisworthit #mentalillness #weightgain #healthy #health #positivity #eatittobeati

Made yesterdays #nightsnack to a #benandjerrys #pintparty 🍦🎉 it was so chocolately and delicious omg xD my sister came to visit me and my parents and we want to bake some biscuits... i don't know how to feel about this tbh. I sure want to make further progress and spend time with my familiy but my depression is just killing me rn. #anorexia #anorexianervosa #anorexiarecovery #ed #eatingdisorder #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiawarrior #fightinganorexia #beatanorexia #nourishtoflourish #edwarrior #recovery #tryingtorecover #tryingmybest #staystrong #food #eating #recoveryisworthit #mentalillness #weightgain #healthy #health #positivity #eatittobeati

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After 2 days of not running, in an attempt to rest my shin, I got on the tread for 3 easy going miles.
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Oh and you will see this #runmatchy again in the near future! Rumor has it.. there’s a special pair of Nikes under the tree for me! 🤩🥳🤫
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#livelifefit #livelifehappy #beawesometoday #beatyesterday #getonyourmarq #OYMambassador #procompressionambassador #hshive #stingorbeestung #garminfitness #treadmill #dreadmill #shinsplints #tryingtorecover #runnergirl #runnersofinstagram #runnersworld #running #runforfun #runhappy #harderbetterfasterstronger #socal #sandiego #almostchristmas #fashionrunner #matchymatchy #fitnessfriday

After 2 days of not running, in an attempt to rest my shin, I got on the tread for 3 easy going miles. • Sad to report there was still quite a bit of discomfort. • On the bright side of things.. it was more of a noticeable irritation, as opposed to being painfully crippling, like it’s been in the past. So there’s that! 🙌🏼😄 • Oh and you will see this #runmatchy again in the near future! Rumor has it.. there’s a special pair of Nikes under the tree for me! 🤩🥳🤫 . . . . . . . . . . #livelifefit #livelifehappy #beawesometoday #beatyesterday #getonyourmarq #OYMambassador #procompressionambassador #hshive #stingorbeestung #garminfitness #treadmill #dreadmill #shinsplints #tryingtorecover #runnergirl #runnersofinstagram #runnersworld #running #runforfun #runhappy #harderbetterfasterstronger #socal #sandiego #almostchristmas #fashionrunner #matchymatchy #fitnessfriday

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#brightsaturdaymorning that I don’t turn off my alarm and go out for #autumnbreeze #tryingtorecover (or more like #preparingforupcomingthings ) #beingbusyisgood #hypnotizingmyself 
요즘 왜그러는지 모르지만 그냥 속상한 느낌만 느껴 ㅠㅠ #가을이때문에 
最近韓国語使わないので忘れちゃた。言おうとしたが全て日本語で言う(泣)

#brightsaturdaymorning that I don’t turn off my alarm and go out for #autumnbreeze #tryingtorecover (or more like #preparingforupcomingthings ) #beingbusyisgood #hypnotizingmyself 요즘 왜그러는지 모르지만 그냥 속상한 느낌만 느껴 ㅠㅠ #가을이때문에 最近韓国語使わないので忘れちゃた。言おうとしたが全て日本語で言う(泣)

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I BAKED😍 I missed this feeling so much! I've gotten the recipe for this chestnut pie and tried to make it myself, can't wait to see what it tastes like!
#ed #edrecovery #orthorexia #fuckyouana #roadtorecovery #food #tryingtorecover #iwillbeatthis #eatingdisorderrecovery #foodie #weightdoesntmatter #vegetarian #selflove #eatingdisorder

I BAKED😍 I missed this feeling so much! I've gotten the recipe for this chestnut pie and tried to make it myself, can't wait to see what it tastes like! #ed #edrecovery #orthorexia #fuckyouana #roadtorecovery #food #tryingtorecover #iwillbeatthis #eatingdisorderrecovery #foodie #weightdoesntmatter #vegetarian #selflove #eatingdisorder

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Guys, I LIED! 
I lied to you guys that I don’t regret choosing recovery, but I am, at least, right now. 
This afternoon I stepped on the scale and honestly I was freaked out when I looked at the numbers. I started to ask myself whether I’m taking recovery as an excuse to eat more or not. 
But I’m trying to tell myself one thing: Some of my crucial body functions are still off and I need recovery to “turn them on” 
I hope that tomorrow will be a better day... Sorry guys, it’s been an emotional day for me, and recovery is not always painted in pink... i have to be honest with myself, and you guys... #emotionalthoughts #eatingdisorderrecovery #lifefreedom #selfloveisimportant #finland #suomi #tryingtorecover #ibelieveicandoit

Guys, I LIED! I lied to you guys that I don’t regret choosing recovery, but I am, at least, right now. This afternoon I stepped on the scale and honestly I was freaked out when I looked at the numbers. I started to ask myself whether I’m taking recovery as an excuse to eat more or not. But I’m trying to tell myself one thing: Some of my crucial body functions are still off and I need recovery to “turn them on” I hope that tomorrow will be a better day... Sorry guys, it’s been an emotional day for me, and recovery is not always painted in pink... i have to be honest with myself, and you guys... #emotionalthoughts #eatingdisorderrecovery #lifefreedom #selfloveisimportant #finland #suomi #tryingtorecover #ibelieveicandoit

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#lunch : pasta, pesto and tofu!
I've left 5 rigatoni but I'm still proud, I mixed tofu and pasta and pesto was a fear food till today, plus I've eaten a pear and a dried plum, so it's ok😪
I'm so happy, I'm craving lots of fruit and have it fearlessly 😍
#ed #edrecovery #orthorexia #fuckyouana #roadtorecovery #food #tryingtorecover #iwillbeatthis #eatingdisorderrecovery #foodie #weightdoesntmatter #vegetarian #selflove #eatingdisorder #vegan #veganfood

#lunch : pasta, pesto and tofu! I've left 5 rigatoni but I'm still proud, I mixed tofu and pasta and pesto was a fear food till today, plus I've eaten a pear and a dried plum, so it's ok😪 I'm so happy, I'm craving lots of fruit and have it fearlessly 😍 #ed #edrecovery #orthorexia #fuckyouana #roadtorecovery #food #tryingtorecover #iwillbeatthis #eatingdisorderrecovery #foodie #weightdoesntmatter #vegetarian #selflove #eatingdisorder #vegan #veganfood

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december is always the hardest month for me, idk why but my depression kicks in real hard and so do my anxiety and my eating habits.
December to me feels like my body and soul have completely given up and if i had a chance i would end up doing something really stupid. idk.
[i don't own this picture credit to the owner, pls contact me if it's your pic and you're not comfortable with this🖤]
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#notproana #unhealthy #thin #skinny #thinspo #ihatemylife #ihateana #exercise #lowcalorie #weightloss #recovery #ed #tryingtoloseweight #tryingtobehealthy #tryingtorecover #mentalhealth #brokenheart #broken #brokengirl #tired #bodygoals #prettygirls #beautiful #inspiration

december is always the hardest month for me, idk why but my depression kicks in real hard and so do my anxiety and my eating habits. December to me feels like my body and soul have completely given up and if i had a chance i would end up doing something really stupid. idk. [i don't own this picture credit to the owner, pls contact me if it's your pic and you're not comfortable with this🖤] • • • #notproana #unhealthy #thin #skinny #thinspo #ihatemylife #ihateana #exercise #lowcalorie #weightloss #recovery #ed #tryingtoloseweight #tryingtobehealthy #tryingtorecover #mentalhealth #brokenheart #broken #brokengirl #tired #bodygoals #prettygirls #beautiful #inspiration

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😌 Snapchat: kapo7oo 🍲
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Хочешь такое же платье?🤫 Заходи  Товар постепенно загружается😘
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#chilena #sunset #nycblogger #prettycitylondon #unhas #louisiana #royalsnappingartists #strongissexy #workout #tryingtorecover #wbffpro #food #outfitoftheday #kingmurdock

😌 Snapchat: kapo7oo 🍲 . . Хочешь такое же платье?🤫 Заходи Товар постепенно загружается😘 . . . . . #chilena #sunset #nycblogger #prettycitylondon #unhas #louisiana #royalsnappingartists #strongissexy #workout #tryingtorecover #wbffpro #food #outfitoftheday #kingmurdock

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Trigger Warning: 
I just want to end things right now. I can't take it anymore, my life's just repeatedly going downhill and I've had enough. I've been on this earth for too long. I always swore I'd never make it to my 16th birthday and maybe I won't make it. Let's hope I don't make it, am I right? 
#triggerwarning #suicidalthoughts #suicide #cutting #selfharm #noteworthit #imuseless #impathetic #ihatemyself #imnotworthit #wasteofspace #tryingtorecover #tryingtogetmylifeback #depressed #deppression #depressionsucks

Trigger Warning: I just want to end things right now. I can't take it anymore, my life's just repeatedly going downhill and I've had enough. I've been on this earth for too long. I always swore I'd never make it to my 16th birthday and maybe I won't make it. Let's hope I don't make it, am I right? #triggerwarning #suicidalthoughts #suicide #cutting #selfharm #noteworthit #imuseless #impathetic #ihatemyself #imnotworthit #wasteofspace #tryingtorecover #tryingtogetmylifeback #depressed #deppression #depressionsucks

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It's been forever since I posted I'm sorry. I haven't been doing good with my diets and exercise. During Christmas break I'm gonna hit the diets and exercise hard! 
#skinny #thin #ana #mia #anorexicrecovery #tryingtorecover #diet #calorieintake #notproana #notpromia #notproanything

It's been forever since I posted I'm sorry. I haven't been doing good with my diets and exercise. During Christmas break I'm gonna hit the diets and exercise hard! #skinny #thin #ana #mia #anorexicrecovery #tryingtorecover #diet #calorieintake #notproana #notpromia #notproanything

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Since I decided to restart this account i thought it would nice to introduce myself!
I'm Jane (not my real name but I prefer to go by that), 17 years old and I live in The Netherlands. My hobby's are drawing, listening to music and spending time with my boyfriend. I'm just trying to live my life with my depression, anxiety, pddnos and all the problems that I'm facing. I have the feeling that there is more wrong with me but that's all that's confirmed by doctors. You can always dm me if something is wrong or if you just want to talk. I can't promise I can help but I do listen to you♡
You guys can follow me if you want to follow my journey, but I can't promise it will be exciting.
#recovery #restart #emo #skirt #emogirl #fightdepression #tryingtorecover #worth #loved #positivity #change #betterme #tw #hurt #sad #imokay #christmas #black

Since I decided to restart this account i thought it would nice to introduce myself! I'm Jane (not my real name but I prefer to go by that), 17 years old and I live in The Netherlands. My hobby's are drawing, listening to music and spending time with my boyfriend. I'm just trying to live my life with my depression, anxiety, pddnos and all the problems that I'm facing. I have the feeling that there is more wrong with me but that's all that's confirmed by doctors. You can always dm me if something is wrong or if you just want to talk. I can't promise I can help but I do listen to you♡ You guys can follow me if you want to follow my journey, but I can't promise it will be exciting. #recovery #restart #emo #skirt #emogirl #fightdepression #tryingtorecover #worth #loved #positivity #change #betterme #tw #hurt #sad #imokay #christmas #black

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This might sound ridiculous to someone but for me it's a huge #recoverywin that I'm having a bean burger with bread for #dinner after a day of pizza, chocolate and junky stuff at school 😂
#ed #edrecovery #orthorexia #fuckyouana #roadtorecovery #food #tryingtorecover #iwillbeatthis #eatingdisorderrecovery #foodie #weightdoesntmatter #vegetarian #selflove #eatingdisorder #vegan #veganfood

This might sound ridiculous to someone but for me it's a huge #recoverywin that I'm having a bean burger with bread for #dinner after a day of pizza, chocolate and junky stuff at school 😂 #ed #edrecovery #orthorexia #fuckyouana #roadtorecovery #food #tryingtorecover #iwillbeatthis #eatingdisorderrecovery #foodie #weightdoesntmatter #vegetarian #selflove #eatingdisorder #vegan #veganfood

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i've been super down lately i didn't even have the guts to post :( my mental health (especially my depression) is really spiraling out of control, i haven't showered in like a week but i'm working on coming back :)
[i don't own this picture credit to the owner, pls contact me if it's your pic and you're not comfortable with this🖤]
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i've been super down lately i didn't even have the guts to post :( my mental health (especially my depression) is really spiraling out of control, i haven't showered in like a week but i'm working on coming back :) [i don't own this picture credit to the owner, pls contact me if it's your pic and you're not comfortable with this🖤] • • • #notproana #unhealthy #thin #skinny #thinspo #ihatemylife #ihateana #exercise #lowcalorie #weightloss #recovery #ed #tryingtoloseweight #tryingtobehealthy #tryingtorecover #mentalhealth #brokenheart #broken #brokengirl #tired #bodygoals #prettygirls #beautiful #inspiration

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*Not me in photo*

*Not me in photo*

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4 total treadmill miles... still walking off the hip injury 😔 For some reason, my #garminfenix5s only lets me calibrate one treadmill workout a day 😢 so my cool down mileage is incorrect.

4 total treadmill miles... still walking off the hip injury 😔 For some reason, my #garminfenix5s only lets me calibrate one treadmill workout a day 😢 so my cool down mileage is incorrect.

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I've been missing a lot of school because of my brother he works from 2am until like 10am - 3pm but he doesn't let his wife keep the car to take me and his son to school,  like do you not give a fuck? I do my part in the household which is take out the trash and take care of the animals now do your part which is take me to school or get me a damn laptop so I can at least do some of my classes online when you're unable to take me.

I've been missing a lot of school because of my brother he works from 2am until like 10am - 3pm but he doesn't let his wife keep the car to take me and his son to school, like do you not give a fuck? I do my part in the household which is take out the trash and take care of the animals now do your part which is take me to school or get me a damn laptop so I can at least do some of my classes online when you're unable to take me.

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This was taken yesterday but i wanted to let you know I went to a Japanese restaurant and had sushi and lots of fried veggies amd spring rolls and dessert 😍
#ed #edrecovery #orthorexia #fuckyouana #roadtorecovery #food #tryingtorecover #iwillbeatthis #eatingdisorderrecovery #foodie #weightdoesntmatter #vegetarian #selflove #eatingdisorder

This was taken yesterday but i wanted to let you know I went to a Japanese restaurant and had sushi and lots of fried veggies amd spring rolls and dessert 😍 #ed #edrecovery #orthorexia #fuckyouana #roadtorecovery #food #tryingtorecover #iwillbeatthis #eatingdisorderrecovery #foodie #weightdoesntmatter #vegetarian #selflove #eatingdisorder

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Yuuuuummm! Look at what we got yesterday 🤤😍 And I ate about 1or maybe a little more (couldn't decide which flavour I want so we got many and all shared them) But I did not binge on 12donuts or completely refuse to try some. That's what I used to do (and still do waaaay too often), have none or have like 123456cals. There's nothing in between 😂. These donuts were so dann good. I was never really into donuts (prefer brownies or cake or whatever) but these were amazing!
And I didn't look up the calories 💪 
Aaaand I'm two days b/p free, which is the longest since like july I guess 🤔
Not long but it's a start... Frohen Nikolaustag 💕
Enjoy your day and get yourself some chocolate!

#donuts #treat #foodporn #fearfood #christmastreat #christmas #yummy #anorexiarecovery #anorexianerviosa #bulimiarecovery #bulimianervosa #borderline #bingepurge #edrecovery #edwarrior #eatingdisorder #eatittobeatit #eatingdisorderrecovery #recoveryisworthit #sweettreat #keepgoing #keepfighting #selflove #worthit #worthrecovery #psycho #weihnachten #tryingtorecover #whatareyoufightingfor

Yuuuuummm! Look at what we got yesterday 🤤😍 And I ate about 1or maybe a little more (couldn't decide which flavour I want so we got many and all shared them) But I did not binge on 12donuts or completely refuse to try some. That's what I used to do (and still do waaaay too often), have none or have like 123456cals. There's nothing in between 😂. These donuts were so dann good. I was never really into donuts (prefer brownies or cake or whatever) but these were amazing! And I didn't look up the calories 💪 Aaaand I'm two days b/p free, which is the longest since like july I guess 🤔 Not long but it's a start... Frohen Nikolaustag 💕 Enjoy your day and get yourself some chocolate! #donuts #treat #foodporn #fearfood #christmastreat #christmas #yummy #anorexiarecovery #anorexianerviosa #bulimiarecovery #bulimianervosa #borderline #bingepurge #edrecovery #edwarrior #eatingdisorder #eatittobeatit #eatingdisorderrecovery #recoveryisworthit #sweettreat #keepgoing #keepfighting #selflove #worthit #worthrecovery #psycho #weihnachten #tryingtorecover #whatareyoufightingfor

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I really hoped my  Christmas present to my Fiancé this year was going to be a little more sentimental and loving.... something that will bring love and joy, something we have been longing for... something that I could love unconditionally... but the possibilities are V.V.slim and that makes me so sad.  #ttc #ttccommunity #ttccommunity #ttcsupport #ttcsisters #tryingtoconceive #tryingtorecover #recoveryforfamily #babyfever #babyboy #babygirl #pregnant #pregnancy #periodproblems #babybump #recovery #tryingtobestrong #edrecovery #adviceplease #babydreaming #tryingtoconceivecommunity #firstbaby #strengthinnumbers #baby

I really hoped my Christmas present to my Fiancé this year was going to be a little more sentimental and loving.... something that will bring love and joy, something we have been longing for... something that I could love unconditionally... but the possibilities are V.V.slim and that makes me so sad.  #ttc #ttccommunity #ttccommunity #ttcsupport #ttcsisters #tryingtoconceive #tryingtorecover #recoveryforfamily #babyfever #babyboy #babygirl #pregnant #pregnancy #periodproblems #babybump #recovery #tryingtobestrong #edrecovery #adviceplease #babydreaming #tryingtoconceivecommunity #firstbaby #strengthinnumbers #baby

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im done. i am so fucking done. cruel world just let me leave. im sick of everyones games and saying that they care when really they dont give a shit. i wish people were honest and would tell me the truth for once... #suicidal #depression #depressed #alone #lost #notjustsad #depressedquote #alone #selfharm #tryingtorecover #worthless #broken #heartbreak #heartbroken #anxiety

im done. i am so fucking done. cruel world just let me leave. im sick of everyones games and saying that they care when really they dont give a shit. i wish people were honest and would tell me the truth for once... #suicidal #depression #depressed #alone #lost #notjustsad #depressedquote #alone #selfharm #tryingtorecover #worthless #broken #heartbreak #heartbroken #anxiety

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i am and always will be nothing, to everyone. i just want to be someone, and be another persons first choice. is that so hard to ask for? #suicidal #depression #depressed #alone #lost #notjustsad #depressedquote #alone #selfharm #tryingtorecover #worthless #broken #heartbreak #heartbroken #anxiety

i am and always will be nothing, to everyone. i just want to be someone, and be another persons first choice. is that so hard to ask for? #suicidal #depression #depressed #alone #lost #notjustsad #depressedquote #alone #selfharm #tryingtorecover #worthless #broken #heartbreak #heartbroken #anxiety

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... so much for that. i thought i was getting better, you know? but then i went back to that awful hell that i have to call

... so much for that. i thought i was getting better, you know? but then i went back to that awful hell that i have to call "home" and i remembered that no one wanted me. i swallowed so many pills today.... i cant take it anymore. #suicidal #depression #depressed #alone #lost #notjustsad #depressedquote #alone #selfharm #tryingtorecover #worthless #broken #heartbreak #heartbroken #anxiety

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December 5th. Day 5 - Handwriting.
A bit dark and negative for and xmas challenge but I'm posting it anyways! 
This is an entry in what i call my dark journal, and i really like how the photo turned out. I don't write in this journal everyday, only when i need to. If I'm having a dark day or dark thoughts they all tend to go on this journal. I find it helps me get it all out. 
Do you keep a diary or a journal? 
#amateurphotography #attemptingphotography #anxiety #depression #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillnessjourney #tryingtorecover #inrecovery #cbt #pma #Positivementalattitude #decemberphotochallenge #decemberphotochallenge2018

December 5th. Day 5 - Handwriting. A bit dark and negative for and xmas challenge but I'm posting it anyways! This is an entry in what i call my dark journal, and i really like how the photo turned out. I don't write in this journal everyday, only when i need to. If I'm having a dark day or dark thoughts they all tend to go on this journal. I find it helps me get it all out. Do you keep a diary or a journal? #amateurphotography #attemptingphotography #anxiety #depression #mentalhealthawareness #mentalillnessjourney #tryingtorecover #inrecovery #cbt #pma #Positivementalattitude #decemberphotochallenge #decemberphotochallenge2018

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